the 4 items i cannot live without.

hello, while i was in the shower it just dawned on me that there are certain things that i cannot live without so i thought i'ld just talk about it! yes i'm weird....

1)Shampoo
Yes shampoo. conditioner or soap nevermind, i need shampoo. Cause when i dont shampoo my hair it gets greasy and i get depressed cause my hair looks awful and FEELS awful and when i'm depressed i can't do anything so i will die.

2)Shoes
Shoes are essential. remember homerun? that singaporean movie? I cannot bear to think about walking without shoes. cant bear to imagine my precious feet being stabbed and stained by rocks and grass and mud and ugh, dirt! cannot cannot. must have shoes.

3)Handphone
i was debating between handphone, handphone charger, laptop and a laptop charger. came to the conclusion that i can always borrow someone else's charger, and then i'll be invincible! some phones have internet anyway. and why i need a handphone? cause if i need to call the police or someone to rescue me then yeah,will come in useful lor. this one is no-need-to-explain one.

4)A knife
I dont really have one now and i'm still surviving but.... i'm seriously considering getting a pocket one. cause you can use it to:
a)stab bad people
b)kill your food if you're stranded somewhere
c)open cans(its so agonising when you're hungry and the tin of delicious food doesnt have that lever thing so you have to pry the bloody can open with a knife! i can't use can openers for nuts so that's not an option for me.
d)cut your toenails and fingernails and dig the dirt out. oh ya i cannot stand long nails it drives me mad. and i can't stand jagged ones either so i can't bite them. so if i'm desperate.. KNIFE it is!!

to me ah.. money's not important cause you can EARN money. to earn money you have to have nice shampoo-ed hair to smell and look nice, a knife to cut your nails and keep you well-fed, a mobile phone to look important and of course shoes to be neat! and you say why not buy these with money? then i say if you're stranded somewhere without shops how?? ah..

off to do some work.

bye!

huayshan

it's nice,

to be around my parents when they're happy and at peace

to know that my family doesn't give a shit that i'm not a perfect straight-a student all the time as long as (and i quote) "i'm fundamentally of decent character"

to have singapore to look forward to

to have brother yuen to look forward to

to have vanessa

to feel peaceful and serene

to be able to go to sleep every night with a smile on my face.

nightnight!

huayshan

i've been eating a lot.

and am kinda enjoying my time in malaysia. my dad is still in a very good mood and i just wonder why he doesn't stay this way all the time, everyone is so much happier! ah anyway nevermind that.

been doing work like a good girl, i'm real worried cause somehow i feel like i may still fail this time, this isn't something that i can breeze through so i keep forcing myself to take it seriously. :)

driving's been a good distraction, i really can't wait to drive cause then i can:
1) drive to shopping centres on my own next time, won't be so bored in malaysia anymore!
2) MEET MY FRIENDS. i just realised i got quite a few decent friends here and it'll be lovely to go rekindle some friendships.
3)DRIVE YOU GUYS AROUND IF U COME TO SG. the day i get my license is the day you are all officially welcome to come to msia, i be your chauffeur, no problemo. now a bit hard ah.... (if elizabeth sees this, i'm thinking about you as i type this.)

that day at driving an ah beng hit on me. i'm a bit worried about going tmr in case i see him again but yay my newfound driving friend(met her on the first day and we became fast friends!) will be going so i'll have company(:

right then, take care!!

p/s been listening to miley's 'the climb' and it's a real meaningful song but i dont agree with one line- "it's not about what's on the other side.." cause it does matter what's waiting for me on the other side!! ok random if u watched the movie/ heard the song you'll know what i mean.

huayshan

Loss.

sometimes you don't realise how much you love or want something until you're almost losing it. whenever i feel sleepy and lazy i remind myself that if i dont pass this time i'll lose this and that scares the shit out of me. i need it and i want it so badly, i'm beginning to see how annoying and painful it is to be dependant on other people for money and to not have a purposeful life. Urh!! I'm going to do well this time!!! I'm not going to assume I can breeze through life anymore. This is too precious to risk. Glad I realised that now. You have my word, once I've passed this, I'll never ever ever have another resit ever again. I. Will. Get. There.

SHAN!

*coughs*

uh-hum.

a lot of things to tell everyone about. let me state the facts loouuud and clear.

1) ME failed one paper. therefore i have a resit in BIRMINGHAM at the end of august, so i'm flying back there to do it which breaks my heart. i'm flying back after though so yay! anyways, if i fail this resit they claim i have to take repeat the year. so i'm quite anti-social now even though i'm back, sorry about that. have to study.

2)i'm coming to sg end july/early aug week. for sure. yay! but i'll not be spending much time out :( just a few dinners to hug my loved ones. =) more fun after i'm back from my resit.

3)my parents (yes even dad) are being so nice and supportive i am afraid. cause my dad's niceness is very unnatural to me and im just waiting for him to explode. ill tell u when he does.

4) surprisingly, am loving malaysia. signed up for driving, and can prob finish it by the time i go back to bham. have to do the whole course in malay and it cracked me up when i went for the theory lesson. my indian instructor babbled away in malay and it felt weird but i really liked it!

5) my dad's friend from sg came to msia so we all went out for dinner. and i happened to get along vvvvv well with my dad's friend's wife so we babbled away abt bags and the uk experience cause she went to school there, and today while i was studying my mom popped her head into my room and said "aunt jenny bought you your basheeya bag." and i just stared at her. it's balenciaga btw, i mentioned it and she got her daughter to get me one(pirated btw not real)! it's not the classic design but it's quite nice, i'll use it v often so u'll see it =)

that's all for now......

shan