today was traumatising. i tell you ah the amount of times i want to quit a day... then i think about $$$ and i tell myself to hang on. teaching is very interesting but i would never want to be a teacher for life. like seriously.

today i went into the best sec4 class to teach amath(differentiation of trigo) and i taught the wrong stuff. i prepared the lesson very carefully and thoroughly but i screwed up. got all flustered and panicked and i screwed up. it was like "'cher why like that? wrong la 'cher!" and "err... wait okay, let me check." "cher!! i don't understand this one!" "okay okay hang on a sec alright?*panics*" and lots of random chers here and there. gosh. scary. finally i ended the lesson feeling like utter crap. but when i went in later again it got slightly better cause i could talk to them one on one and i'm just hoping tmr's lesson will be better. it's so tiring, having to prepare lessons for every student cause diff students go at diff paces, and i'm seriously so exhausted. rachel was hilarious today. let me tell you what she said.
"huay shan you should let down your hair some time(i tie my hair up in school)"
"err very messy lah dowan"
"but your hair looks really tame!"
"*silence* HAHHAHHAHAHHAHA"

and

"let's go for lesson!"(me)
"so early? i feel like a fooool lah always stand outside the class waiting!"
"*silence* HAHAHHAHAHAA"

it may not sound funny here but wait till you hear her say it in her whiny voice and look at you with her doe eyes. HOHO. but she's been really great to have around (:

alright gotta munch dinner. takecare all. marianne!! what's up babah! keep it cool yea.

xxoo huayshan