FUNFACTS

funfact #1

I dropped my phone into the toilet bowl today. score!

funfact #2

I got scolded by the printing lady for printing cookie recipes instead of course work.

funfact #3

I found a strand of hair tangled around the cerebellum when i was poking specimens of the brain today.

funfact #4

I pulled the hair out and started giggling.

nah that's it.

byeee!

huayshan

LIESEL KNOCKED A GUY DOWN????!!

what is that about, liesel!!??

haha this week's been chilled out

i only had one lesson form 12 to 1pm today

say it with me

AWESOME.

but im bracing myself for next week

cause from then on it all goes

dooowwwnnhillll.

there's nothing really interesting going on

OH

i want to buy

A BLENDERRRRR

to make my own milkshakes

this shop in town

sells milkshakes where you can choose

which chocolate u want in it

and i love the malteser milkshake

but its 2 pounds, crazy!!

solution: make my own.

i also want cookies.

i am a cookie monster i swear.

and ive been lazy lately

havent run for 10 days

no motivation =(((

oh and i finally got my name badge changed!!

it now says

Huayshan Yuen

with the huayshan stuck together.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!

huayshan

gary makes me happyyyyy(:

i know i shouldn't be wasting time, but. WHEE! if you know the lyrics to taylor swift's my song then you can kinda sing along to it, it's kinda the first verse and chorus. =)))

my mom says the temple says i cant drive this year -_-

seriously very -_-.

huayshan

A tale of two men.

I had a gobad day at my gp placement yesterday.

gobad= good and bad.

and i'm still not feeling too good about it, i wince and start feeling very demoralised when i think about it but i'm trying to make myself toughen up.

So what happened was!---

While the others saw patients at the clinic, I went for a home visit and visited a man with lung cancer in his house. I was supposed to take a patient history and leave but once I got talking to the man, I lost track of time and I came back very late, and everyone had done up their notes for the presentation, so i rushed through mine and messed up and got a very unencouraging response from the gp. not scolding per se, more of him complimenting everyone but me and asking everyone if they found something wrong in my presentation as well.

p/s i think i could have done a better job if i had more time but now i'm anxious that no matter how much time i have i will be useless cause my gp is always ALWAYS picking on me!! worst part is that in a way i know it's my fault i dont know what's wrong with me sometimes, i know i can do better but i dont. why!!!!

that got me down a lot, cause i felt stupid all over again and worried cause we have an exam on taking patient histories. i came back and did a little sobbing and then started studying for a test.

But I was feeling all weepy again just now when i started thinking about the patient i talked to that day. It was really nice talking to him and he was talking about how he cant get out of the house so he just reads the paper and sleep all day and his wife clearly dotes on him which he feels guilty about but which i find immensely heartwarming.

At the end of our conversation I asked him if he had any advice for me(no i wasn't being stupid, it was one of the qns we were supposed to ask) and after telling me to stop eating italian food cause it's too rich-- what is he on about???? (we spent about 5 mins arguing about how awesome/not awesome italian food was when we were talking about his diet) he said that the most important things in life are to 1) love what you do, and 2) Have a sense of humour.

I felt a bit sad about leaving him to go back to the clinic but that's just me being foolishly sappy as i always am, and well i kinda forgot about what he said when i got back cause i got caught up in my lack of intellect and all.

But it's true! i tried making a joke out of my troubles- ok not really troubles, but the things that are bothering me- and it does make me feel better. i'm still wary that i have a lot of things to improve on but it's good to be able to laugh at myself as well. So right now i'm chuckling at the look on my gp's face as he tried to put me down gently cause he really isn't a mean person he just seriously lacks people skills, this i have come to conclude after seeing him with patients and the nurses. And to be perfectly honest I think it's hilarious that yesterday i was wailing in my room about being lousy and jima was wailing next door because her sisters were being twats. i was struggling to cry and eavesdrop at the same time. not easy you know.

BUT im fine. dont worry about me!!!! =))

one more thing after seeing all the 21st birthday things on fb i really want to have one of my own will u guys come?? no need for presents, and i'll buy the cake. i'm still deciding between separate dinners or a combined one but i def want to do something(:

huayshan

Odd Discoveries

It's that time of the year again, where we visit relatives, stuff ourselves silly and receive red packets. Although it isn't my favourite holiday of the year, one thing I do like about it is catching up with family. But this year, things are made worse as I have to prepare for a readings and math heavy mid term, a day after I return to school.

Perhaps it's time to take a leap of faith and just go for it. But I am lazy. The festive mood has kicked in and the last thing I want is to be stuck at home reading math formula after math formula, analyzing graph after graph and absorbing chunks of theory. What I really want is to take a break from my hectic everyday life and just curl up in bed reading Joan Didion or look for beautiful photography shots online, like the one above. I really wish I was that happy or carefree right now. What a downer.

On the bright side, aside from finding beautiful new songs (I realise I'm into deep, sad songs right now), I also found new features on Picasa that I really wanted. I feel it's so much easier to organize photos with the new facial tagging feature - what the iPhoto has. Since I can't get a mac anytime soon, I might as well make the most of Picasa. I reckon it's the perfect organizational tool for neat freaks.

Alright, it's about time I tried to make sense of those graphs and math formulae.

Happy new year!

Mar

Medball and all things pretty(:

HELLO!!! been a long time. i know.

was medball this evening! just got back an hour ago. and am exhausted it's real late but i had a real good time so i just wanted to pen it down, too excited to sleep!

first off, can i say that this is the FIRST prom/ball thing that i found a dress that is PERFECT for? i really think i looked the best today among all the proms i've been to. my shoes were real lovely too so that made me happy!

btw i wore the class earrings and pearls!!! =)))

went over to someone's house to get a cab to medball together.

we were late so we missed the free champagne =((((((((

i really wanted to try champagne! nyeh.

nevertheless. had a good time. did all sorts of ridiculous things. i felt a bit lonely cause i wasn't with jima, only bumped into her at the end which made my night, i hung out with pria and her clan instead. they're good people but i'm not part of their clique so it was awkward at times but i had a real good time nonetheless (:

right then, pictures!

i did the dear's hair, and isnt her dress GORGEOUS i would have bought it if she hadn't found it first.


ok i just have to say this salmon is THE BEST THING EVER, it MELTS IN YOU MOUTH YUMS



HAHAHAHHAHA this is some retarded game where you are tied to this thing and you and your opponent run forward and get flung back after its HILARIOUS but thank goodness i didnt fall over and expose my undies, one girl did and i was mortified for her AHHAHAHA

i'm real sad my recess week is over and sigh...... i'm just really really tired. and stressed. i really enjoyed medball today. it was real nice to have fun for once(:

and.. this is silly but i miss jima very much now. i don't know how to explain it, we're still the best of friends, we sing/play the guitar, we cook together, we grocery shop together but she has her own group of friends now and i miss her sometimes. but it's my fault i was the one that pushed her away. and chose not to stay with her next year. aiks.

ZUYIM if u see this, i got your message halfway through medball it made me smile! (: thank you very much for it!

ok lotsa love, gotta go zzzz now. take care.

huayshan

A snippet of my day:

Doctors

We work with herbs

We work with needles

We make patients smile with relief

We make patients wince

We know not the secret of immortality

But are constantly on the quest for it

Lives are placed in our hands

And are taken away

To keep frustration at bay

We have to remind ourselves

That we are no different

From those who we struggle to save

And when we have done all we can

We should put our arrogance aside

And learn to bid

Our fellow humans goodbye.

What do you think(:

huayshan

end of a long week.

it's been a long, exhausting week.

i have a recess week next week but i have to go in everyday cause of lit in medicine. i have a lot of reading to do. stressed.

i feel damn fat also. been eating massive amounts of spaghetti lately, long story. ok not very long actually, it's just that all my microwaveable containers are taken up so I couldn't freeze the sauce, and i only found out about the lack of containers after i cooked a MASSIVE pot of sauce so.. the overeating commenced.

found my house for next year today!! i really really like it and we got real lucky with the price, location and everything. it's one of those nice little cottage-looking houses that's tucked into a little lane, it's so quaint me likey!=)

i've been enjoying everything else other than that... as always my tutorial group makes me laugh and i love them and i enjoy the lectures this term. oh BY THE WAY... did you know that jamie lee curtis(she was in freaky friday with lindsay lohan) is a haemophrodite? that's someone who's born with ovarian and testicular tissue.

WA!!! when my anatomy tutor mentioned it i blurted out OMG ISNT SHE IN FREAKY FRIDAY and everyone laughed at me cause apparently nobody watches disney movies at our age. nyeh.

ok now i'm going to choose between studying about pain and studying about contraceptives. leaning towards pain cause its the tougher topic and i've been putting it off too long. contraceptives is interesting though, there actually are drugs you can take after having unprotected intercourse to prevent pregnancy! within a certain period of time though of course.. and if anyone already knew that, fine i've been living under a rock. but a very nice rock! right, PAIN it is!

huayshan

my topsy turvy life!

my life is full of highs and lows. i swear. it was low for a bit when i was brooding over how stupid i felt and how annoyed i felt with myself with the whole not doing well in school thing.

(p/s just take the time to say here that i will reply emails soon, promise!! love u both (: )

then i went to see liz and that made it all good again. she's very different from most of the friends i have but i love it. she's good for me=)

a low moment hit me again this morning when i turned up late and unprepared at this presentation session thing, which was supposed to be unsupervised, but turned out to BE supervised. I messed up my presentation and felt awful about it.

a HIGH! moment then came in the afternoon, and i think this will last for quite some time- We had this thing called communication skills, and that's what the length of this post will be about.

See, the only reason why low grades get me depressed is cause im terrified that when i get out there i'll be a useless piece of shit and i'll end up harming instead of helping people. that's all. people get higher grades than me i think, shit they're gonna make better docs. i don't think, shit they're smarter than me. i really don't.

Basically communication skills is this thing we have twice a year, where they bring in 3 actors/actresses to do a role play with us. we're split up into small groups within our tutorial groups and we take part in these role plays. we then do a discussion after them, with the audience, tutor, actor and us giving feedback about the roleplay.

I finally got over my fear of being speechless when faced by a horrible situation(cause you just don't know what they're going to throw at you) and I volunteered to do the last role play today.

My case:

A Bangladeshi woman is hysterical cause her son has leukaemia and needs to see a consultant and she can't speak english, her husband who usually translates has been in a non-serious car accident. She tried speaking to the receptionist but was ignored, and basically I, a medical student, have to talk to the receptionist to try to convince her to help the woman get a translator.

when i read the case i panicked.

but anyway, it all went really well!!! my group and the actress who played the scary receptionist and my tutor said i did real good, and they pointed out things i did that i didn't even notice! oh and btw, in the middle of the roleplay, the "receptionist" went off about how the country is wasting money on "these bloody foreigners who can't speak english". Yah, one thing the case didnt mention was that the receptionist was racist.

My strategy was to not argue with her views, cause if i piss her off she won't help me. long story short. and everyone said i did real well(((:

Shit i'm bragging now aren't i. im sorry i just meant to say that im real encouraged by this cause it reminds me that even if i'm not that great at my sciences, i have something else to offer. and i'm not completely hopeless at this. i'm inspired to work harder! =)

okay that's about it. time to workk. gonna tell mummy everything first though=)

p/s working on it's all about you by mcfly on guitar now!

huayshan

*edit* i think i know, ms horlicks, and dont want to be kaypo or anything but u know u can tell me if there's anything i can do to help *hug*