writing on a lazy sundayy

it's been long. anyhow, it's been going okay. i got 75% for my pharmacology test! it's 20% of another module. so not bad la =) perked me up a bit im not so stupid after all :)

been a fun few nights, went for an oriental society(fecx) ball which ended with dancing at the disco place which was MINDBLOWINGLY awesome. i think 2 things define a perfect dancing experience-good company that loves to dance, and awesome music-both of which were present that night. the fecx people were all high and dancing madly and clara and veronica were with me all the time and they love dancing too so it was awesome! then i had promised jima to go to fab(this clubbing night at the guild of students every sat night) so i went despite being pretty unenthusiastic and that was MINDBLOWINGLY fun too. songs weren't that great but towards the end it picked up and i was freaking unglam bouncing and jumping but it was great fun and i think i lost weight! haha. and great bonding session with shimei and erica(future housemates) when we left at about 230plus we walked through what i think is the most gorgeous part of campus-this huge area of grass and trees and benches-shimei was running like a total twat and jima skipping, and me twisting around like a ballerina while erica snapped pics hahaha. and i felt just really good then cause i have a great feeling about our relationship as roomies next year(:

and i actually did work ytd, despite waking up late from the fecx night out and having to prepare to go out at night! am i not awesome!!?? lets hope today ill be good too =) mwak.

xxx
huayshan

Let Your Hair Down!

Finally, the long awaited day has arrived and I am free! (:
Although the papers didn't go well, I DON'T CARE COS THEY'RE OVER! Time to pop the champagne and have plenty of uninterrupted fun!
Last night was a blast! Went over to Howl At The Moon. It was good stuff! I had plenty of fun (: The entertainment there is ace! Would love to go back there if my money permits!
So here's to plenty more good times to come. I simply cannot wait!! No more studying in macs till the wee hours in the morning! How awesome is that. Holidays here I come! Now it's time to sit down and really think of all the things I wanna do. (!!)

xoxo
MAR

i'm kinda wondering how long this blog will last,

and kinda feeling very odd now.

good news and bad news. pick!

1)good news.
i found housemates! well hopefully we'll stick together. shimei asked me today if i wanted to stay with her,erica and sangeeth. and she asked me to ask jima too. and i just did and she knew abt it alr and she's all for it so yay!! erica's this girl from hk that i dont know v well but she seems nice enough, and sangeeth's this indian brit girl who's damn funny. =)

2)bad news.
father screamed at me on skype yesterday *sheepish* cause of my results, and cause i booked an air ticket that was too expensive. sigh and he wants to BUY a house here which is a gd idea i agree but which is rather leceh. and i feel odd being my friends' landlord. hopefully ill end up not buying a house please pleaseeeee. aiyah, seriously it's sucky that i dont like the way my dad treats me and i know it doesnt matter cause what he says is not true( he insinuated that i have everything here and that i have no excuse to not do well and hence i am BAD) but i cant help feeling quite affected. basket lah. the one thing messing up my otherwise lovely life. for goodness sake im almost 20. i still feel sad when daddy scolds me. am i a kid or what!!

jima's knocking for dinner. see ya. let me know if u face the same thing ild be happy to share misery (:

shan

Some Random Updates

It's been a while since I've last updated so here's just some random, jumbled up thoughts/happenings in my life:

- I wanna become a semi-vegetarian. Ever since reading about how becoming vegetarian can help stop global climate change and having always not fancied meats such as pork and beef, I'd really like to try it for a bit. It's just gonna be chicken, fish and my green veggies. We'll see how that works out though before thinking about anything more.
- I think I wanna do a detox as well. I feel that my body has accumulated junk thanks to studying at macs and late night suppers and I think they need to go. Need to think of a proper time to do so though and not to mention where to get the kit from. I think it'll do me some good though!
- Joy rides and suppers at 2 or 3am are good ways to destress and have fun! The simple pleasures in life just are the best sometimes.
- I think I have become a frequent patron of Macs near my house already. All the studying there. It's been pretty productive though, considering how the bed always beckons when I'm at home.
- Solitare and spongebob are a good combination to relax after some studying. I can't believe how we crashed on the sofa and watched a good half hour of Spongebob that day. I like Patrick!
- My brain is officially over-used and fried. I cannot wait for Thursday!
- I feel weird not having someone to relate my day to. It's merely been a week and already, it feels odd. I need to be more independent in some sense. Ugh, the issue still bugs me now and then. I need to put in a box and set it aside, at least for 4 more days.
- There're plenty of things I'd like to do once the dreaded papers are over!
- I need to start running everyday or have some lean mean exercise regime to get geared up. I hope that works out, it will contribute to getting the junk out of my body.
- I miss everyone. Except for those I see almost everyday.
- I need a weekly dosage of Grey's, Big Bang and Heroes. They are my saving graces. Amazing how they do teach you a thing or two about life and laughter. What would I do without them?

That's about it. Excuse the randomness. I'm exhausted and it's time to sleep.

xoxo
MAR

poor, hungry and cold

i am indeed.

thankfully my room is warm and my fridge is well stocked up so im good for this weekend.

everything's been going normal and smoothly, dragged myself out of bed everyday this week(so proud! didn't skip any morning lectures) and gp placement on thursday was great, as always. rmb that girl i told u in my group that i didnt like and that got mumps the last time? i kinda got along alot better with her this time and i was pretty surprised. we ended up partnered to interview the patients and i could get along with her surprisngly well. just blabbed and talked and laughed. esp when we were playing with each others' reflexes later on it was great fun. haha this makes my gp placement extra-fantabulously-awesome cause now i like ALL my groupmates. The guy pissed me off initially in the morning(cause he can be damn blur) and we got a bit lost hunting for the bus stop cause the normal bus stop was obstructed due to road works. but later on at night i was walking over to a friend's place to wish her happy birthday and the guy was also going and i bumped into him outside her flat and he was all decked out in a suit and looked so pleased with himself. he was like, so do i look good?and he did so i said yea yea u do! and he beamed and looked so pleased i couldn't help laughing and forgiving him. haha he's just BLUR.

this is random but some ppl get obsessed with boots, some with winter coats(Seriously i know someone who has a million trench coats of all lengths and colours and designs) some with leggings, but I, yuenhuayshan officially love scarves. buy me some for my birthday. haha i think they're so fun to play with and they can keep u WARM and make ure outfit look soooo much better. I LOVE SCARVES!!!!

off to do nonsense.

huayshan

back from a bout of depression

i think i owe you an explanation. :)

Firstly,let me tell you why I was going through a rough patch the past few days. I think I did alot of whining to vanessa,chang,wong,and elise. sorry guys but thanks for being there to listen. been awhile since i've been so annoying right so im sure ull forgive me. thankew liesel for wasting a dollar isit? for the text =)

So WHY? why so sad. let me tell you:

1)55% for test, wanted to cry and die.

2)housing issues for next year damn stressful

3)Bloody air ticket. family members damn indecisive when it comes to bookings. like BLOODY HELL there'll always be a cheaper one!!! (p/s i'm annoyed but i love them all fiercely and devotedly and dearly cause they've been absolutely darling to me esp my mummy who leaves me offline messages on msn everyday without fail and she always says sth that makes me smile and feel loved)

4)badminton social was pretttty messed up for me.

5)skipped a tutorial (where attendance is marked) and two lectures(when i told myself not to after getting my marks) because i was sleepy, and i was sleepy because i went out the night before even though i knew i would have trouble waking up the next morning. i'm seriously facing discipline issues. its honestly very worrying, i'm really playing more than i can afford to.

Butttt.. i'm feeling better now. slowly solving all my problems and fixing them up. IM BACK TO MY NORMAL OPTIMISTIC LOGICAL THINKING SELF. *smiles happily* i think im very brutally honest here. dont judge me hor. Oh ya i wanted to intro you all to shi-mei!! medic living upstairs, slowly becoming my new favourite friend .

jima, SHI-MEI, their friend whose name i cant remember -_-, and me. ok not a very flattering picture but you get the idea. haha!

so life is still rocky but im determined to stay optimistic and study hard. AND DO WELL. wish me luck ya..

huay shan

ill tell you why later,

but i'm feeling messy and down and ugly and unlikeable now. so if you love me please leave me a hug to get me through today :)

huayshan

please stop telling me how poor i am

let's start with something nerdy. look at this picture. it's a picture of a diagram in my book. i needed to draw it for some presentation i have to give tomorrow. so.. two hours later.....

I COME UP WITH THIS GORGEOUS SPECIMEN OF A DRAWING. ain't it awesome????*points downwards*

on a more fun tone, here's clara. hongkong medic that i liked at first sight. i just really liked her and i thought she was pretty and chatted with her a few times but never really talked TALKED to her. we went shopping and eating yesterday and had a lovely time=)

this is for corrine. sausages, beans and cheese on bread. love u corrine! ask cherlyn to learn to make mango cake leh.

this post was posted cause of liesel. her ISE(what is that??) hung cause she came to my blog.and i didnt even have a new post up *blushes* this is for you liesel!!

my next few days velly happening. sat-going to nottingham. random some singaporean event. oh shaddup i know im malaysian. at night, badminton social. oh marianne, i found someone to buddy with me alr!! i am a bit apprehensive abt going cause most of the badminton ppl i know aren't going but... let's just hope it'll be fun.*crosses fingers* sun, uh study and sleep and badminton at night. mon night out with some random international medics. wed, a medicine musical called kiss me kate -_-. and finale....... *GONG ROLLS*....

IM GOING TO PARIS IN JANUARY AFTER MY EXAMS!!!! parents kindly gave me permission and jima and shimei(oo i must tell u about shimei, pretty malaysian brit girl medic living upstairs but she totally looks brit and well, pretty!) are going so it will be really good fun. a weekend in paris and we get to sightsee and there's a clubbing event there one night. omg my life so rocks lah.

not.

i am really really tired, and there's really lots of stuff to do. and i'm hungry now sigh. and sometimes days drag on and on and i really feel like screaming.and i hate dragging myself out of bed. but i'm pretty proud that i can drag myself out when i need to. anyhow, if ure wondering about my title up there *points* it's what i mutter under my breath after withdrawing money everyday. (:

p/s please leave me offline msges if u wanna stay in touch with me it's an awesome way to keep in touch, it's like talking to each other on a daily basis!

xxxxxx

huayshan

A Colourful Farewell

So, today is the first time I'm home so early on a Monday night and it feels ... strange.
I feel empty somehow, as though I have nothing to do when I actually have to start studying for the dreaded finals. I know there are plenty of things I wanted to do when I was free but I just don't have the mood. This might come out sadistic but I'm having withdrawal symptoms from trainings with Polly Pockets. No kidding. It's only been 2 days since our finals together and I miss training with them already. All the fun and laughter we used to have and just the awesome company they gave me. Monday nights will never be the same again.

On a brighter note, I'm done with hell weeks and now it's just gonna be training up for IVP and studying for the dreaded finals. It feels strange not having to rush from one place to another. On one hand, I miss it and on the other, I'm glad for it. Then again, I'm still feeling the joy from Saturday! Champions for the contact friendlies and WTL. I couldn't ask for more. I'm really glad that our hard work really paid off. I had one of the best days of the year on Saturday even though it was insane. I'll put the pictures up when I get them.

Sigh, everything's slowly coming to an end. It's only been 4 months, yet it feels like a full year already. We still have another term to go. At least there's December to look forward to: family trip, everyone coming home (!!), huge reunion (!!!), christmas, new year and a possible fishing trip. Oh joy, I really can't wait!

Alright, time to kick start 3 weeks of studying.

P.S.: I miss everyone!

xoxo
MAR

my amusing thursday night

i'll let the pictures do the talking. those of you who miss my face, here's a treat for you!! started off with the vale fireworks- there was a funfair in this massive open area near my hostel and there was a firework show(which was the highlight) at abt 9pm. so...
so we're enjoying ourselves looking at bright lights at the funfair didnt get to go on any rides cause the queues were really long and i didnt want to spend the money too :)

i only put this up cause i look nice. oh i'm wearing the topshop jacket i just bought! ehhe and that's michelle, a sporean girl that i always talk to=)

the fireworks were really spectacular. but i couldnt seem to capture nice pics, ai..

look like a farmer got really angry and threw lots of rambutans into the air huh. haahah. after the fireworks i went back and got ready to go for an after-party with my flatmate(jima) and michelle. it was meant to be a small stress-relieving dancing session but it turned out to be damn amusing. want to tell you all hehe. firstly, we went to have a little drink, and took pictures of course. nothing unusual. so...

me, michelle, jima.

one of my best friends so far in med school. i seriously bang her door everyday and tell her everything that i feel like talking about. she's the only non-asian that i am really open to here. ok right after this pic was taken, a random dude(old-ish, about 30s?) came to ask me to salsa with him-_- i was like err..... about to say no and run away but the two were nodding at me and i was thinking, aiks this is UK people are just friendlier! so i went on and salsa-ed with him. i suck but it was great fun and he was a perfect gentleman. (: damn fun first time i've ever done sth like this. then we went to another room.

yaya camwhore camwhore. sorry jima's face got cut off. haha she was wearing heels leh. i very tall. heheehheeh. thennnnn... we got bored and went up to the salsa room area again.and ANOTHER guy came to ask me and michelle and jima(who adamantly refused) to salsa. so i salsa lor. im getting not bad at it. just keep spinning. like this.....

the guy said he was from paris but i highly doubt he is a pure parisian. hahaha looked like he was from hongkong leh.

and i spin!! cool, no???? kind jima took the pictures. first time round no pics, sigh. but that one i lousy so best that u dont see that :)

here's one with my dear flatmate.

and here's another story- i was taking this picture of the two... when this random guy taps me and says, hey, i'll take a picture for you three!

ta-da! i thought he was like a bartender or sth. then he suddenly says hey let's take a picture!! and ...

and then he says to his friend who took this picture, come into the picture, you! and the friend looked mortified and for awhile everybody didnt know what to say. but the drunk always wins. so..

and after this pic, the girl dragged the absurdly jovial guy away to a corner to dance. i think they think we're crazy for agreeing to take random pictures.

entertaining no????? hahaha was a decent night out. okay, gotta sleep and head to library early tmr, test on monday!! =D

huayshan!

stressed lah.

Some pictures to brighten up my post. I am velly stressed. a lot of work and very little time. the only reason why it's not as bad as singapore is because the angmohs are more laid back. hardworking but they REALLY REALLY play hard and work hard. its not just a phrase to them. and everywhere i go people tell me how they havent started etc so im not that stressed haha. what am i saying. i am stressed. but not stressed at the same time. ok weird. okkkkaaaay pics. lame attempt to take picture of it snowing outside my room=)

looks like its raining hor.

haha i cook during weekends and i always love taking a pic before i eat.

take note of the lovely polka-dotted plate please!! chio or not i ask you? aaaaanyways im tired. jus came on to say heeeelooo! and im tireeeeeeed. need to shit. MWAK!

SHAN

Accomplished

After the past few days of painting, scraping and moving, we're finally done with our LTB project execution. I must say it was a sheer mix of hard work, team work and fun. Renovating the room proved to be a daunting task with lots to do and many hours spent at the home just literally sweating it out. Going for training and back to school after was no joke as well. But the company I had was a bunch of joy and the feeling of seeing our project successfully completed was swell. I'm really glad that things worked out despite some slips here and there and damn am I glad it's over. I no longer have to struggle to wake up at ungodly hours just to get to the home on time. It's been a hectic few days and I'm glad it's over. I couldn't have asked for a better bunch of people to work with. It's definitely been a blast. And seeing the joy of the staff and kids is ace as well! Now we're finally at our finishing line. (We still have presentations and reports to finish up)

Finally I got that out of the way! It's a huge load off my back and I rewarded myself with some mindless humour -- Tropic Thunder. I found it stupidly hilarious, which is basically what we needed. Last night turned out surprisingly fun. Made new friends and had a ball of a time. Been a while since I've had a break. Unfortunately, it's short lived. It's back to yet another busy week in school packed with presentations, work and trainings. I have no idea how to survive but I guess it's possible since I seem to have come out of those hell weeks alive thouhg emotionally scarred. I don't know how to explain it but I think these hell weeks really take a toll on you emotionally and it sucks because I feel horrible and like a horrible person. Oh well, I'll get through this. Thank God for friends, rugby, ABBA music and tv.

Alright, time for work and studying now.

xoxo
MAR

a quick one

does anyone still come here. haha anyhow quick update! I have tons and tons of work mounting up and this time I'm busy cause I HAVE TO DO THE WORK. and got a pretty impt test coming up. whew!

quite sad cause my friends and i didn't get the tix to a halloween party i really wanted to go to. was quite emo the other day cause i was seriously looking forward to it and so many ppl i knew were gg but im over it. haha.

Tired now. Got a lot of work!!!!

i've been okay lately, still feeling a little ostracised by some members of my tutorial group now and then but i guess it'll take time. kept reminding myself how unhappy i was in sec 1 and beginning of j1 and how happy i was a year later. shit. gotta wait how long!!

oh yes!highlight of my week. yesterday was my second GP session. 9am to 5pm but pure pleasure. My groupmates are awesome(didn't like 1 girl very much but she had mumps so didn't come ytd hehehhee) One's an indian-british guy who's damn funny and nice and his good friend is my good friend in my tutorial group. okay sounds complicated i know. he's nice. then there's this london girl who is really very nice and funny she was babbling about her relationship issues and she was a tad hungover from the night before or sth so she would let out little giggles or squeals at times i couldn't stop laughing. anyhow our tasks were interesting ytd.(may i mention here my GP is the loveliest man alive) lots of stuff but most interesting: approaching patients in the waiting room and asking them what they know about diabetes. yup, topic that day was diabetes btw. DAMN DAMN SCARY but i feel awesome now that i know i've done it. i'm relieved cause even though i cant talk to some of the angmoh medics, i can at least talk to angmoh patients quite easily. And the second interesting task: two diabetic patients were brought in specifically for us to interview. i did my patient with the guy and i felt like a gp hahaha in the little gp consultation room talking to the patient. long story but i think i did really well and i rmb thinking during the session that i was so happy and that this happiness seriously cannot compare to the happiness i get when i look all pretty in my pictures after clubbing. my days may suck when it rains (oh btw it snowed the other day! ok can u see my post is random and jumbled haha ohwell can u imagine me babbling this to you??) and when i'm hungry and when i feel lonely but at the end of the day i can never be unhappy cause i heart my course.

off to do more work. bye!

xx
shan