marianne could we change our template cause im inspired by the white washed blogs ive been noticing :D uptoyou dudddeeee not that impt to me. MWA

im bacckkkkkkkkkkkkkk-ckkkkk! it was a great 6 days and i had a decent time tho not perfect cause of a reason i'll only tell if you are close to me and yeah! was a pretty good experience. two interviews,ucl and birmingham. in the words of a hwa chong interviewee i met at the birmingham interview, ucl slaughtered me.when i went into the room, i knocked the chair against the table and rattled the interviewer's teacups in their saucers. before i left(i was trying to be polite by pushing in my chair) i knocked the table again and rattled the teacups again. dear me i think i created quite an impression, especially with the sheepish singaporean-slanged "soweesoweesowee" that accompanied the rattling teacups!! ROARR.

birmingham was nicer to me but prob cause i was more experienced by then. hmm. shopping at birmingham was surprisingly good, i chose the right hotel. it was like orchard road all around my hotel,went to h&m and it's a great place, not in any way underrated. oh and elise and i went to h&m in london! elise was my good buddy. she caught me right ater the ucl interview when i was a wreck, declaring that i had just thrown away my future, and elise chua was both sensitive and comforting. thank you!

bought some stuff from claire's which was a really great place and im sorry i couldnt get presents for everybody yeap. bought some stuff for myself too and yeah, treated myself to a few girlie accesories and clothes. went shopping in birmingham myself and BOYYY was it great fun! though i must say that i felt a little out among the uk locals i kinda got the feeling that they looked at me differently. and not in a good way. but this one girl was like "omg great top girlfriend!" haha the interviewees i met were great ppl, which made me both happy and intimidated but some were really arrogant and deserved a whack on the head with a metal saucepan.

i'm still waiting for the results and hoping for the best but i know its extremely unpredictable. alevel results too, phew-ew. well im willing to help anyone who wants to know what the interview was like so just msg me or talk to me online. the thing is when i think back, i see that i was really myself during the interview, i spoke in a huayshan way,behaved in a huayshan way, and said things that huayshan believes in so somehow i feel pretty proud of myself. i think sincerity is important and is simply impossible to miss. oh well. pray for me (:

the working life

as of tuesday, i have joined the working population.

it's been 4 days so far. i must say, i really enjoy work. it sounds crazy, i know but it seems like a great job. ok, so maybe not the dry reading. BUT, there is a bright side to things. i like the fact that each case is unique and we're not doing the same stuff everyday. the people there are really friendly! and they're so sweet, always willing to teach and help us (:

getting this job has been such a blessing. i'm really thankful that i have had this opportunity and i'm so lucky to have jen with me on this one. it's been such a fun ride! going on field trips, reading dry rules of court and doing legal research. it's really fun! i'm just happy and content with where i am now and what i have.

for once, i think i'm happy with myself and with life... so far. i guess there are just many things to be thankful for. i'm not about to focus on what i don't have, but what i do have. i'm just so lucky to be here and content with whatever i have. (:

today is such a mellow day. i think the information overload of legal terms has taken it's toll on me. this is a sign that the bed is beckoning me. goodnight!

brooom i've done allll i can and im going off tomorrow with my fingers crossed! back to malaysia tmr, shopping with my msian best buddy(only buddy left) on sat to destress and then meeting mummy's dentist at night to talk about the uni, then its byebye birdie on sun!! am excited but sad at the same time. sometimes anticipating a fun event is more exciting than going thru the event itself. doncha think?

been thinking a lot lately about myself and my life as i was preparing for the interview. i felt the best way to be prepared was to do some serious soul-searching so i can truly be myself, the best i can be when im facing the ppl who will determine my future. yesterday a bus driver confiscated my ezlink card cause he thought i was cheating him by using a student card. rah long story but i was quite affected and i thought long and hard as to why im always so friggin sensitive and ah, as the wise lina says life's full of nonsense but we should suck it up and go on. and my bro told me he's glad i've had this lesson and ya guess he's right. like the time i lost my birth cert. lord. i bet im one of the rare ppl who actually lose a birth cert at 18.

i think i have a boring blog. talk about the same thing 24/7. sigh but that's me boring huay shan. dont love me less cause i'm boring (: oh ya this is interesting. i got some waitressing job at singapore swimming club. i'm starting 4th feb and i'm gonna pour water(cause the supervisor says i got no experience) and wear an ugly orange batik print shirt, a black skirt and court shoes. hello-o blistered heels. please stay away from the club for the month of feb. thanks.

i'm offf!! who's reading this. am i writing to myself(grumbles) how come i dont have secret admirers like liz and debo(grumbles) maybe ill be my own secret admirer. hooo. ok go sleep shanny. bye!

i decided to post this pic cause i think we all look so happy and close here. jialing was MIAAAA!!! anyhow. i am blogging for a purpose.

this post is to blow westlife's trumpet. POOOOOOOOOTTT.

seriously guys. don't be biased. check out their face to face album i honestly swooon and sway when i hear their tunes. shane sings like a birdie that just graduated from the school of singing birdies. the melodies are soothing the lyrics are cliche and completely meaningless( it's where the stars line up etc etc that's where you find love-i'm never gonna find love then please!) but i feel awful peaceful and serene when i listen to westlife. cmon try it try ittt. i want someone to talk to about westlife. all the ppl i know only talk about emo rock. not a fan sorry:(

and i just cooked mashed potatoes! whoo brother time today, nice as usual. ah wish i could stay with him for the whole 6 months but i promised to tutor my niece already. nice boy he is indeed. deserves a good life. and i promise to devote my life to ensure that i do everything within my power to give him what he deserves. hrrrmph.

missss me? huihui! eunice!

one of the perks about living with my aunt is that my nostrils are constantly stimulated. the kitchen smells so yummy 24/7 i could eat the walls if i were ravenous enough.

I am getting r-e-s-t-l-e-s-s. I want a job, a uni and a life. thank you.

i guess i shall write about my life. i'm currently at home, just ate a cake made out of milo powder(YUMMMMYYYY) and am currently looking forward to dinner cause i smell potatoes. oh yes yesterday i went to pick up my driving card thingie and omg do i have to start mugging cause i cant remember all those road signs and i am so not gonna take the test twice. oh and i have to run later cause i'm getting a teensy blobby okay maybe more than teensy. and i will be going to novena tomorrow to buy my bus ticket home to malaysia and i just read the npaper about novena point being very laopok so i cant wait to check out how laopok it is tmr. mmmm. and i spend most of my time reading about euthanasia and abortion and thinking about my boyfriend(oh who doesn't know he's my boyfriend yet and who i've not met yet btw) . and i'm so proud of myself. i'm honestly one of the most responsible 19-year-olds you can ever find. i've planned the route to take the minute we step outta the airport in london. i know which escalator to take, which turn to make, and which station to stop at! ive borrowed a lonely planet guide from the national library and boy is there no way i'm getting lost. i'll be so pro pleaseeeee. i've even googled the pictures of the stations so i'll recognise the place and estimated the time it takes to travel and i've got a facebook mail from a friend studying in uk about how the tube system works. am.i.not.sexy!!!

goodness it's thundering. NOOOOO i need tah RUUUN. my blog is full of crap. i think i shall have more interesting stuff to write about when i come back. so till then!!

nostalgia

going back to nj to watch the walk in brought back so many memories. it was really fun to watch and i must say it looked great for all the houses! even though i miss school a lot, it just seems different. perhaps it's because the usual people weren't there. nonetheless, i'm glad i went back. seeing the school again really brought back so much. i remember orientation, first three months, trainings, mugging in ca4 etc. these memories will always hold a special place in my heart. i never knew i'd miss school this much. seriously.

2008 brings change. i guess one of the biggest change is the fact that there's no school to go back to. i feel so old and strange watching students in their uniforms going back to school while i am not part of them. one of the reasons is probably because there's no familiar routine to go back to. not being able to see everyone everyday again is just heartbreaking. of course, we'll still keep in touch, but it'll never be the same again. i guess it's just one of those things in life. i really wish i were peter pan. then i'll never have to grow up. seriously, i'd much rather have my school life back.

then again, we all have to grow up, face life and move on. sad as it is, that's life.

still, i'm glad for the friends that have stuck by me this new year. you guys know who you are :) you are greatly appreciated (yes, even if you're in some foreign land far away from here). you are the ones that keep me sane and happy even though it might suck in the real world. much love and gratitude always, <3>

so here's to 2008, a new year, lots of changes. good luck to all of us!

i am extremely bothered. my mind is unsettled. why?

1) my stupid PR. it's supposed to be approved by now!
2)i haven't received the details for my interviews which I am supposed to have received!!
3)i'm not prepared for my interviews!
4)my teaching license is taking eons to be approved. i think it's cause i am a malaysian!!!
5)i haven't been called back for the job. it better be soon!but if i dont get the freaking license i can't work anyway. RAH!

please oh goodness i hate all this admin stuff. i have lots of phone calls to make tmr. first the darned license then the darned pr then stare at my darned phone and beg it to ring and say hello ure hired! and can two emails from unis pls pop up in my inbox assuring me letters have been sent! stressful stressful!! i hate being 19 it makes me responsible for myself and my things and my stuff. ROARRRRRRR. enjoy ure youth while u got it kids.

31st dec: huay shan went for a job interview at bedok south sec. huayshan came home to sleep. huay shan went to meet the kayak girls for a steamboat dinner. oh goodness i ate like a pig and the exchanging of gifts was so fun! jia ling wrapped my gift so nicely and the card was preeetty. and eunice-serr gave me a lovely card and gift too. and pang rui yi was playing big sister tsk and was late while we were munching chicken wings. the cakes were beautiful and the hearty body-aching hugs i got were the cap of the evening. headed to clark quay. marianne chang was L-A-T-E. marianne wong got us a nice table! and we had a lovely time staring at people and stoning and learning how to drink whatever it was that chang and wong were drinking. attempted to dance at a latino club but as usual huay shan proved to have no dancing skills. went to hang out at the play ground a bit before heading to bed at wongs. snuck off in the morning and felt happy all the way back cause these four nuts have stuck by me thruout my jc years.

1st jan: went out with my 5-yr best girl shopping and eating(at pastamaniaa!!!) watched eastern promises and i highly discourage squeamish people from watching it. rushed home to see mummy and daddy off and bro left shortly after and i felt sad for awhile. i'm 19 but i don't want to behave or feel like a 19 year old. i'll be 20 soon and how will that feel. but wong's father jabbed his finger at his chest saying its whats inside that matters(ure dad is so cool marianne) and i guess that's right :D

i have so many things to do and worry about but i'm too lazy cause i've been slacking the whole holiday. worry worry worry! top of the list: unis and job. was happy to hear there's a class dinner thought i was forgotten.

i've been happy and peaceful for so long,i've forgotten what it feels like to be sad,distressed and lonely. how come i feel it on my birthday hmmm. i think i'm just missing vj so so so bad and missing lessons and all my S33-ians and knowing that in a few months to come i could be permanently separated from my best friends. will the four nuts be with me this time next year? hmm. thanks to those who made today a good day for me by either remembering me or spending time to get me a little sth. i live for people like you!

pray i'll get a job. and pray that i'll keep my first new year resolution.