Summer

Realise I haven't done up a proper post about the holidays yet.
So summer's finally here. Still feels pretty surreal and weird cos I'm just not used to having so much free time! Funny what uni life does to you. The holidays have been great so far. A good balance of home time and going out. It does feel that there's limited things to do here though! Did a lot of random things, which turned out to be really fun! Great catching up with people too (:
Rugby has been good too! Feels like I'm learning a lot of new things and working on my individual skills. Really enjoy trainings and the suppers after. Am glad to be able to train without having to think about school work now. Can't wait to play again after all those weeks of breaks!

On a more random note, I wish I were more courageous in certain aspects. I realise I'm a real coward when it comes to talking about certain things or facing certain things for that matter. It's a problem I've had for a long time and never really gotten down to solving it. I told myself to do it but I backed out last minute yesterday. I know it cannot go on any longer. I will get this solved. Aye, if only it was as easy as my friends say it would be.

xoxo
MAR

ask me why i hate exams. go on, ask me.

welll... i hate exams cause of the pre-exam period. classic i tell you, i'm always, ALWAYS in the same state before a major exam:

1)i do nothing but study(45%), and worry about studying(55%)

2)i get obsessed with something sweet and start eating it all the time, esp when i feel very stressed. during O's i was obsessed with white kitkat, during A's i was obsessed with maltesers, now i'm obsessed with chocolate coated caramel shortcakes. i have 4 in my room now. and the minute the chocolate coated caramel shortcake count goes down to 2, i panic and go and buy 3 more.

3)i start wearing glasses all the time and look very dumb shoving it up my nose every few minutes, esp when i'm walking back or talking to someone or when i'm carrying lots of books and i have to do a little jiggle to shove the glasses up and balance my books at the same time. i look like one of those ladies you see on the street that looks afraid of everybody, avoids eye contact and mutters to herself.

4)i LOSE SLEEP. from anxiety.

5) i spend almost an entire day in only one place. during O's it was the study room in hostel, during A's it was marine parade library cafe, now it's the school library. and i start making friends with the other geeks around me. and the housemistresses that switch off the lights/counter girl at the cafe/librarians.

story of my life.

boring and monotonous.

meep.

i cant wait zoo be back. zo i can zhop zhop and eat eat and start being ME again. you know, bouncing around, saying the randomest stupid things to annoy people, slapping everyone, ahh....

ooh i feel a poo coming. been constipated. right gottago then!

huayshan

Panic Mode

OMG. The worst possible news just reached me. My order from amazon.com is undeliverable. I realise my work of genius: I shipped it to my friend's address using my name. FML, really. I really hope I can rectify the situation. Have already e-mailed them regarding the situation so right now, all I can do is wait. I really hope it can be found and I did not just blow my money for nothing. Ugh. I am really scared right now and all I can do is hope for the best. I have to get it there by May so that it can reach my friend in time before they fly back. That leaves me a few days only! Goodness. I should have tracked it earlier! UGH! I know I should calm down but I can't!

What makes it worse is that I had a perfectly good day, till this came up. Brilliant. What a way to end a good day. I am really stupid.

Mar

ughh

very frustrating. a lot a lot of studying to be done. i can't stop feeling afraid i'll fail and have to have a resit! i got back an essay mark today, an essay that i put a lot of effort in and i got a lousy 58! it just annoys frustrates and scares me cause i really feel like i'm not in control of my marks. no matter how much or how little i work, my marks just do whatever they want with themselves. after i saw my marks i went crazy and stuffed my brain with muscles and nerves and arteries, kinda like stuffing a bun with pork. for now i can remember what happens between the elbow and the wrist but i still have to memorize what goes on between the shoulder and the elbow, the hand, between the butt and knee, knee and ankle, foot blablabla i am getting depressed thinking about it. it's just the fact that i can't control my grades. it's friggin frightening.

but don't worry i'm trying my best. no consolation needed here. =)

i'm trying to stop eating so much, no harm being less porky in the face and tummy. but it's very difficult to do for someone who has been eating uncontrollably for 20 years. very difficult. i had 2 kaya sandwiches, one microwaved lasagne, one kitkat, chips and beans and one caramel shortcake today. pig right. sigh..

and i'm sorry mc, ch and ch(ooh same initials) for forgetting.. i felt especially bad cause you've always been dead loyal to me and it made me feel like i take that for granted. i'll make it up to you when i'm back i promise i do.

been hooked onto law dramas recently. check out a few good men and 12 angry men(recommended by yi jin). good stuff.

huay shan

Finally!

Finally! The dreaded finals are over! Feels strange yet satisfying at the same time. Strange because I'm no longer a year 1. It just seems so fast! The past few weeks have been a blast! Now that summer's here, I'm really excited! Interesting stuff have happened these past few weeks! For one, my internet's finally up and working again after that weird period where certain websites weren't working. So here's the more interesting things that have happened.

1. Chilli crab!
Absolute heaven I tell you. It was brilliant. A great way to end the week - delicious seafood and great company (: I had a blast! Wish we could do it again but that'll only be possible in July when everyone's back! Still, I cannot wait! This time, we should make sure that someone drives so that we won't get lost again like idiots!

2. Pre and Post exam drinks
Again it was a blast! Opened bottles, partied. It was great. I think my tolerance has dipped though but oh well, it was fun nonetheless! Walking to Zion road barefoot, taking jump shots while we weren't sober, just chilling and doing weird/fun stuff. It was awesome. Hopefully we'll do this again some day. It's a great way to kick start the exam period and start of summer! (: Great company made it all worth while (:

3. Movies
Caught Taken and Revolutionary Road over the weekend. Personally loved Revolutionary Road. I think it was a fantastic portrayal of life and marriage. Thought the acting was brilliant as well! Absolutely loved it! Company was great too (:

So summer's here. Aside from all the event planning that's coming up, I'm gonna get back into contact as well as touch (though technically I never did take a break from touch). I reckon I really gotta get back in shape! Of course I can't wait to catch up with people and have some fun as well! (: It's been great so far. Really loved Monday (:

Have a great week!

xoxo
MAR

i can't afford to buy her pearls

i'm supposed to be studying ugh.

okay this will be quick!!

Monday: visited chi in london. went to watch chicago at night, pretty nice! and stayed over, her boyfriend is really nice and this random friend of hers there was nice too.

Tuesday: visited ELISE. and abt an hour before i met elise, elizabeth msged me randomly and we both discovered that we were in london so yes we ALL MET UP. first time all 3 of us met up in uk. it was really nice. a warm feeling. u know how sometimes when you're walking along the street and you look at other people and think about random stuff? haha well when i was with them i completely forgot other people existed for a bit. they were the only 2 faces i saw. oh ya and this is blog-worthy. and elise has given a very distorted version of this story on fb so its time to clear it up:

my train was meant to leave london at 9.30 and reach birmingham at 11.30 and i was already quite worried abt that cause i would have to get a cab back from the station alone and yeh, it's quite dangerous. but..... guess what happened? i missed the train. no its not cause elise talked too much, it's cause the tube stopped for quite some time to 'even out the train times' kena sai! so i had to flirt a bit with the train station guy and i got to board the next, and last train at 10.15. so i eventually reached bham at 12.30 am and uh.. took a cab back alone. i know.. asking for trouble right. haha i was really freaked out throughout the cab ride. but the cab driver kept talking to me and i tried to be friendly. and at one point i swear i thought i'd seen the last of sunlight cause he drove into a very dodgy area but no he was just taking a shortcut. when we finally reached the guy wanted to charge me 8 pounds. i knew the standard price was 5 so i kinda pouted and went 'six?' in the act-cute-test voice i could muster up. and yeh. i got it for 6 pounds. kudos to my flirting ability!

Wednesday and Thursday: went to manchester to visit liesel. went to the man u stadium which was cool and yea got to hang out with liesel! her hotel room was amazing and it was lovely shopping too. good fun those days. im not really a soccer fan though so i didnt go berserk over the tour. we saw the actual playing field(and spotted a kid plucking strands of grass) and we got to go to the players' actual changing room and touch their shirts. the only name i recognised was ronaldo and i didnt even know what he looked like till liesel pointed out a picture. -_- ohwell. haha!

oh ya and once again i reached back at abt 11.40pm. ran through a very dodgy road. ugh i'm really the most dangerous person. haha but on my way back i bumped into random malaysians and they walked me back. so yay i'm alive! i swear ill never do that again.

Friday and Saturday: tried very hard to study and kiiiiiiiinda succeeded. i studied for abt 3 hrs in the aft and slacked the rest of the day away but at least got a few hours of work in :)

Sunday(today): went to visit peiying in warwick! this was really good too. she cooked claypot rice for me. damn shiok. haha and bleating our life stories to each other like drunken sheep for hours it was real good talking to her. peiying's a good friend. oh ya and i skyped with dearest chengwei,annsiong,liesel and fred. spent a good few minutes staring at each other awkwardly but it was a nice warm feeling seeing them anyway. hug, guys.

so that's me. off to work.. or go home? ugh i don't know. alright. take care!

p/s i just realised its 11pm and i'm in med sch. have to walk back in the dark alone.. again. i live dangerously man.

huayshan

this will be quite an honest one.

yay before i head off tmr(pray i can wake up thankew) i thought i'ld just say this-

on a light note, SHREK 3 ROCKS and so do caramel coated chocolate digestives. and overcooked bacon.

on a more emotional note........ today was not a very nice day. had too much time to think and emo. and I HATE FACEBOOK. does anyone else realise that it has the power to make you miserable? sometimes when i facebook stalk people i get miserable and envious cause i think they're prettier la, better life la, more involved in activities la, blabla. i can imagine some of you going 'omg huayshan why are u telling everyone how immature you are??' but AIYAH sod it! ppl who read this are my buddies anyway and i would tell u all this if i havent already anyway. sigh.. i wonder if anyone looks at MY profile and is envious of me. HA! how ironic would that be?

can never be the best i guess.. i bet the ppl i 'envy' envy other ppl too. or how cool would it be if the ppl i envy, envy me? that would be funny.

im aware i may be ruining my reputation with this post. heh. but aiya, can't bluff lah. sympathy is welcome! so is reassurance! =)

but im alright-just too much time to think. :)

a hug, missing sg more than ever now.

huayshan

I is.

i is going to london on monday morning to stay with chi.

i is going to watch musical on monday night.

i is seeing elise on tuesday!

i is going to manchester to visit liesel on wed and thurs.

i is going to make her shop with me cause i is very restless.

i is very stressed.

i is going for run now.

i is update when i is back.

byebye!

huayshan

Sandwiches!

Just got back from a crazy day of studying and training. Time check, it's about 245am.

Anyway, just had some personally blog-worthy incidents I'd like to share. They are completely random so just bear with me.

1. I had a great Sunday night out with the gang. It was insane but a hell lot of fun! Pubbing was really a great way to chill out and catch up with them before study week began proper. The amount of alcohol was insane but it was fun and a good source of comfort/enjoyment. Couldn't have asked for a better way to spend my Sunday night. Thank God for friends like that, who make school less dull and always give me something random to look forward to!
2. My mum and I recently began sandwich making. Might not seem significant but it's a great way to start the day! Seriously. I woke up and had so much fun making a sandwich. A lot of people won't find it appetizing but here's what I made:
Basically it's different combinations of cheese, spinach leaves, cucumbers, tomatoes and garlic herb dressing. Seriously, the sandwiches are to die for! Especially for non-meat lovers like myself. It's a great way to start the day! Top it off with the Californian strawberries, it's brilliant. It certainly made my day! I guess this is just a stress-relieving thing. But it works well for me!

3. Training was great as well! I feel like I'm really learning a lot and having fun at the same time. I think these are the two most important factors that make a good training session. I'm really so happy training with the team. Aside from keeping me sane, I feel that I'm learning and hopefully improving along the way.

4. Have I mentioned that mudpie mcflurry is awesome as well? Well, it is. Try it if you haven't! It is great comfort food! I've had it two nights in a row and I think I'm gonna get myself one a day. (Bye healthy food diet!) I LIKE!

Alright, that's a random update, which totally highlights my boredom at such an ungodly hour. Shall get back to organising some notes before heading straight to bed. It's gonna be the same damn thing tomorrow. FML.

xoxo
MAR

liz is one lucky bugger.

ah, alas! something blog-worthy. the weekend at oxford!

jima kindly invited me to stay at her place for a weekend. it meant free food so i said yes!
sequence of events:

1)she came to bham to pick up stuff and brought me back with her. her dad drove us all back.

2)reached her massive englishy house. the jealousy begins.

3)meet her 12-year old sister and their 11-year old neighbour. i rediscover my childish side. haha at first i was a bit shy so i just smiled a lot but they're so hyper and the neighbour screamed so much i loosened up after awhile and screamed right back. we're now fast friends.

4)we eat and then we go watch the intepreter on the telly. haven't seen one in ages!

5)next day: FUNNEST DAY EVER. borrrowed jima's 2nd sister's(she has 4 sisters) bike and we both cycled to town. awesome fun!! liz i love how oxford is so cycling-oriented, they have specific markings on the road for cyclists, i've never seen that anywhere else! and although i tumbled a bit here and there when we reached uphill roads and TRAFFIC LIGHTS I HATED TRAFFIC LIGHTS, it was so fun and englishy to be whizzing past ppl on a bike. and i got a bit sian seeing roads only so i screamed TREES! i want to see TREES! and jima led me to another path and we whizzed past trees, it was gorgeous. i want a bike now. but bham is bloody dangerous to cycle in. arghhhh!

we just shopped and ate in town, and sat a bit in the university park, munching chocolate caramel flapjack thingies which are amazing. pics:

in a restaurant called the nose-bag. i know, what a strange name right!! according to my dear friend, its sth like a horse muzzle. but still..!!

university park. was a self shot so i couldnt get much of the view but the tiny bit shown here is so pretty already.

the other side of the park.

then after cycling home we just fooled around. jumped on the trampoline in her garden, swang, and threw balls around.

it's amazing how she caught this shot. i'm a chicken!!!

best i could get.

that swing is a bit siao. cannot go straight one!

what did i tell u? and u can see that huge white house behind me. that's her house. and check out the huge garden. u as jealous as me now? we watched vertigo at night. some alfred hitchcock film and it really was quite good! i want to watch his other films. esp psycho. heard a lot abt it. esp the shower scene. hoo!

so back to bhammm............. time to study. off now. bye dearies. hopefully this trip to manchester to see liesel will work out. its great making little mini trips here and there to see people and all. i love it. :)

huay shan

Hello Sunrise

I just decided to blog today.
I feel liberated today, no more deadlines to meet at least till next sem. I can't believe it either, it's almost the end of my first year. It's so scary! To think that I'm through with my first sem in uni already. It all seems too soon.
Today was perhaps the most insane till date. I have not seen the sunrise in a really long time. The last time being the stan chart marathon. I have no idea how I've survived this week. Sleeping in the wee hours of the morning is no joke and I think it's taking its toll on me already. I guess I owe it all to the great company throughout the night and the little bits of encouragement and reassurance along the way (: I'm so glad for sweet friends.
I can feel myself falling asleep as I lie in my comfy bed with croc. I am so glad it's over. Seriously TGIF.
I had a great day today. Huge relief plus a great dinner and dessert after. Friday has never felt so good. I cannot wait for the weekend. After that, it's back to the books and then... summer! I really cannot wait. Please come quickly!

xoxo
MAR

bloggy time!

hiya! time to bloggy-woggy! it's day 4 of my holidays and i am enjoying life. slacking to the fullest. and somehow although i was a bit lonely at the beginning i'm feeling more relaxed now. like, i actually LIKE being alone and isolated. whoo! haha. welll and i've been able to do the things i've always wanted to do:

COOK an actual meal from scratch, watch movies without feeling guilty, sleep in for more than 2 days in a row, visit my friends' houses, and paste pictures on the wall(haha this one quite dumb i'm leaving in a few months but ohwell, enjoy it while it lasts)

now i have to reply emails. which i will do right after this :D dHEN and lZAFI check ure inboxes soon!

pictures of me food: broccoli, cauliflower and onions and garlic and lee kum kee oyster sauce.

curry chicken and potatoes with coconut milk. my mama gave me the paste thank god.

the liz-shan famous fried rice.

nothing else very interesting.. oh i signed up to be a volunteer at the hospital attached to my school. been wanting to practice my talking skills and i don't get enough practice in my placements. it's pretty cool though, i had to fill in a form, get referees, go for interviews all and i can only start end of this year cause i have to undergo some induction course that only takes place 4 times a year and i can only go for the one in nov which is a real pain in the ass. but back to the point, i think it's mighty cool cause this is a real volunteering thing with uniforms and stuff. i really can't wait to start. start practicing my brilaysian(british-malaysian) accent.sounds like briyani. damnit i want to eat briyani now!! ughhhhh

been studying a WEE bit, and am a bit concerned cause i have a lot to cover. but i have 6 weeks! argh relax now while i can. :)

alrights that's really all i'm awful boring now, you should be badgering elise and elizabeth for interesting stuff i'm just plain old huay shan slacking around and enjoying life. HUGGYS.

huay shan

Welcome To My Life

Just thought I'd shed some light on what's been going on in my wonderful life these few days.

The week started alright as I had a break on Monday to catch up on work. However, all the good stuff ends there. These past 2 days have seen me stay in school for the entire day. If that's not enough, I spent 6 hours editing a stats report. Yes, a STATS report. I'm not kidding. Best thing? It's about 50 pages long and we're not quite done yet. And yes, we stayed till past 1am just to get it done. I just can't believe the sheer effort it takes just to get past school. I really can't take it. I do want to collapse any moment and just sleep. I've been sleeping at 3 plus 4 the past few days? I do get more sleep than a lot of people but I'm just completely drained and I have no idea why. This also makes me feel bad because I make people stay awake with me. But yes, I'm really glad and thankful for the company I get during the wee hours of the morning. It just makes the process less dreary I guess. But still, I feel bad.

I hope today will be a better day though I highly doubt so. I am trying to remember what I have to do but my brain just doesn't seem to be working? This is just great. Hell week, please be over soon!

I can't wait for Friday. Seriously. FML

P.S. I have no idea how I'm going to survive training later.

MAR