Loss.

sometimes you don't realise how much you love or want something until you're almost losing it. whenever i feel sleepy and lazy i remind myself that if i dont pass this time i'll lose this and that scares the shit out of me. i need it and i want it so badly, i'm beginning to see how annoying and painful it is to be dependant on other people for money and to not have a purposeful life. Urh!! I'm going to do well this time!!! I'm not going to assume I can breeze through life anymore. This is too precious to risk. Glad I realised that now. You have my word, once I've passed this, I'll never ever ever have another resit ever again. I. Will. Get. There.

SHAN!