On a very very very sad note..

I have videos and pictures of my house but am too tired to upload them! will do them some other time yea.

lots to say little time so here goes in point form:

1)house is very nice. much nicer than most, very good deal cause am paying less than people who have shittier houses. elise and liz please come soon.

2)love staying in house with ppl i know, surprisingly i am the best cook of them all, they're all envious of me when it comes to dinner time. cause we all sit at the table and look at each other's plates and its hilarious looking at sangeeth's ill tell u that story another time.

3)school today, was furious cause they told us to collect our timetables at the end of 2 morning lectures (which i assumed were the only lectures of the day) and to my greatest horror i realised i had lectures till 6!! urgh, am not pissed abt the long hours, am pissed about not telling us in advance! i had to SPRINT back to eat and SPRINT back to school for the next lecture(dont want to waste money).

4).... i reckon im not going back in december no more... im sorry about that. i want to email a lot of u actually but i have lots to do(sorry this is really no excuse but sigh..) many reasons. expensive, im tired of long plane journeys, and most imptly, im tired of going thru post-holiday depression-refer to 5)

5)am suffering from post-holiday depression. shed a few tears in lecture today cause was homesick and sad about not being able to go home ugh just a whole mess. still depressed. will recover soon(hopefully)

6)frantically trying to save electricity in all sorts of silly ways. brushing teeth in the dark, sprinting down after a shower to turn the boiler off, bundling up like a polar bear cause am too kiamsiap to turn heater on.. etc etc.

... right then.. time to do some work and get off the computer.

*hugs*

come soon liz elise peiying i need some singaporean love(:

huayshan

im so tired of missing. i've been missing since i was 13. missing malaysia. missing mummy. missing brother. missing singapore. missing friends.missing mummy. missing life back home. i want to stop missing. i want to get my degree, settle down and finally stay put in one place and call it home.

if you know me well enough you'll know that..

i'm not an anti-social person.

but i swear last year when i first met my tutorial group i was the biggest outcast in the group. i was quiet and dumb and stupid and just retardedly DUMB.

took me weeks to get over my depression. and things only started getting better cause i had PRIA in my group. we outcast-ed together happily.

just got my tutorial group allocation.

WAILLLLLLSSSSSSSSS

it reminded me of the horrible time i had trying to fit in last year.

please let it be better this time *crosses fingers*. ah who am i kidding. i'ld be sitting at one corner shaking in fear. again.

*raspy voice*(big bang theory fans, imagine this the way sheldon said it when he found out that there were new tenants in the apartment above his)
THE HORRORRRRRRRR......

ah shits damnit!!!!!!! at least i'ld have a lovely house and friends to come home to.

*momentary relief*

THE HORRRRROOOORRRRR.......

sigh.

consolation is highly encouraged.

huayshan

when you realise you dont really want what you've been asking for...

ok before i elaborate, here're some photos with the many people i miss dearly..

scholars from oldham hall. lien (middle) and i used to study and throw paper balls at each other. nah i threw them at her she just looked pissed :D

funnest bunch of people ever. two of my kayakers and they made me laugh so hard when i was with them! peiying is the funniest shit ever and puiyee is so nice and easygoing i really had a good time with them.

hahaha classic friend. she hated me in sec one cause i was too noisy and i was mad at her in sec 2 when she said i smelt sour(which i dont anymore, I SWEAR) and i had a fight with her twin in sec4 haha thats another story. but best of friends now.

................................. the one that's been there for everything, who listens, helps, advices, sympathises,understands and supports.

jasmine, hadnt seen her for years since i left ijtp but i still love being with her cause well.. some friendships are built to last.

leaving tmr, its been lovely I WILL MISS EVERYONE, thanks for taking the time to visit me even though you're all busy with school, *hug*.

hmmm and random but i've come to realise that sometimes when i think i want something and i suddenly get it.. i realise that i dont really want it! so never get too upset about not having something that you think you want.. you may not be as happy as you think you will be with it. yeh?

on a happy happy note, i bought a short loose-ish white lace short sleeved top which is lovely and which makes me happy!! i know i cant describe it very well but heh.. wait until i wear and take picture hor.

byeeeee!

huayshan

HELLO!

today was awesomely tiring. anyyywayyyyyyyys this post is meant for one purpose and one purpose only: to let people who dont already know that..........

p/s i wonder if there are ppl who dont know me in person or who dont know me very well but who read this junk and are secretly interested in my mundane life cause i blogstalk this other girl that is a friend of a friends but anyway...

I PASSED MY RESIT WITH A DECENT 69%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy for me????????

its on to second year for me (:

life is back to normal.

sometimes...... failing isn't the end. remember that.

huayshan

i am DAMN tired of living.

it was lovely seeing her again.

i am damn freaking super TIRED OF LIVING. but i still love life thankewverymuch.

2 amazing things that have happened lately:

1)wanyun contacted me
2)corrine insists on buying me lunch.

*lightning strikes in distance*

argh bugger bugger but anyway being here's awesome, lovin' it.

wanna get back to school wanna get back to school!!

wanna get back results!!!

huayshan

*update* p/s only vanessa will know what i am talking about but i am VERY TIRED TIRED of IT. i am TIRED and FURIOUS i just gave my brother a pissed off look and said go away im damn grumpy now(but i took it back 5 secs later, miss him lah) and im UGH ANNOYED!!!! with myself mostly. YAHHH!!!! stop being crazy huay shan!

you dig sunsets ponyboy, and that's gold.

elise deborah lina vanessa.

with friends like these how to be sad for long i ask you?

read the outsiders. it's a really good book, i love how the sentences are so jampacked with different messages.

time travelers wife was okay lah.

ECP TMR!

huayshan

My pursuit of happyness.

Horrible boyfriend, NO boyfriend, hate uni course, hate parents, no friends, don't know what to do with future. Some of the reasons why we would feel unhappy with life.

Laughing at Gags on the bus, shopping along bugis street with my honeydew bubble tea, talking to friends. Some of the small things that make me happy with life.

I felt so happy on the way back just now that I was a bit alarmed. It's like i had so much emotion in me i just had to do something with it. so i thought. and thought. and i came up with a theory:

- Saying you can control your happiness is bullshit cause you just cant control your emotions when it comes to certain things. I'm saying that to a certain extent(a very small extent), you can make yourself happy, everyone in different ways, for different periods of time. A day of shopping, an hour running along the beach, 10 minutes eating chocolate.. whatever it is, the momentary joy can't take away the pain, but it can give you the strength to get up and face whatever shit it is that you're dealing with.-

Running along east coast in the evening alone does it for me. It'll always be my special thing.

a smile.

huay shan

Thank God for Weekends!

Weekends are definitely my sanctuary given the hectic week at school. This weekend was no exception, even after the highlight of Anberlin at Baybeats last weekend.

So this weekend, I finally caught up with JC pals whom I haven't seen in a while. We headed down to Sports Fiesta and played silly games like Bungee Run which was so much fun! What a way to destress. It was hilarious running and bouncing about. Horribly tiring though. Thereafter it was tea and catch up session. Really miss those relatively carefree days. Now, it's just work streaming in nonstop. Had dinner at MOF thereafter and the food was great! Comfort food, really.

Last night was lots of fun too! Went to celebrate Shimo's 21st at some classy looking condo. I had a ball of a time watching others play props and dressed up in our Hawaiian best. It was pretty cute seeing everyone with their flower leis. It was a nice chill out party. Couldn't be a better way to celebrate!

Unfortunately, the fun ends there. It's back to readings and more math. Free mother love.

Mar

I got road bullied.

More tales of driving. sorry if i'm boring anyone but there's nothing else going on in my life you see. oh wait there's one other thing:

just got news that one of the rooms of my house next year keeps collapsing so i may not be able to move in when term starts.

i know, being me sucks.

so when i was driving my mom back from work that night,

btw can i just say that learning to drive in malaysia trains you to be a real driver? bloody roads without proper lanes, bloody motorcycles weaving in and out,bloody CARS weaving in and out without signalling.... terrifies the shit out of me but i know it's good training.

i was trying to switch to the lane on the extreme left, which meant moving 3 lanes to the left in an extremely congested road, cause if i didnt i would end up in some other town in malaysia which will scare the shit out of me and my mom. after successfully moving two lanes to the left muttering sorry ma sorry ma sorry ma, i signalled and moved into the final left lane but some bloody bugger honked me and i swerved back to my lane all the while panicking cause the turn towards my house was approaching and i was nowhere near that lane!! then i try again after that crazy man moved forward and cheerio! managed to get into that lane.

Then. He. Stops. The. Car.

And.

Reverses.

I ????? and my mom ????s too. So I slowly drive around him and he eventually moves too and then drives beside me and honks one more time before speeding off probably to harrass some other poor innocent driver.

Seconds later my mom and I look at each other(which made me swerve to the next lane by mistake, so got another HONKKKK!!) and said omg that guy was so going to get out of the car in the middle of a highway to SCOLD ME!!! bloody hell!!! there's a friggin P on the car, P=highly dangerous and atrocious driver, doesnt he know??

was freaked out.

like i said........ you can't call yourself a good driver till you've mastered the roads in malaysia.

huayshan