weird

we live in such a complex world :(

people misunderstand each other, people harbour ill feelings towards unsuspecting victims, people get tired of one another. i guess in the end, it's all about choosing the things that are really worthwhile and deep, it's about saving what you deem worth saving. there's bound to be bad eggs around, but all you can do is withstand the initial stench and move on. all the same,one can't help being affected when one knows people aren't very happy with oneself. well, both parties are to blame. but it's not worth saving.

i'm feeling a bit tired now. thanks vanessa for another fun dayy(((: wah mphosis is having a massive sale people with heavy wallets should head down and join the catfight. on a lighter note ah, i'm still very single, but if i ever lose that status, i promise never to make my poor guy :
a)carry my handbag. duh.you're just making your guy look silly and gay!
b)go shopping with me.
vanessa and i saw some woman pop her head out of the fitting room, toss a flimsy top to a very macho-looking guy and say nonchalantly, "dear, get me a size bigger." Fascinated, we turned our attention to the guy whose macho-ness immediately deflated and turned into sheepish blur-ness as he stared blanky at the tiny top, random hands tossing things here and there, and messy clothing racks.i don't know what happened in the end.tsskk.

hello miss breaaau((: i am thinking about you now! 5 days to go, hang in there. and smile. and help yourself to anything of mine.

thankyou firah.zip them lips shut.

sleeeeeepy. goodnight.

messy

aiyah i feel very messy now. just veryyyy messy in terms of work and laundry and sdd stuff aiyah shit must pay by tmr but we need one more person and i forgot to ask the rest to bring money. ohhshiiitttssss.

i feel like crying. haha weird but i do. just hit me that the year has passed by so quickly and soon things will be coming to an end, and i don't want things to end so quickly. i'll miss gorging at the canteen during breaks the most, with class ppl all around talking cock. university just won't be the same. :(

holidays coming. i'm looking forward to sundaaaaayyy anyhow i know i'm being a bimbo here but i've been so excited i've decided what to wear and what shoes to wear and what bag to carry haha.. somehow the thrill of dressing up to go out never escapes me no matter how old i get. and i can't wait to sink my teeth into my pot pie(thanks to chinghui who taught me to eat it) and sour cream and dill pasta. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmhmmmmmmmmmmmmm..

byebye everybody, i'll really miss seeing people around in school. mug hard for midyears and don't listen to people when they say they haven't been studying cause it influences you to slack and that ain't good.just think "yeaaaaa i shall buck up and own you then!" think it ah don't say it.byebye.

a new beginning

well, we've started training touch again. :) i must say after so many contact trainings, i really miss touch! but i do miss contact too :( heehee. looking at all the contact photos bring back such fond memories! some of them make me laugh, others make me swell with pride. these are the memories that will stick with me till the end of time! :) i'm really so blessed to have such wonderful teammates who bring such joy into my life!

well, this marks the start of mugging season. please let me catch the mugging fever, then maybe i can get through this horrible month! and WHY OH WHY! why are the tickets to the pirates marathon sold out? i want seats please!!!! i'm dying to watch it. this is so depressing! open another cinema soon please!

on a lighter note, i'm going off to see the family in sydney soon! so exciting :)

have a good mugging week people!

reflects how i feel now exactly. BUH-LARH. sickening to constantly be staring at a pile of work. no more like a mountain of undone work. graaaahh.

happiness is important. don't let anything deny you your right to bask in the beauty of life! look for things that keep you happy forever, not for things that give you a temporary high that will wear off. easy in theory,hard in practice..

today was a tough day. i woke up at 12, went down for lunch and had a really tough choice to make. disgusting orange chicken, or sloppy brown unknown meat? half-cooked tau-geh or rotten mashed brinjals? yumyum. i eventually chose the chicken cause at least i knew what it was. or i think i know what it was. eek. and yah taugeh cause the brinjals looked angry, probabaly for being smashed into pulp.

here are my top ten favourite food places:
1) sakae sushi-gyoza,takoyaki,kani maki,tempura
2)burger king-single mushroom swiss meal with onion rings
3)kentucky fried chicken-cheese fries,two-piece crispy chicken,pepsi
4)pastamania-creamy chicken,ham and sausage baked rice
5)newyorknewyork-cabonara pasta and i wanna try the pork lasagne
6)hawker centre-popiah,hokien mee,sugarcane juice,char kuey teow
7)vjc canteen-steam chicken rice + fried potato from the malay stall
8)kenny rogers-pot pie,sour cream and dill pasta,mashed potatoes &
corn muffin
9)taka foodcourt-takopachi and yakitori set A
10)bengawan solo-mango cake and pandan cake. yummms:)

on a more serious note, soccer lost. rah to rj,which makes the defeat twice as bitter. i bet everyone else is pretty upset over it. anyway i'll definitely go down for the sa-vj match and ill bring my vocal chords in good shape. we're gonna shout the daylights out of sa.RAAAAAH

heee:)

yesterday was such a blissful day. got back a decently graded lit assignment that i worked my butt off on and i felt really encouraged sort of like i know now i'm on the right track and someday, someday, i'll get what i want. yup a light lit lesson then i went home, cleaned up, closed my windows cause it was raining, and treated myself to a long afternoon nap. happppppyyy girlllll:)))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINA! hope u had a good day:)

school's been BAWRING but well fun in a weird way. somehow everyone seems to be laughing around me. and injured. ben and shilpa have weird lip issues man. haha and everyone check out the top of the student council board. lina flung a banana there but i don't suggest u take it down to eat cause it's been there for really long. also, check the top of the board across the xcountry board in the gym alley. lina-girl flung a stray pair of fbts there too. hahahahha. and the sc people are playing damn gay songs in the canteen please. someone lend them a cd with YMCA!! i don't wanna hear emo songs no more!!

yoohoo vanessa are u there? cheerios k. we'll hang out one day during the june hols to ease that stress off you:)

random: huihui u ah munch here munch there during math lecture. tskkk.

takecare people. blesss ya'all cotton stockings.

a closure

yesterday marked a closure for our contact rugby experience.

i must say it's been a really fruitful journey for me. we started off scared and rather excited. i still can remember our first ever contact training as though it were yesterday. coach taught us how to fall. we were scared yet excited cos we didn't know what to expect. as the trainings progressed, it got tougher. our pts increased successively and we became even more afraid to tackle and to fall. all that subsided the minute we stepped on the field for our first ever contact friendly and we realised the joy of tackling someone to the ground and running as far as our legs could take us. since then, we've been less apprehensive about training and we really enjoyed ourselves minus the mud and the lack of toilet facilities at farrer park.

then all these trainings and skills learnt boiled down to yesterday. 4 matches to be exact. i remember yesterday morning, i was so scared to go onto the field and face the tough opponents, some of whom were bigger size and more experienced than us. but once i got on the field, i know i couldn't let fear get the better of me. somehow, i had to make the fear subside. we did get off to a slow start, possibly due to nerves but it improved there after and we emerged as plate champions. to be honest, i can't believe we won rp. i thought before that it would be impossible since they seemed like gods. now that we did it, i feel a sense of accomplishment and pride for the team. i'm so proud of the team because we stuck it out. i saw all the aggression, hunger for the ball and the determination and passion within each and every one of us. i could tell that we wanted the mother huge and would settle for no less. i'm just so proud to be part of the njc touch rugby team. thank you so much for roughing it out together and encouraging one another all the way.

as for team 2, i think you guys make me proudest! it was so heartwarming to watch you guys play your hardest and bestest out on the field. you guys held such a solid defence line and kept hitting up at the opponents. you were the ones that gave us the confidence and passion to face the gods. it was you who defeated them first. despite not having much experience, you guys showed an immense fighting spirit and team dynamics. i'm really so proud of you guys and so proud to be part of the same team as you guys! to bao, mu, nat and ghis. you guys are the bomb! i could see you guys try your hardest and bestest to bring the team together and pull through. watching you guys play made me swell with pride and i was really proud to be! don't be sad you guys didn't get anything because to me, you guys deserve so much more than a trophy. you guys really rocked the field and i love you guys to bits! keep going :)

so there. yesterday, the few hours at pioneer sec marked a closing chapter for our contact rugby experience. all in all, it was muddy, tiring, exciting, scary and fulfilling. it was the experience of a lifetime and i'm glad to have gotten this opportunity and so blessed to have shared it with the best people in the world -- the njc touch rugby team, whom i'm proud to say are my team mates :) for now, this marks the beginning of a new touch rugby season. go guys! we can do it! it's training training training from now on! keep going guys :)

camwhore

yay photos from phantom! a magical night that will stick with me for a very long time to come :D

i've been reading organic chem for approx 2 hours and i still can't memorise all them stupid equations im getting very frustrated :(

and i have a new motto. everytime i get all grumpy and depressed over being kicked out, i meditate and tell myself that the only way to save face is to get up from this fall and emerge a better person! yes thanks to the encouragement and advice of many many of my good buddies out there. well back to chem AYAYYAAYAYAAYEEE. seeeeya.

booogey

hallo! *waves*

hello to the girl whom i didnt like at first sight, who followed me to the toilet during b2b, who was my b2b PARTNER in LIONS, who was sitting behind me the first day i didn't capsize, who eats like a crazy cow, whose fbts are still in my possesion, and who has left vj for aussie, hello sara bay!

lina, you and deborah are nutty cows who have bad taste in music. oh wait, wanyun too.
*distant traces of "heyhey youyou i don't like your girlfriend..." -_-''' * i, on the other hand... :)

school has been admittedly BAW-RING but fun in a way. lessons suck of course, but bio tutorials have been refreshingly new, what with me and some other ppl doing our FIRST bio tutorial in 1 and a 1/2 years! oh oh and today i was so mesmerised by mr ho during lit! the minute he stepped in he had this really jolly beam on his moon face and he bounced in so cute-ly! and i really like the people in my lit class. 1.20 on thursday is my favourite time of the week:)

oh yes and i went to watch the phantom of the opera yesterday with vanessa,and i shall upload the photos of two prettttty girls when i get the pictures :D it was just fantastic lah. i love the arts so terribly much,but i can never ever have a career in the arts cause i'm not good at it, and that's really sad. but my next love is bio so i guess i'll have to settle for a life linked to that subject. the songs, the acting, the ATMOSPHERE, the stage props, were brilliant and beyond what i expected. it was really as if i had entered another world and i felt really sad as i left the theatre cause it would mean that i'm headed back into my boring life, my mundane schedule of studying and ah BLAH.

back to work, BLAH. byebye. ooh hungry.

off in liew (:

today was a rather eventful day! i'm so glad for today's off in liew!

so the day started with a study session with mao and zee. it was real fun! managed to catch so many funny videos and heard so much great music! :) what a way to start the day! the session was rather productive. i think it's better than staying at home because i think the bed would have been too tempting to handle. heh.

then i finally caught spiderman 3 with jo, jen and zee! wow. i must say it was quite a surprise! i found it to be extremely hilarious! i must admit the action was quite awesome and the special effects were top notch! however, there are some parts that are rather draggy. then again, that's just me and my 5 cents worth! go catch it! i think it's quite worth while. sandman and venom are cool! hee.

this week's gonna be a busy week! i think ben's gonna say that huayshan owned me yet again! there is just so much to do this week! the postponed contact competition, a ton of tests and an econs project deadline to meet. i'm really screwed this week. it's time to mentally prepare myself for a stressful week ahead. all the best to those stuck in the same shitty situation as i am! as for those who aren't, have a great week ahead. till the weekend!

back

ahh it's been long. i was expecting a tag from ben saying-oh marianne u own huayshan now! :p

just a random non-important question:

do you believe that everything happens for a reason, or is it just an excuse we all make to reassure ourselves after all the wrong choices we've made?

been running myself a lot lately,so that i can fit into my uniform mmhhmm. i think i must look rather unfit cause for the past few days some lao ah kongs with pot bellies and headbands round their forehead,ninja-turtle style, have been trying to compete with me. i'm proud to say that i lose sight of them after around 2 minutes of hard running. after which i crash and start jogging at a snail's pace.

i was pretty stressed today cause i slept the day away till like 6 sigh. when i went to run, i saw a whole lot of malay mats chillin by the beach, playing booming, perverted akon songs and having so much fun and then it kinda struck me that i'm really narrow minded. i'm always thinking life sucks when in actual fact, I suck. im the one making things sucky for myself. if life really sucked, those mats wouldn't be boogying to "i wanna f*** you" (told u akon was gross)

well, a lot of people have been really nice to me lately so here are some thank yous:

elizabeth,for the blank cd
frederick, for trying to use the above mentioned blank cd to burn songs for me.and for your cds.
lina,for downloading all my songs into mei hwa.
liesel,for your kind heels.
elise,for all your lovely movies.
vanessa,for being my verygoodbuddy:)

byebye all. mwa.

sad day

today is quite a sad day.

firstly, the contact competition is postponed till further notice! i was really quite disappointed because i was quite ready and psyched up to get the competition over and done with! hell, i was even ready to tackle someone thrice my size! but too bad, it's postponed! which means we'll have to psyche ourselves up again! sigh. i guess the weather's just bad and unpredictable and thus it caused the field to be in such a lousy condition! sucks! i just hope they don't postpone it again the next time! we need our touch trainings! and after all that hard work done moulding the mouth guards, i'm even more disappointed! ah well. get over it i guess! on the bright side, we have more trainings to get ourselves more confident? haha go team! :) we can do it! we shall psyche ourselves with that hilarious website :) heehee

ah today is just a shitty day. i had no mood to do anything! it's just horrible! to think i was so high in the morning. all that came crashing down once we heard the news. sigh. at least i had my share of fun trying weird and disgusting sweets coach bought from doha. haha i thought it'd be good! cos it sounds exotic. haha! boy was i wrong! it was the worst tasting thing ever! it's sweet and there's some foul tasting thing inside! i think it's some sort of nut. gosh. once that taste kicks in, you'll be cursing and swearing at yourself for putting that foul tasting thing in your mouth! i swear. i've not tasted anything half as bad as that! but i defintiely appreciate coach's gift. the thought of it gives me the creeps though!

yay! the week's coming to an end! which means there's the weekend to look forward to! sleep! :) oh joy. well, it's time to hit the books for my research project. i'm screwed. i pray the deadline's extended! heh. fat hope! alright, shall go back to listening to arctic monkeys! :) their new album rocks! favourite worst nightmare! whoopppeeee :) haha i've gone mad. have a good week all!

since this week is earth week, let's all save water and drink beer! haha.