about simple pleasures

Because I'll be spending about 10 out of 14 days of my break in London(and hopefully Copenhagen and Berlin if it would #%$@@$## STOP SNOWING) and because I have an exam after, I've spent the past two days in school studying- it's damn loser and damn sad but it needs to be done, and I've done it argh, im pleased with myself.

So as I was reading about cohort studies and Kaplan-Meier survival analysis I decided to take a break and check Marcus and I found a lovely email from my mom saying she was very proud of me and that she loves me (: Got me through the rest of the day and when I got back, I found a plate of food on the living room table- Sunday Roast with roast pheasant(reminds me of Roald Dahl heh the little boy and the father who kept hunting pheasants), roast potatoes, brussel sprouts, STUFFING (OMG love it), carrots, broccoli and two yorkshire puddings- Anna and her dad had cooked in the afternoon and saved me some food, I was so so happy! You can't imagine how nice it is to come back to nice warm food.

Just have to study hard tomorrow again and I can enjoy my time in London :))) Going to watch blood brothers with some friends and I'm planning to take a nice picture with Jima with my short hair to use as my FB profile picture! =))))

BYE!

huayshan

about my HAIRTHDAY

Finished school today, 2 week break, exams, worried.

But got a decent 2 weeks planned, going to be in london quite a fair bit and seeing a couple of people so am quite looking forward to it actually!

Moving on.....

HAIR.

I have short hair now. To cut a long story short, I decided to do it cause when I was in EBF's house I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror as I put my coat on- and you know how your hair gets caught so it looks like you have short hair- I liked how I looked, cut my hair off. I like my new look, though some people say I look like a Chinese Mushroom.

BIRTHDAY.

Not to be presumptuous or anything.... but this is just me thinking aloud about the things I want :)

1) Mcfly CD (latest one with shine a light ah not the old one)

2) Glee soundtrack

3) A hair straightener

3) An Abercrombie work shirt(58 pounds omg)

4) Cutesy hairclips cause yours truly has short hair that is fun to mess with!!

5) The motivation to run

6) The snow to go away

7) To pass my exams (okay we're going off track here haha..)

8) A nice sling bag to bring to hospitals(This will probs be my bday gift to myself)

9) Another work skirt(Can this also be my birthday gift to myself heh)

Oh and another thing I think may be blogworthy haha, my housemate got into a bit of a fix last night so when I had to go to get her the morning after pill and had to pretend that I had unprotected sex cause you're not supposed to buy the pill for somebody else. Had to keep myself from buckling under the woman's judgemental stare, there were so many people in the pharmacy and I had to march up and whisper "Can I have the morning after pill?" and she went "HA?"and i had to say it louder, omg mortifying. HAHAHA

be safe kiddoes.

huayshan

about the famous incident of The Swollen Huayshan

I was spacing out(as usual) in the lecture today when Shi-Mei jabbed me with a grin on her face. After a brief interlude of confusion I eventually gathered that she was excited cause haha, the lecturer was talking about something that we both have in common-and I don't know anyone else who has the same problem-and apparently it's quite rare. We have......... *jang jang jang*.......

Food Related Exercise Induced Allergies.

Sounds cool ah? If you'ld like the technical bit of it, it basically means.. uh let's take peanuts as an example. We're okay eating peanuts and we're okay exercising, but if we exercise after peanuts, we swell up like Violet Beauregarde in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

Which brings us back to the infamous incident where I turned up to Mr Shi's wedding swollen.

SEE people said I was crazy when I said I was convinced I was allergic to exercise. Ha.

So for old time's sake..........

Ps. my internet's gone wonky :(((( can only use it when the external cable thing is plugged in, annoying!!

huayshan

about expectations

When I was first assigned to this bunch I was like.. oh dear me i don't know anyone and I bet they're all going to be really difficult to get along with- But ah, today was the BEST day ever. let me tell you why.

Started off in the morning happily bouncing around in the car listening to christmas songs- one of the guys who normally cycles came in the car with us so everyone was slightly more hyper- and we had a nice teaching session in the morning which i think i did reasonably well at (: because I looked for a patient the day before and read up on knee examinations so could do it without looking dumb whoohoo!

Then came back had a nap and when I woke up ran over to the next road to wait for a lift to the restaurant- tonight we had the hospital social at a pizza place, though it felt more like a firm social cause we sat at our little corner being antisocial heh.

I'm really sad now cause we're all gonna be in different placements next term and tmr's our last session together. They've really gone beyond what I expected of them- I expected to leave feeling indifferent but I've kinda grown to love these people despite being mildly irritated at times but seriously we spend 5hours a day together 5 days a week so.. shouldn't be surprised.

I'm defo going to miss all their little mannerisms- jo's nail biting, ben's weird noises, hannah constantly pulling her stockings up, anna's distinctive laughter and andy's exophthalmic eyes HAHA. and i'm esp going to miss the guys, they were the ones I hung out with the most and they've made me laugh so many times I'm really really going to miss them next term :'( I am really quite sad now :(((

I couldn't ask for a better firm (:

huayshan

about a pretty fun day (:

Had quite an uneventful kinda interesting day yesterday- my favourite kind of day!

Managed to see more exciting things in the clinic, 99% of the time people come in whining about chest/abdominal pain but yesterday I got......

1 ingrown toenail which is quite icky i must say, though it wasn't funny when I almost hacked the nail off in shock as I was examining it when one of my groupmates suddenly shrieked, "Someone's crashing into my car!!!!"

and

1 lady who needed a needle to be stuck in her buttcheek to relax the butt muscle..?? The GP was like, are u afraid of needles and she went no not at all doctor, and a smile was creeping onto my face, cause I thought the next words out of the doc's mouth would be "Shan, take this lady's blood", but no instead he sticks a needle into her bum and leaves it there for 30 seconds while my jaw drops open.

am now sitting in my living room in my pink fluffy bathrobe happy and warm :)

cant wait for s33 crew to come next weekend!

huayshan

About humility

It's been a crazy hectic day- I've been stressing about this presentation that I've worked on for weeks- and today was the day we present. I was really hoping to get selected to present at Grand Rounds in front of all the doctors and other students but.... I didn't :(

Which really made me sad cause I think I put in an absurd amount of effort- and to be honest I've been a bit complacent- during regular presentations people generally respond quite positively and I'm convinced my GP tutor kinda adores me because he keeps telling me that I'm a natural at presenting. And I beg your pardon for the lack of humility but I really thought I was quite decent too cause I always put a lot of work into it and I'm quite comfy with what I'm talking about.

But today made me realise I'm not all that and after being consoled by a guy in my firm who I really like (and it made me even more upset cause he was going to be in the hospital i was posted to but I stupidly switched to Hereford) I came to the conclusion that I did not deserve to win anyway. Cause I realise that I always choose to do things that I know I can do well. People did their presentations on complicated shit like beta-thalassaemia and I did mine on nutrition. I need to step out of my comfort zone and do something that I'm not sure I'll succeed at. for once.

I needed this jerk anyway, I've been way too content with myself for the past few months. Reminder that I have a long way to go before I can stop working hard. Have another presentation tmr so am gonna try to make it as good as i can- i think i might actually cry if it turns out badly.

but i'm okay (:

huayshan