About food.

Helloooo just got my camera so there're a couple of pictures that can sum up the past few days- i've been baking and cooking TONS and i'm mighty proud of myself!!! :)))

my cookies with blue icing. vanessa says the (blue) icing looks like bird shit. does it? does it??
my banana fritters *proud*
shi-mei's trifle- custard on top, fruits and jelly below. awesome stuff.

Dinner + robin hood. Yes i'm aware i look the most hyper here. HAHA and robin hood is HILAROUS!!!! not a bad film. but not great.

the only pics i have from the night out. HAHA sorry. ok time to watch friends. BYE!!

huayshan

about freedom.

I'm back i'm backkk!!! haha exams ended yesterday- 3 weeks of pure horror.

Anyway it's been a nice and good day of freedom- after exams i went for lunch, did some shopping, bought this thing from miss selfridge that i saw and liked when it was 35 pounds and it's now 10 pounds!! it's this suspenders-shorts thingaling but the front bit is more pinaforish. yes i can't describe very well but just now that i'm pleased. and i bought 2 formal shirts for hospitals too :))

then i went out at night for this medics thing and it was zzz boring at first cause i was sleepy and it was just super messed up in a lot of ways but towards the end it got good and i'm glad i went.

spent today baking a banana cake and blue cookies with my housemates- and shimei made some trifle thing. my cookies are a failure though. they always are!! why!! i think i'll use self-raising flour next time. it really makes me sad cause i want to be an awesome mummy who makes delicious cookies and all my kids' friends love coming over cause of my awesome cookies. yes i think too far ahead hahahaha!

dont have much planned- lots of chilling, gonna start watching vampire diaries cause apparently its awesome, and a couple of mini or day trips to places within england. also, i have two exams next week(formative ones that arent counted) : one where examiners poke dead bodies and i identify the things that they are poking and one where i stand in front of two people and they ask me questions(and i volunteered for this *smacks head* i thought it would look good on my CV!!!) then i have hospital attachments for a week, excited!

i wish i had photos to make this look more lively but i forgot my camera last night :( i'll nick some from facebook when they're up!!

i should do some studying for the exams next week, dont wanna look like an idiot. cant bring myself to study in the library though and i think people will throw eggs at me if they see me there so let's not go there shall we. haha.

yay im free!!!!!!!!! :)) oh and the last paper was quite nicely done, i worked really hard and i think it paid off!! but im still worried abt previous papers :(( there's this statistics paper( I KNOW RIGHT WHY AM I DOING STATISTICS) that i may have failed cause uh, i forgot all my math!!!! :((

but its all gooood

huayshan

:(

it's been four hectic days of exams with three papers squashed in a day and I can finally take a breather. I still have exams though, two next week one the week after. and I feel so so so depressed now, I'm not sure if I passed everything and it's just getting me down cause i studied hard and I actually stayed up till 5 last night and DRANK coffee, i never drink coffee and somehow it always feels like i'm never good enough and now i've gotta deal with three more exams when i'm feeling so down and i've got to await potentially bad news =( it's so hard, i don't think i was cut out for this and i feel sad :( the paper i did badly in in january was the easiest to me though it was the other two that bugged me =(

sad and tired.

huayshan

*edit* im feeling better now sorry for whining!!!!!!! anyway i was thinking about sth funny that happened- somehow when i started writing i realised that my pinky was bleeding so when i wrote i left red blood spots all over my paper hahahahha so i wrote an apology on one of the papers with the most blood spots on it saying sorry for the pink spots, my finger is bleeding! HAHAHAAHAHHA

i am feeling better, pheww :)

About making friends.

had this saved from awhile back, found it and was like okay! i can update without wasting time. =)

Yes it's an old picture. But I've been having such a bad day, somehow I just feel like i'm getting nowhere and no matter what i do i'm always going to be stupid and the lousiest =(

But as I came out of the bathroom moping after a shower i bumped into jima in a towel reading a book outside her room and i just laughed, she's such a silly doofus sometimes and we've had our ups and downs but i always feel lucky to have her as a friend cause i think i'm incredibly incredibly lucky to be able to find someone who's from a totally different world who loves me for my stupidity and who finds my ramblings interesting.

Thanks big Man up there, for always ALWAYS giving me somebody i can lean on and come back and whine to wherever I am. I've been so so so lucky when it comes to finding true friends and I have to CONSTANTLY remind myself not to take anyone for granted.

It's the best BEST feeling ever-

.. when you feel so depressed and you just dont know what to do-but you know a knock on the door next to yours will make you feel better in no time.

okay said person just walked into my room and gave me a comforting hug i feel more cheered up now :))

again....... rambling. point is it's tough to find a friend that you can say anything to, that you genuinely love, that you can sit in comfortable silence with..And that feels the same way about you. and i feel SO SO SO lucky and blessed to have friends like these. i'll be able to deal with the shit life throws me as long as they stick around (:

huayshan

--maybe when i can find time ill do a nice post about all my closest friends :)