new skin!

new skin!

well, to be honest, this is my first attempt at revamping a skin from scratch. and well, i must say i'm quite happy with the outcome. do feel free to leave your comments on the tag board and well, if you guys want the lollipop back, i could do that anytime! hope you like it and continue reading our blog! cheerio! :)

what a day!

well, today's an awfully exciting day :) haha i think i'm just going absolutely bonkers from fatigue. it's the first time i've played soccer and it was horrible! haha. but definitely fun :) i swear name's such a clown! haha. soccer is fun, but i've definitely gotta learn to dribble and kick properly! haha. sigh, i'm just wondering what to do for our blog, i have this impulsive desire to change the blog skin. hopefully it'll turn out good. oh well, shall go work on that now or the nagging feeling will never go away!

and before i forget,

happy 17th justin! thanks for everything you've done and being the ever lame person! haha but all fun aside, thanks for being the wonderful friend you are. always there and willing to give wise advise and a listening ear. have a good one justin! :)

take care all and have a mighty good week ahead! just a few more days to the start of mugging week! bleah!

training again

finally went for water ytd. whoohoo paddled 8k on T2 and 4k on the K2. it was a monotonous training,but i felt happy in an uncanny way.in a quite sadistic way actually.my palms were blister-ladden and my legs hurt for some weird reason and i felt like some great big buffalo was sitting on my shoulders. but it felt good. haha and ohyeah the fact that we didn't capsize despite the intrusion of the insane speedboat ermm speeding around us. uh-huh,yeah. good day ytd.

i found a whole bunch of letters from my sec sch days. aside from the memories that the letters flooded me with, i felt this intense,overwhelming sense of sorrow permeating my senses. i was so stupid immature and carefree then. i did damn stupid things. like crawling past the hostel office cause i skipped school to queue for the simple plan concert. and how i would cry at night and get depressed because i overslept study time and i had to do extra work the next day. madness i tell you. but i do miss ijtp plenty. all my blue-pinafored girlies!

kat: leave ure link next time k.and let's hang out once during sep hols? and thanks for the encouragement. ure smartness and calmness never fails to amaze me too. and ure novels and ure sleeping habits and your EATING habits. i rmb watching u eat nutella. anyway, goodluck to u too. tc!

well, the weekend's here yet again! i swear weekends are the best! well, this weekend marked the end of crazy tests week. i'm so so tired from everything. i think i've been super moody this week due to my lack of sleep and i apologise for any wrong things or wrong feelings i've felt. hopefully i'll be able to catch up on both sleep and studies this upcoming week since we only have 2 days of school :) ah bliss!
yesterday was a blast going out with chang :) i miss you so much. miss spending everyday with you but yesterday was really really great! haha :) must meet up for many more meals soon :) glad we got to talk much! really miss talking to you and telling you all my crap! hee hee :)
went out to a new restaurant discovered today! penang restaurant. shiok! thanks for the recommendation sasa :) was great eating there with sasa tiff and justin. too bad the rest couldn't make it. their loss! haha. i'm gonna go back there again! i swear! :) i love discovering new food :) it's just a joy to share it with friends too! :) ahhh. i just get this feeling of happiness and satisfaction just thinking of it! :) :) thanks you three :) had a great time :)
next week's gonna be good i hope! :) i'm excited! :) :) :) ok there's a pile of work waiting for me and a pile of econs waiting to be read. honestly, i have no idea how to complete the readings by monday! kuku help!
alright, take care all and have a good weekend :)

happy days again

i quote- girls, your performance today was generally impressive. and your standard is okay. today wasn't an easy task but you could take it. not bad.

WAHLAU!! now only you know?? haha i was quite insulted at first when he said my running was "like that only ah?" i mean. ooh on monday when dear dear chinghui paced me i clocked 23:57. of course my ego would balloon at the sight of those numbers on my stopwatch! he hurt my feelings today. haha but when he said halfway through that those banned could resume training if we "survived" today's MAD 8 km circuit thingaling, i felt at ease. i mean, he's a HARD POK but i saw him flirting with a wee little kid and i thought. AH HAH. he's a softie at heart. so aiyah,im not pissed anymore.

feel extremely tired. but im growing to love canoeing more and more. and im glad for that. it's not so much the trainings cause FRANKLY i have yet to figure out why the ratio of the running we do to the actual CANOEING we do is like 5:0. no offence to the trackers but i really think i can put up a good fight with any tracker! i mean what's not to love. there's fatty ruiyi, "pretty" peiying, chinghui the thief, discreetly encouraging and determined puiyee, shoe-wearing sharon.. they've been making my ordeal so much more tolerable! another quote i just heard- "fairly tolerable's not enough,you've gotta love it!" well,yeah. i don't like love it love it like, oh my GOD whoopie it's training! but i think i'm getting there. cause im starting to understand what wilfred owen, this super emo guy who wrote the war poetry im doing for lit, means when he says that great love sprouts out when people are thrown into hardship tgt. so guys, i love you all. like, seriously.

classmates, thank you. elise lina wanyun deborah elica. what do i do without you ??

byebye people. i've got chem and gp tests tmr. rmb if things suck that they'll always get better if only you persevere through the sucky times. i mean, the sucky parts are what make the good parts feel so.. GOOD! :)

pissed

you know the more i think about it the angrier i get. not at anyone in particular. partly at myself. i want so badly to be down there with you all receiving tips, letting the coach see my flaws and telling me how to improve. ONE MONTH IS A FREAKING LONG TIME. and i don't see why i have to be banned seriously. hello-oo? i met the criteria-my timing was below 26 minutes. isn't the test to gauge whether we are fit enough? and isn't it so freaking obvious that I am fit enough? sometimes i get so tired of dealing with this shit. i think it's way unfair. i'm so sorry i've been trying to be okay with this-but when i found out that a coach was present today, i can't help but get majorly pissed off cause i have as much right as anyone else to BE THERE.
and WAH SEI i've got a big headache now. what's that phrase that captain haddock guy in tintin always uses when he gets pissed off- oh yeah. BILLIONS OF BLUE BLISTERING BARNACLES. i want to get you off my mind so so so bad!

busy!

i'm sure everyone's feeling the stresses of schools, work etc. and i'm no different. i wrote down everything i had to do this weekend and stared at it for quite sometime, trying to allow my brain to register the information. i reckon this weekend's gonna be one of the busiest ones in a looong time. i doubt i'll be able to sleep my usual 13 hour sleeping marathon this week. with promos around the corner, and teachers piling us with work, i don't see how that can happen anytime soon. this sucks. period.

on a brighter note, i had a good workout this week. although i must admit, training has been madness pt, i love the sense of satisfaction i got once i completed the 3 big sets of continuous running and ab workout. :) i do feel myself getting stronger. :) and i wish for this feeling not to go away!

stress aside, i think i'm gonna be very random with this but what the hell, it's friday! so, here's a dedication to two unsung heroes of my life. i'm sure they're yours too. they are the very engineers of the best ice cream in the world, who can only be contested by hagen daz. they give meaning to the word indulgence. they shared every dull moment, and every euphoric one, for that matter. without them, my life would have been empty and my tastebuds would have never been tingled. i wouldn't have been intrigued by creative names and without them, there would be no life of the party. they've always given me something to look forward to when i come back from a loong day in school. they're always there (well, maybe not always) when i open the freezer door, staring at me with those huge grins. yet, they still remain in vermont, locked away in deep thought and experiment, formulating the sucess of yet another ice cream flavour, to be enjoyed by the world. by every one of us. truly, they are my heroes. so ben and jerry, i salute you!

my 2 favourite people :)

ben and jerry in action! yumm :) i like!

haha well, that was my totally random post. see what stress does? oh i feel like eating ben and jerry's now! but it's 12 plus in the morning! that's a tad weird eh? alright, it's off to meet my best friends-- tutorials! bleah. take care all and have a wonderful weekend :) enjoy ben and jerrys!!

oh-uh

don't you guys ever get sick of me? thanks to wanyun,deborah and lina. ever so sweet! stay that way!

ytd was a bad bad day. stayed in bed for hours today wondering what to do with myself when i got a message from my scholarship officer saying that my scholarship will be withdrawn if i perform badly for promos. after which i just stared at the ceiling, mentally asking it to crash down on me and bury me in the ground.

funny. on monday life seemed perfect for me. by wednesday i started to feel like one of them smashed lollipops again. DARRRRN. but the funny thing is that i'm not unhappy. i'm just rather amused at how i could go from an "oh-my-gosh-huayshan-you're-so-smart" and "huayshan-how-do-you-get-such-high-marks-for-lit" and "huayshan-if-only-i-could-be-as-focused-as-you" girl to a "huayshan-you-seriously-have-to-improve-your-language-cause-it's-so-immature" and "huayshan-if-you-don't-perform-better-your-scholarship-is-in-trouble" one. ohwelll. if i could do so well lastyear there HAS to be something in me that will enable me to work some form of a miracle again,right?there has to be. if not, you guys better start spending more time with me before i get booted back to malaysia. touch wood,touch wood.

see you when ure back,lien.

stress

tomorrow's THE day.
it's finally here.
it all seems so fast.
stress.
need i say more?

the run

i still remember how it felt. i kept telling myself to keep pushing,to go faster, to take wider steps. and it paid off. improved my 4.5 timing by around 2 mins, from 26 sth to 24 sth mins. not exactly record breaking but i was seriously high ytd after the run. tmr's the test. i sincerely hope ill perform as well, or perhaps better. :)

wheee had a heart-wrenching moment for a awhile back then but now it's okay. i'm still super confused but ohwell, i'll take it as it comes. zhiwei called me a mugger (for the 100h time) today. and u know what? i feel flattered. keep calling me that. thank you.

silly me

yesterday was the relay duathalon thing. Congrats to the guys. sincerely happy for all of them. thought they were insane to run so much but i can see it has paid off and i take my feathered hat off to them. im glad you got the recognition you guys deserve.

i feel very stupid now. haha as in seriously. it just hit me how atrocious my results are and im feeling extremely inferior to my schoolmates who throw tantrums when they get a C grade. dear me. what do they call this kind of situation? oh YES. Positive peer pressure. to hell with that. i hate feeling like this.

whew!

time certainly flies! in the blink of an eye, another week has just come and gone. although i must admit, i did enjoy myself this week, even though it was pretty hectic.

senior's farewell was a blast! the food was fantastic! especially mao mao's pasta and kuku's soggy chicken! hoho. :) most importantly, it was time well spent with ruggers and the company was awesome :) thank you seniors! you guys will definitely be missed dearly!

bbq at kelsey's house was awesome! i finally got a chance to catch up with all the 4/2-ers. it's certainly been a while and i've missed my favourite eating khakis much! although my favouritest eating khaki wasn't there :( for i know she would've coped even more food than i did! nonetheless, i enjoyed myself thoroughly and i wouldn't have traded it for the world! :) i only wished we had more time. sigh. i'm still happy though! :)

school today was.. dreadful. we had the usual lessons and civics as usual. but i'm really thankful for everthing that has happened so far. i'm truly truly blessed with so much. words can't describe how i feel, how lucky i feel or how grateful i am.

time check: it's 1 week to my piano exam. i'm nervous shit! help!

right now, i'm in dire need of a harsh workout. i look forward to touch training with great anticipation! bring it on baby! phat leks, sprints, you name it, i'm ready!

alright, this has been a long post. i would like to end off with thanks to all who've made my week a fantastic one! :) take care all and have an enjoyable weekend! it's off to muggerland and desperate housewives land now! whoot! :)

GAH

our 2nd zicha :)
our 1st zicha. :)
the entire vjc kayaking team

all the hot vjc girl kayakists. im so pretty man. haha fine. we're ALL pretty :p

tag replies:
vonne:wish i could have seen you during the chalet. takecare k. miss u asking me bout hw:)
jialing:eat more and fatten up so i can some day run faster than you.haha:)
changs: miss you too aye. have fun over there. sorry for not picking up ure call!
moo:lina, use ure real name or ill cut ure hair on monday.

should have uploaded those photos long ago but i was lazy. going home was pretty good. miss my mom pretty much. you guys remember the hazeline snow incident when i was sick? well i've got sth else that may interest you. mommy poured guiness stout all over my sandfly bites in a desperate attempt to banish them to the no-no land. my bites have been subsiding,but considering the fact that my mom also rolled me around at least two other different creams it's impossible to tell if the beer thing worked.

poopsy. im so tired of being lazy. im so tired of myself. you know what's the worst feeling you can ever get?the feeling of being disappointed with your own self. that's how i felt this morning. and that's one feeling ill never want to feel ever again. i've been distracted, complacent and lazy. and sleepy. i feel like one of those pathetic-looking smashed lollipops on the ground. ahh that's a very random remark.excuse me for that, cause i just saw a smashed lollipop. argh anyway,imoff to do pw. group members,fret not! ill type an intro that will CONQUER THE REST! (yeah right.)
haha takecare friends. im glad to be back in spore. if you're going through what IM going through, well rest assured you're not alone. just jump back to track asap ok?

what a blast!

this week's been a blast! i would just like to say a big thank you to everyone for all your well wishes :) you guys are all so sweet! thanks to all who made it special, you guys know who you are! my life would definitely be mundane without you guys :) you guys make my life whole and are definitely people whom i'll remember for life even if i'm wrinkled and senile :) thanks once again! i had a blast! just a quick update: grandpa pickles has been sleeping non-stop! sigh. oh well, rest assured, i'm taking good care of him ok? he'll be big in no time! although i love his size right now.. so adorable! haha thanks guys for grandpa :)

i swear weekends are my sanctuary! i always look forward to weekends with great anticipation! 2 days of pure bliss and without the hassle of everyday school life. i slept for 13 hours from friday to saturday! (shut up stan, i know what you're gonna call me!) oh mann. haha! oh well, weekends also= good food :) alright, i shall go study now for i have lotsa homework to do and with promos coming up.. let's just not think about that! alright, you guys have a great sunday night and a good week ahead! i know i'm gonna have a wonderful week :) can't wait! :) but for now, it's tutorials and 10 rounds tmr. bleah!

CHANG!
i miss you so much come back soon with a pretty english girl or a cute english boy! haha. glad you're having a blast there! life's mundane without you girl! take care and continue having fun! can't wait to catch up with you! :) love you :)

HUAYSHAN!
missing you much too! can't wait for you to come back soon! so we can go eat eat eat! and talk talk talk and just chill yeah? hope you're having a blast back home! miss you lots girl! love you :)

HAPPYＢＩＲＴＨＤＡＹ！

happy birthday marianne!!
*smiles. i hope you have a fantastic day. im sorry i cant be there to spend it with you. but know that you're on my mind!*

i've been in some sort of dream the past week. but today i banged my head on the wall and told myself it was time to come back to earth, where suffering is a neccesity and happinness is a privilege.

cca, you've been my salvation. ive been feeling like my whole body is being drained from pleasure and excitement lately. but whenever i stretch my legs and force myself to push harder, run faster i feel the heat from the sun's rays disappearing and i feel this intense, almost insane desire to challenge the pain building up in my chest. YES. this usually happens towards the end of a run. and this is when i do the crazy sprint that never fails to annoy the people running in front of me. sorry. haha.

sometimes i think aloud. i shall think aloud now. im wearing the uniform of my dream school, i have determined,capable and caring teammates, i have the best set of classmates EVER! , and i have friends from sec sch, from my ex and current hostels, from vjc, from my family.. that will help me in times of dire straits. what more could i ask for?

bye everybody. whenever you feel blue, think of the things you have. you'll see that you have more than you actually thought. i m going to rekindle my acquaintance with ben and jerry now. :)