touch oasis

well, touch oasis is finally over and i've emerged sunburnt, scarred and shagged.
this was certainly an experience which i'd never forget, simply because it gave us exposure and it brought pain and joy simultaneously. amazing how such contrasting feelings can be intertwined.
joy is pushing to the limits and surviving, having a wonderful team :) , playing touch in the sun. pain, on the other hand, came in the form of diving onto rocky terrain, getting scarred and worst of all, having the try not counted. pain is also the results of the competition. but we did give it our best (somewhat) and at least now we know which areas to work on. so now, it's time to train even harder and improve on these areas so that we will emerge stronger and improved for the next tournament. we can do this.
special thanks to mu and mao :) you guys have really been encouraging and supportive and i definitely will not be where i am today without you guys :) thank you so much! not only for being fantastic teammates but also very wonderful friends :) you guys played really well during touch oasis :) great job! :) love love!
alright, it's now time to rush the homework before i leave. i simply can't wait to get over to san fransisco! food galore and shopping till i drop :) :)

:/

tomorrow's the big day. it's scary,really. i have no idea what to expect. i hope it turns out good. there are so many things i need to work on: vision, being more convincing, technicalities, staying ALERT and not to screw up. basically, that's everything. i'm really nervous. i don't know what to do or what to think. i'm thankful for this opportunity and i'll definitely try my bestest best. i just hope that this'll be enough to get us through. you better not screw up marianne! and wake up!!
that aside, i had a wonderful night! :) well spent with 2 of my favourite people: cor and shan :) it was time well spent even though it was short. good food, and even better company! it really reminded me of the good ol' days. i do miss spending every day with them. i guess we have moved on and i'm really glad that we do keep in touch and are still close :) it's a wonderful feeling. i'm glad i have this chance to experience such a feeling. thank you girls for the wondeful night! we will meet up soon.
alright, busy day ahead and even busier weekend. please let me survive! take care all and have a good weekend!

headache

WAH. i think i'm one of the silliest people i've ever known. i think hospital surroundings don't agree with my immune system or my bowel system cause this is my second assault by MR. Diarrhea. i kept trying to sleep so that i could forget about the tummy-ache. so i kept lying in bed making myself sleep. and guess what. my head hurts now, my body twitches on its own, my muscles are giving me problems and my eyes are sore. DON'T EVER sleep too much ppl.it's hazardous.

you're looking for something you can't find
if you give it up you'll lose your mind.

oh happy day!

i had a wonderful time last night with 3 amazing girls. [there were supposed to be 4 but 1 couldn't make it :( we missed you zee! ]
spending time with them made me realise how blessed i am to have found such wonderful people whom i can pour my heart out to. i'm really grateful for them and i thank god everyday for them. i know that they are the ones who will stand by me through thick and thin and i have no reservations whatsoever doing the same for them. love love :)
so it's another day spent at home today. i realised how much work we have and that orientation is coming up soon (!!) i have no idea what to expect, but i'm excited about orientation! :) as for work, well, i guess i really have to pull up my socks and start now before i leave for my trip. i have no idea how i'm going to finish everything especially when there are so many activities planned for the upcoming week! as for now, i'm looking forward with great anticipation to wednesday! :) :) finally my long awaited chance to meet up with shan and cor :) 2 of my favourite people in the world :) yay! i'm so excited i can hardly hide it :)
alright, back to work now! booooo! take care all!

:)

you know, sometimes i get really confused and muddled up when i think about the kind of person i am. am i an artsy person? i mean, i love lit, and i do appreciate art though i have extremely limited drawing skills. but on the other hand, i derive equal pleasure from my biology textbook. am i a sporty person? yes, canoeing does define me,but i wouldn't pass up the chance to be in a performing cca either. i love dancing during random events like asean dance though, err honestly you wouldn't want to see me dancing, it's painful. am i a nice person? i love making people feel good but sometimes it can become a chore to me. so is it just something i'm forcing myself to be?

i think i may have found my answer today. okay i've made up my mind. no more oogling at my eye candy,no more messaging. only three things will occupy my mind next year. i shall spend more time zhening:)

you guys ever feel like that? confused bout what you wanna do, or the person you think you are? well my advice would be to put yourself in a difficult situation that will force your true character to show.it's scary but i guarantee you'll know youself better afterward.

happy day :)

today was a great day :)
training today was super duper fun :) we had fun diving in the mud and the session with coach was really good :) it was so fun! i'm in love with touch all over again! :) although we were super dirty (i mean really really dirty! think us covered head to toe in mud) and there were few of us, it was really one helluva session, which i thoroughly enjoyed even though it has left me utterly shagged. cleaning up was a nightmare too! thank god for extra everything!
had lunch with zee at our new favourite eating place: hong kong cafe :) mee sua with fish and egg plus french toast for dessert= pure bliss :) the food was good, but the company was the best :) thanks zee! :) i had soooo much fun even though both of us were super tired and our wounds hurt like madd heehee :)
ah, these few days, i've been listening to all the fantastic songs. i've really fallen in love with mcr, all american rejects and the killers. omg, their albums are rocking! i can't get enough of them :) it's their music that makes my day :) shall go back to that now :) have a good weekend all!

i can't stand it when people lie. i normally don't get so upset but this person has crossed the line. you've insulted all of us. i've had enough. please stop your nonsense. it's irritating, really.

round one

have any of you ever looked at secondary school kids,and cringed,hoping that you were NEVER like that before? honestly i'm sorry if i sound biased but in general, secondary school students, esp those from neigbourhood schools really get on my nerves.

first there are the ah lians with strands of rebonded fringe draped acros their forehead like oversized curtains. then there are the cheena bengs who think they are being quirky and humorous when they seize every opportunity they have to voice out their feelings or opinions,which usually reflect their lack of maturity and intelligence. i know i'm being extremely rude and mean here but these are the bunch of people who have spoilt my long awaited attachment.

it just annoyed me that these people aren't taking the attachment seriously. honestly, by the look of them, they have neither the brains nor character to make it into medicine. not that i'm saying i'm a shoo-in, but at least i have the courtesy to keep my mouth shut at appropriate times. think i'm being harsh? the nurse asked, "what do you guys think nurses usually do?" the immature guys were like "clean shit". the nurse took it as a joke but i think it's a very rude and inconsiderate thing to do. anyway. i'm glad we'ld be splitting up on monday onwards. i think the vj ppl going for the attachment are really great ppl and i'm looking forward to monday. it's cool cause we get to be attached to rather unique departments-areas which are generally unknown. like for eg, i'll be attached to the CSI lab thing, the kitchen where food is prepared for the patients, the rehab centre and i can't remember the rest. COOL! will elaborate more when the day comes. wonder what my dentistry one will be like huh. haha:)

chalet

slept like a log today from 8 to about 4.30. was dead beat from the chalet. yeap from mon to tues i went to help out at a chalet with around 12 kids from this centre i tutor at. i didnt know any of these kids, they were never under me but i really had a good time.

i fell in love with these four little girlies who were sisters. two of them slept with me in the same room. one of them was really attached to me-she kept scrambling into my lap, reaching out for my hand and saving seats for me during meals. yes, hui zhen was my favourite. she made me really happy, and it's a type of happiness that i've never felt before. she was a really sweet girl, and extremely mature forher age- 8 years old. all the other 3 kids were hopping on my bed hollering "jiejie wake up!!" in the morning but i heard my dear hui zhen shushing them, saying " let her be i think she's tired from ytd". she also askedme if i had a boyfriend, and when i looked puzzled she commented "don't people usually have boyfriends at your age?" the sad part is that she's way too young to know how to keep in contact. only her younger sister comes to the centre. i took some photos with her on my phone and when i look at them i feel so. bleah. when we said goodbye yesterday i felt kind of weird. i was really sad. like i told my mom, during the chalet, i felt like i was in a different world altogether, where diff things mattered. now im back to my world, where everyone places importance on studying and ccas. i don't really want to be back. i'ld really give anything to see hui zhen one more time and to see her smile at me, grasp my hand and climb onto my lap. i really hope to see her again someday.

thanks elizabeth for yesterday. i had a really good sleep :D
and thank deborah for the ride :)

tiredd

i don't know why but i feel absolutely exhausted. we didn't even train hard today. speaking of training, it was really sad today. there were 6 of us to be exact since almost everyone's away at camps. it was sad. we weren't motivated and it didn't help that the field was muddy, making us disgusting and really dirty. thus, all of us were in a bad mood. it's understandable considering the turn out. it'll get better by next week :) so that's good! but at least there was a consollation: free cakes. though they tasted horrid, it sure did brighten up the otherwise dull atmosphere. well, next week! it'll all be better :)
spent the last 2 days doing homework with zee. it's been productive and fun :) we have found a new addiction and it's lots of fun :) well, for all the good times zee, thanks :) i look forward to more good times to come! :) :) love love!

ah, this feels good! lazing in front of the com listening to itunes. pure bliss :) i'm falling in love with the all american rejects all over again! and all the lovely new songs i have :) music really makes one happy, at least it does for me! i'm in a much better mood now! :) well, i should get back to that now! it's almost time for project runway so goodbye!

catching up :)

the weekend's been great :)

got to meet all the ogls from solaris :) i'm really happy with all the people i'm gonna be working with for the next few months :) i'm really hyped and excited! i think our orientation is gonna be rocking! it's gonna be fun working with this great bunch of people :) i forsee busy busy days ahead. hopefully, it'll all be worthwhile! i really hope i can cope with all the stuff i've taken up. from this to h3. i just pray i can cope and that i've made a good choice. i once heard, it's not the choices you make, the trick is to live with the choices you make. how true. a trick indeed, i just hope, pray, cross my fingers and toes that i'll be able to cope wih everything! i'm definitely gonna give it my best shot!

yesterday was a good day too :) went 2 rounds of road run with mao :) i'm so so glad to have a friend like her! :) i like our long conversations while jogging! she's so sweet and encouraging i'm just so so glad i've found such a close friend in nj :) definitely makes school less dull! :) thanks mao! :)

today's been good too! spent time catching up with friends whom i haven't talked to in ages! it feels good :) interesting conversations and it really makes you feel warm and fuzzy inside, i guess it's just the feeling of talking to an old friend :) it also gives you a different perspective on certain issues. you become so used to what you're exposed to that you don't realise that someone out there holds a different perspective and it's interesting to listen to that perspective once in a while. ok, i think i'm sprouting rubbish. so anyway, thanks gideon :) great catching up with you! and to nathan, haha thanks cousin! had great fun talking to you! zune! :)

well, my weekend's well spent, sleeping :) been long since i've slept the whole weekend away. now that pw's over, i can do it again! it feels good doing nothing but watch tv, sleep and eat and the occassional jogging :) well, i should get started on my homework tomorrow. boo. well, at least there's something to look forward to next weekend! :) yay!! :) alright, have a good week ahead!

and for those going on overseas trips/camps, do have fun and take care! :)

boomboom

yes,YOU,eunice,YOU.eh good job on friday.like pei said. you improved. soon you'll have less bones and more muscles.

cca has been eating up a lot of my time lately. in fact, it's been swallowing up almost my entire life. friday was just terrible. but the feeling after we completed every round made up for all the pain we went through.even sara ran so much longer than she did before. today was really heartwarming. teo came up to us holding a platter filled with slices of cake and started talking to us. this time, there were no harsh words, and gone were his usual caustic remarks. i could tell from his words that he's in a way,really proud of us. to quote him, at the end of the day, the sporting achievement is one thing, but if you all manage to hold on and persevere, you'll come out from this cca a better person. hear hear. those words are ever so true. somehow i can't see myself quitting canoeing. yes we are lousy, yes i'm turning part-time cross country runner and yes, there's a high chance that i'll walk away with nothing but wet clothes next year during competition. but seriously i think i've learnt so much- firstly, my fitness is WHOOHOOWALAWALABINGBANG better, i've learnt to tolerate harsh situations,learnt to push,to force,to persevere even when i feel so tempted to start waving a white flag.i'm grateful to teo for today. he may have a relapse and start on his sai routine anytime soon, but for today, he wasn't an angry teacher, he was an sympathetic mentor.

steamboat and boardgames and dessert were good too. :)

okay i'm dead beat. off to lalaland. take care all. missing most of you already. signing off...

great week :)

had a great week :)
firstly, the m1 touch series. i'm proud of our team. although the results may not look good on paper, all of us know that we've learnt something and that's worth more than the prize. :) i'm awfully glad to have such a wonderful team :) i feel that we've grown a lot over the year and i'm happy that we've made it this far. i have made good friends who've stood by me and what more can i ask for? i look forward to more great times to come! :)

then, tonight, i had great fun with these 3 people :) basically, the people who've made jc life less boring and more fun :) had a blast today at clarke quay, boat quay, and the in betweens :) i'm so lucky and blessed to have found such great friends :) as justin said, we definitely have grown closer and that's a wonderful thing :) it's beyond words, really. everytime i'm with them, i know i'll have a fantabulous time! and not only that, but these are the people that are always there for me :) i'm just so glad i've found a friend in each of them, and a good one at that :) i look forward to more great times :) :)

haha! us doing funny poses with random statues :)

justin and belly pushing me in an abandoned supermarket trolley :) i love being pushed around in trolleys! uber fun :) but it was scary when they let me roll down the slope. eeks. i had fun nonetheless :):)

and finally, happy 17th girl! :) heehee :) you're one great girl! HA!

so that was my wonderful week, now, i think it's time to study hard, train hard and play hard. aye. what a combination! i have to learn to balance. right now, it's sleep time. tomorrow, i shall start with studying. goodbye world, take care all and enjoy the weekend! i know i will :)

shan: hello back! :) glad you're having a blast. i wanna meet up with you! :)

bleh

i'm extremely bored now. part one of hospital attachment today was not quite what i expected. there wasn't a single doctor who said "welcome!join medicine!" well long story which i'm to lazy to elaborate on but come ask me if u want to know more. basically, life as a doctor ain't no bed of roses. and though it's prestigious, other factors like social life and family life have to be taken into consideration before we choose our career. i do do do want to be able to spend quality time with my family and with people so i guess i need to do some serious thinking about my future. ill be going for another 5 day attachement at changi at the end of nov so ill update more then.will also be going for a dentistry one. so haha my blog shall become some webpage for career options.

wanyun,must come for bbq on tues ah.
eunice, *sticks out tongue*
lien, meet up some time? haha pw is over, yeah!
marianne, hello :p

sleepy

hallooo! went overnight shopping/talking/movieing with kat and stella on saturday! it was great fun yes. We watched the covenant at 11.50pm and material girls at 4.20 am. hahaha! it was really fun. then went home at around 6 am. i almost died of exhaustion but it was totally worthwhile! we hung out at subway at around 3 plus in the morning, contemplating whether we should empty our miserable wallets to watch a second movie. well, both were really good. well i had a good time and i thank you both for it. really, despite the fatigue i had a fab time. didn't we, kat?

met pet just now. haha i cant describe how it was lah. just that i'm really glad that we're still in touch. when it comes to sec sch pals like her, there's no need for a long story on how much i miss her. i met pet, we talked. enough said :)

then went to meet my clasmmates. omg you guys are hilarious lah. seriously. thanks to wanyun and elizabeth for helping me out with my bro's gift. and to wanyun ah. thanks for being a good pal. i owe you $4.20. and thanks jonathan and cheng wei for reminding me of the dangers of walking in the dark. and errr i suppose i should also thank you both for telling me that it's pointless to call you if i get kidnapped cause ull be on the expressway.

op presentation today. yeah i guess it wentokay. but i almost fainted when i saw mr teo walk in. gedeon was giving me this bug-eyed look. hahaha. and i would like to express my sincere gratitude to elizabeth's pw group for making me known to the three pw groups in her class as MRS RAMBO. i think it's hilarious leh. and to lina zafirah, haven't talked to you for long. wish i could have seen your crap today. haha.

k i got tummy ache. good luck to those who still have their ops. rmb. smile :)

training and pw

hello world.
well, i've been mia for quite a while. Reason being life has been pretty busy lately. training 4 times a week, pw 3 times a week and 1 day for me to bum around. so that's how holidays have been for me. well, training hasn't exactly been fine and dandy. at least half the team's sick or injured. thanks mr field. you've done an awesome job in keeping our team in one piece. not to mention the competition's in less than a week's time? we've really got a lot of brushing up to do! especially me! oh well, i will train hard to make up for it. yes, i will. training today was interesting! we trained at bishan park. the field was huge but the rain came and went. the puddles were horrid! and i stank like hell. the toilets there suck too! booo! but it was fun! a change for once :) hee hee. i think it's the team that makes it fun eh? :)
pw tmr again! i swear weekends are used for pw. at least it'll be over soon! we definitely need quite a bit of rehearsals but i must say, thank god for such a good group! :) and i look forward to our duck rice date tmr :) :) i love to eat duck rice! heehee :) can't wait! we're gonna have so much fun! i think having a great group makes pw less dreadful indeed! thank god for them :)


but admist the week, one horrid incident happened: my phone died on me. it can't be switched on and it costs $100 to repair. just my luck! this is the 6th time! 6TH! i swear i'm a regular at nokia care centre that they'd probably roll out the red carpet everytime i go. this sucks. i actually quite liked my phone! but everytime i get it repaired, it just seems to die on me again! and the worst thing is, it dies after the 60 day warranty is up! what a smart phone! dear mr phone, why do you have to die on me again? i hope you're happy now that my father refuses to get you repaired! pfft! stupid phone! thanks for making my life miserable once again!
hope you guys have a better week and weekend ahead! take care all :)

heeheehaha

hallo,eunice.

i will be very happy after tomorrow. had a trial run today for op. also watched the video from the op workshop. omg, it feels so funny watching myself on video. as in, i never thought i looked like that. i didn't know i had such long hair too. anyway i think my pw group's done a good job. good job guys!

ate creamy chicken for dinner yesterday and lunch today. ohmygoodness, it's lovely. i really think that i'm capable of eating at pastamania everyday. it's simply WALAWALABINGBANGWHOOSHWHOOSHLAHDEELAH good.

oh happy day.
oh i thought the cross training yesterday was quite fun. although i'm still sore about having to join the training, i'm kind of glad thati got to know the cross girls. they're pretty nice and they can pretty much match up to the canoeing girls when it comes to being spastic. that doesn't mean i'm looking forwar to saturday morning though. :( oh oh but i'm looking forward to saturday AFTERNOON. going overnight window shopping/movieing/eating/walking! i shall entertain everybody with my adventures when i get back.

walawalabingbang!