eht.

i've been trying for days to figure out how to spell that noise i always make when i have nothing better to say in a conversation. it's kinda like a nasal 'eh'. most accurate spelling i can come up with is eht. so.. eht.

annnyway today was nice! but i am a bit eht about my skills in the car(shit i'm addicted to this word now!). My mom was squealing every 10 mins when I was driving and I scratched her car :( that was her fault though i wanted to stop where i was when i was parking but she was like still can still can! but i'm a bit depressed cause i'm still damn lousy at changing gears and the people-who-honked-at-me count is now 3. in 2 days :( please console me and tell me all new drivers feel this way?

on bright side did a wee bit shopping and got 3 new pieces of clothing that i like! :D wondering when i should come down to sg........ will say when i've decided :)))))))))) but everyone's at uni eh must make time for me hor please?

eht.

huay shan

HUAY SHAN

i put my name up there*points* cause I'm proud of myself. Cause I love myself! Cause I'm pleased with the person I've become and the things I have done.

YAY im home(: and was a bit anxious about dad snapping out of his nice mood but nope, still nice. I panicked for a bit cause the bottle of duty-free wine i bought for daddy collided with a wall with the loudest CLANG! PANICKED LIKE CRAP and wanted to turn back to buy another but too late, passed the barriers already. and i tried to feel the bottle through the plastic bag and i felt a few dents which drove me into a frenzy but i later discovered, after coming up with 5 very good excuses as to why the bottle ended up in that state, that the bottle is just shaped weirdly. meh.

my mcq was ok..... in general i think i did okay maybe even better than ok but i cant stop worrying cause I'm worried I may have made silly mistakes here and there that add up and end up with a FAIL but wish me luck!!

drove for first time with my new license, am pleased (: going shopping with mum tmr cause she has day off. :))))))) my messed up life is starting to patch itself up and the holes are filling in slowly...

huayshan

School Woes

It's merely week 2 in school and already I'm overwhelmed with work.
Perhaps it's due to the fact that I've skipped almost a week of school and I'm coming back when things are kicking into full swing.
The transition is definitely not easy, especially when I'm picking up something new and I have new responsibilities along the way. Bouncing back from a 3 month plus hiatus plus recovering from an illness simultaneously is pretty challenging. I think I'm coping alright but there's still much that can be improved on. I have to get used to the hectic lifestyle again.
That being said, my life is slowly picking up pace again. It's good for a change but I surely need some breather time once in a while. I just have to find a way to balance things out. I am thinking of taking up yoga, it would do my mind some good I think. I'm just not sure if it can fit my schedule.
Sigh, decisions.

Oh well, back to the dreaded assignment.

MAR

i'm very lucky..

greetings from a grimy couch in a surprisingly lovely house in Birmingham!

my test was ok, i could do most of it but i found a few mistakes that are making me paranoid, and i just realised i misread one qn and i freaked out thinking i might have misread other questions! ok let me tell u about this question:

i thought: it said state what differentiates cervical vertebrae from other vertebrae
my friend said: it said state what differentiates cervical vertebrae from lumbar vertebrae.

i wrote: cervical vertebrae are like ......... and ended off with "cervical vertebrae are also generally smaller than lumbar and thoracic vertebrae." do u think i'll get the mark??????????? my cervical vertebrae stuff are all right, i checked!

sorry for rambling... moving on, i actually like being here! haha thought i'ld be damn glum but i saw a lot of unexpected ppl during resits and it was nice seeing them. and its been pleasantly familiar wandering around the same roads and shops.

it's also been nice staying at my friend's, some of her housemates are back and I feel a bit awkward around them but they're all mighty nice so it's alright. and there's a tv here that we're all hooked to so.. haha. but no worries i am off to study now!

wish me luck for my mcq!!

huayshan

*edit* shit am distracted by tv, havent studied yet! just wanted to say also everyone's been very supportive, i got lots of fb msges, emails and texts from all sorts of people wishing me luck, i'm so touched ppl remember the date of my exam! heeee....... who needs boyfriends with lovelies like these around. *hugs*

I'm a very good person.

I know now for sure that I can never ever ever be a bad person. I can never con people, be dishonest or well.. be bad.

I PASSED DRIVING..........

but i don't deserve to. i would tell everyone what happened here, but i think i shouldn't. tell you all when i get back. spoiler alert: you will be BLOWN AWAY by my driving test stories.

i'm still very dangerous on the road, i am a bit blur about changing gears, have no idea how to drive an auto car.............. meh. mommy says she'll teach me. so once i collect me license after i come back from bham, i can drive drive! then darlings, come to msia!!! (: maybe from dec onwards yes, let me bang around a bit first you all come when i'm more experienced (:

one down...... one more to go. can't wait. i really want to get my test over and done with. wish me luck, pray for me!!!

The Toilet Was My Best Friend Today

I'm back from Bintan! It was a great team bonding trip where I got to know all my teammates better. We had so much fun kayaking, swimming, shopping at mini marts and lazing in the room. I feel the trip has made us stronger as a team, ready for whatever challenges lie ahead. After all, this season ain't gonna be easy, judging by the teams we're thrown together with. However, we will have control and we will make it. So overall, it was a great trip, save for the food poisoning that all of us are down with.
Indeed, today was one of the worst days of my life. Imagine having diarrhea 30 times from 7am, having to constantly run to the toilet and not having any energy left to move, smelling food and starving but having no appetite to eat. Having to eat disgusting food and releasing everything eaten. That was me today. To make things worse, I came down with a reasonably high fever after having taken the doctor's medication. My perfect plans for today (since I had no classes anyway) were completely ruined thanks to this stupid food poisoning. At least it's much better now. I have not gone to the toilet since the afternoon and I could eat food (though it was pretty bland), at least now I have some appetite. What a way to spend a day off. I still feel weak and this incident has caused many opportunities to be lost. Oh well, I'll get by.
That being said, thank God for a good pal, who tolerated my sickness and hence my whinings since I was totally immobile for a while. One good thing out of the horror of today (:
Well, at least I got to rest up. School has already started. I don't quite like my Econs module this sem. Somehow, when Econs is mixed with math and stats, it begins to lose it's appeal. Psych, on the other hand, is more interesting. It's a module that I can actually sit through the whole seminar. A definite rarity. The irony is, Econs is my first major and Psych is merely my second major. Oh well, I hope I can dig deep and pull through this sem. Not gonna be easy at all. Bidding, for one, has been a major headache.
I hope things will look up tomorrow. I made plans to carry over what was supposed to be done today. So many fun things! I just hope I can eat normal food again. I really wanna try the instant mee I bought from Bintan, exciting!
Alright, off to rest again. I definitely need it before the full force of school kicks in.

MAR

there's no place like malaysia.

i swear.

i've had a total of 5 2-hour driving lessons and.........

MY DRIVING TEST IS NEXT TUESDAYYYY!!!

aren't u amused??? anyway, if i pass(im honestly not sure if i will cause i'm not bribing) it'll be awesome! i can come down to sg STRAIGHT after i come back from bham! and that'll make me mighty happy(:

wish me luck luck!

huayshan

being friends.

How many people can you turn to and say with all honesty, you're a friend?

It's been a hectic, sleep-depriving, exhausting week. I've been running around from place to place, trying to re-insert myself into people's lives, trying to make my friends feel as close to me as they were before, and trying to make them feel like I'm still in touch with their lives.

It's been worthwhile! I know lots more about shilpa's um.. choice of programmes *winks*, vanessa's friends, lien's very different life *smiles* etc etc. basically i know more abt people's friends, school lives, relationships and aspirations for the future(eg. corrine ho.) it's lovely, i'm very pleased that i'm more up-to-date with my friends' lives.

my s33-ians, my ijtp girls, my bestie, my kayakers, my hostel buddies........... people i genuinely care about and love with my heart! some i'm closer to than others of course but most(not all i'm afraid if i'm to be absolutely honest) I can turn to and look in the eye and say with confidence and honesty, you're a friend.

lit girls

kayak girls

cui lian

S33-ians

Somehow I just know that some people will be there when I'm going through post-natal depression and menopause. Seriously some of the things my friends do for me.. for each other.. make me want to cry. to name a few examples:

1)annsiong driving all the girls home despite us being so far apart.

2)liz and vanessa travelling all the way to my house, putting up with my stupidity and moodswings to tutor me.

3)lina staying up with me to do household chores and to help me get over my loneliness when I'm home alone.

....... and the list goes on.

And i feel a warmth towards my S33-ians that I can't describe, I dont know if everyone loves me or everyone else like I love them but I just love S33! I feel like my relationships with some people are getting stronger and stronger instead of weakening and that pleases me. Liz for example, feel like I'm getting closer to her as we spend more time together. (:

And despite people thinking wanyun is a lousy pangseh queen(which she is, i don't disagree), I still love her very much cause I just have a feeling that no matter how long I havent seen her for, we'll always be able to whack each other and say "eh you damn ugly" and proceed to grin at each other.

aw, love everyone! and that concludes a long, emo post.

huayshan

*REPORT*

i love being in singapore.

i've missed everyone so much!

and just to inform everyone,

VANESSA CHONG beat me at playstation. the aim of the game was to find each other(ie. she hunts me down i hunt her down) and kill each other, and she brutally murdered me, her BEST FRIEND twice, even though i was squealing like a pig.

sigh.........

huayshan