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it's just one of those days. when you feel like everything's going wrong. when you feel like something's not right,but you just can't put your finger to it. i feel sad cause i'm not feeling happy when i'm supposed to be feeling happy, and i get jealous when i start thinking about how other people are happy. i think of people, hope they are thinking of me but i know that some of them may not be because they're too pre-occupied with their own lives. it's weird how i can feel like things are going so right one day, and feel the opposite just an hour or two later. i felt so good this afternoon watching my kids. i can barely squeeze a smile now. i wish i could just destroy,burn,iron out all the creases in my life. straighten it out,make it good. again.

see you all after next fri.