you know ah one thing i realised when i read everyone's blog is that i'm probably the only person who spelled out his/her grades. why why why tell me why. aiyah A then A B then B lorrr.

then hor,i was trampled and squashed today. i was made to feel insignificant, parasite-like and unwanted. so a-n-n-o-y-i-n-g. aiiii. i've always tried to make everybodeh lurve mua but it's obviously impossible. whee i'm a human i have faults. boohoo. i am talking crap.

i feel pathetic. i have nowhere to call home. msia?spore? and i've stayed in so many places i have no idea which to call my house. sometimes i want to settle down with a hot dude in the middle of ghana and plant pepper in my backyard. i cant wait to head for uni. like that's a easy process. roar, where do i go?

i got so exasperated with myself today. sometimes i think i'm a worrier. when i was being made in my mommy's body some mad scientist injected a WORRY-541 gene into my young body. things are actually going very well for me. i've got a place doing the course i want but now i'm worrying bout whether i should go to australia instead. yuen huayshan!!

then there's,to quote marian keyes, himself. i shall liven up my blog by including something about that. i think my blog's not that hot cause i'm rarely emotionally distressed or depressed. himself keeps popping out like a daissssyy and i don't think i am or will ever be herself to himself. nah. see. i'm not gay and i have a life!

then hor, there's next week. it's a happening week. teaching+outings= fun but EXHAUSTION. here's what happens every morning at about 7-9am. first, ms yuen hears her phone alarm ring(sometimes it's an actual person calling me but i'll just press the red button anyhow and apologise later. that's how i always find strange messages and call records on my phone) then ms yuen thinks about how she can cancel her plans for the day to lie in bed till she gets bedsores that puts her (late)grandfather's to shame. her top three excuses are, she has food poisoning, she has a last min family dinner and sometimes she just hecks care when she's too tired to think of an excuse and just tells the truth, she overslept! most of the time though she realises grudgingly she can't cancel and sets her alarm for about 5 mins later and eventually drags herself out of bed to do a tinkle(aint it a lovely way to say pee) and turn her room upside down to find sth to wear. usually after messing up her cupboard and room, she sprints out of the house. boohoo. what a life.

xxoo huay shan