slacking

so, what have i been up to?

like huayshan said, i shouldn't be here either. so why am i here? prelims have just ended and i'm already going bonkers. bao and i caught shoot em up today like 5 minutes before the movie started only to partially regret it later on! the gory scenes and extreme violence isn't exactly worth the $9.50! oh well, it's a form of de-stress since this period is disgusting! the action was good though, seriously. i'm not trying to console myself. and dessert was good too! gosh! i haven't eaten there in a while.

anyway, i'm a grey's addict. are you? if you aren't, you should be. season 3's such a blast! it's touching yet funny, happy yet sad. i can't wait for season 4! apparently, it's out already. what a great time to get addicted to tv. heroes season 2 is awesome too!

this week's been a pretty rough week. i'm glad things have straightened out already. now, i guess it's time to get down to the serious business of mugging my ass off for As. you know what i hate? mugging. (inside joke)

alright, all the best to everyone out there! back to heroes :)

i am not supposed to be here. repeat it with me. i am not supposed to be here. aiyohh.

yay last bio mcq tomorrow. actually no yay. it means A levels are even nearer. rah sometimes i wonder if i'll really scrape through this time round.mm. overall prelims felt worse than midyears. no Es for me but most likely my grades will range from Cs to Ds. aiyah.

coo!ran with euniceee for the first time since i got booted off the team and COO i miss the overhead bridge, the awful 10'o clock sun and well i miss feeling her bony body floating beside me while i slump and run like an overweight badger rah. i have been rather monstrous the past few days, not good huayshan! but hostel food is, though yummy, unfulfilling! ah, food.

ok i have no life so i have nth to talk abt. i just feel like typing rubbish. like what is the point of having nails?like seriously. u just paint and bite them. and use them to relieve itches. but cant u use like a pencil for that. and cant u paint ure lips and cant u bite ure er. apple or sth? ok go away huayshan.

it's been about a week since school "officially" ended and i'm missing school already :)
i feel as if someone just fast-forwarded my life in vj! dread the end of it. i dread not spending next year in vj donning the beige uniform and ill sorely miss searching for the college pin every morning!

and all the people who have made such a difference in my life, people i dearly love, people who will probably disappear from my life after A's,no matter how many promises we make. i've ended several chapters in my life but this, ending my school-uniform-wearing, scholar-living-in-hostel era will be like ending a volume in HUAYSHAN'S BOOK OF LIFE. raaah.

and not seeing eunice's skinny legs anymore.. not heading off to the malay stall with wanyun anymore.. not running to east coast anymore.. not poking my head into stella's room anymore.. not pretending to jog into school (when i'm late) anymore.. it's intolerable!

i feel like crying lah. the focus of schooling should be fostering stronger and more meaningful ties with the people around you, instead of spending hours trying to sponge-ify your brains. mr ho told us,on a very memorable day, that there're only two things that life really is about:
1)finding meaning in our lives
2)appreciating our loved ones and those around us

but to quote mr harris this time, while we blame the education sytem for stuffing us into this awful awful situation, we ourselves are victims of our own ambitions. 'fess up, we want to do well. even if the whole education system got revamped and we can still lead a good life without the A's nothing would change. you'ld still find muggers locked up in vj at 10pm. sigh. i wish i could get rid of my peculiar desire to do well. my determination to do well, even though i know it doesnt really matter and im abandoning what matters for it. don't you?