hello,

MY POSTER!(unfinished) more on that later.

i've been a wee bit stressed lately cause of ******** i'm tired of complaining about the same thing sigh...... and i was reading lizzie's blog(everyone go read her goat post, it's somewhere in 2007 abt her mom wanting to buy a goat, it totally made my day) and reading emails from lovely people and i kiiiiiinda got the feeling that i'm being a whiny brat.

cause honestly, my life's as good as it can get already and somehow i still keep finding excuses to make myself worried and stressed. and i'm always raving and ranting about how he hates me and wants to make my life miserable.. but i guess deep, deep VERY VERY DEEP, deep until you need 1,000,000 metres of rope to reach the bottom; DEEP in him there's some form of affection for me cause it just hit me that not everyone is in freezingland finishing a poster about specialists in allergy(cool right, i know!). i always thought that he sent me here cause he wanted something to brag about or cause of a strong sense of duty but when i stop to think about it............

i guess God's trying to teach me that i ought to cherish happiness and freedom when i have it. thanks God. not a very pleasant lesson, but an important one nonetheless. if there's anyone else who has similar issues, a tip from me is that trying to see things in a positive light is much better than harbouring anger and resentment. i alternate between moments of anger and peacefulness but i always feel better when i think positively.eg, instead of thinking he's such a pain!! think he's doing it cause he cares.deep deeep DEEEEEP deep until a coin takes 5 mins to reach the bottom deep. deep down.

off to shower, admire my poster and slack around a bit. gg bowling tmr for erica's birthday, thurs=visit peiying at warwick, fri=poster presentation, sun= visit the daughter of the woman who wants to buy a goat!

is the vj 25th on 25th june or july ah?

huayshan