*breathes*

okay hsiwen just left and i'm back home alone looking at a lecture on heart failure.

....and getting distracted..

*trumpet blows and medieval looking dude comes out, pulls out and opens up a scroll and says-

"picture time my fair ladies and gentlemen!!" *

yah i know i should have tried to get the whole thing in but i was too cold to bother to ask for another picture. nyeh!

sinful oily balls. kinda like doughnuts. got them from this pretty looking place:

oliebollen literally means oily balls.

as promised...

ELISE
DEBORAH
No that doesn't say Lina. haha it's just a pretty decent restaurant where i devoured a plate of:
YUUUMMMMIIILIIICCIIIOOUUUSSSSS fusilli carbonara.

More food ahead! A treat for the twins I'm sure. When Peiying came over, we had massive meals everyday. Ya. We are pigs. Following every meal was a half hour of guilt and depression, which was resolved by some completely retarded form of indoor exercise aka sit-ups, jogging on the spot, running up and down the stairs in my house.

anyyyway, peiying cooked bakuteh!!!! =)

ooh and that was like our third helping of onion rings sheesh. heh.
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
=)

ok la enough procrastination. ebf is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

huayshan

deborah WHY AM I NOT INVITED TO READ THY BLOGGG????

i just spent a few days studying this stupid sociology module and when i finally mustered the courage to look at the mock mcq questions, the first question i saw was:

when walking with guide dog users, where do you walk with regards to the dog?

ha???????? no link!!!! there's a lecture on blindness but absolutely nothing on guide dogs i swear!

nice things that happened today:

I discovered that the mcdonalds here SELL MILKSHAKES!!!!!!!! i love vanilla milkshakes!

I bought my ball dress- it's from asos, not sure if it'll fit me but it's so pretty! it's blue and strapless and babydollish and has a bejewelled bust ill put a pic up when it arrives. expensive though 65 pounds :((((

sale shopping's not been massive but i got a few things that i admired before the sale started. like things i look at and that make me feel sad because they're too expensive. i love the sales here, the nice things do go on sale!! and got nice necklaces from accessorize =) must. wear. them. i have a very bad habit of not wearing the accessories i buy. usually buy them cause they're pretty but toss them into my drawer after awhile. BAAADDDD.

hsiwen's been entertaining me (: am going to watch flatliners now. after getting supper from my fridge hehehehhehehee!! ok bye!

huayshan

Undiscovered Wonders

Yay it does! Anyhow, I've been thinking about what I wanna do next year and I'm really excited about my prospective plan!
Aside from interning, I really wanna go to either Vietnam or Cambodia. I don't know why I'm drawn to these countries but I really do wanna visit! I think they're beautiful and have a rich history. I just hope it works out cos I really wanna crawl through the war tunnels and visit Ang Kor Wat. I'm excited even though it seems like it's light years away!
I suppose at least it's motivation to get through the sem!

Mar

I'm trying out email blogging cos I'm too lazy to log in! I hope this works!!

me me me me and me.

i just have to say that despite my grumpiness about being alone most of the time i'm mighty pleased that i'm capable of making myself happy without the help of anyone else. not that i don't need my dear darling friends *waves for dear darling friends to come back!!!* . it's just that i like being able to live peacefully on my own without having to rely on constant emotional support from anyone else. *heeeeeeeeeeeeee* =)

tmr hsi wen's coming over for 4 days. she's my oldham hall/ijtp junior. she's super studious so i'm hoping we'll motivate each other to work, whoopee!

i have conquered the snow,and mastered the art of running when the temperature is below zero. solution: earmuffs+tshirt+long-sleeved top+hoodie+leggings+shorts+gloves. i feel like i'm in a hello kitty costume but it keeps me warm!

BBBBYYYEEEE!!!

huayshan

birthday blues :(

im blogging twice in a day, this shows what a sadass i am.

but ive read 3 lectures ok so im not entirely a horrible person.

just to say i just suddenly feel very the sad that i wont be celebrating my birthday among those who love me :(

at the same time i dont want to celebrate with people who i dont feel that close to too, so i told the few (not so close) friends that didn't go home that i'm going to london for my birthday.

i'll be in bed sulking meh =(

i'm going to email my mom now to ask her if i can drown my sorrows in the shopping centre.

heee.

huayshan

iz a bit strezzed.

i love literature and all but i am a bit stressed now cause:

i just got an email saying im expected to read one novel, and 20 poems and 10 short stories. LIKE WOW! by 14th jan.

that's so much!!! and i was planning to carefully do a bit of analysis but guess there's no time for that now!!!!

good thing is the novel i chose is relatively interesting, i chose Frankenstein!! did u know that the novel is basically about a random dude telling his sister through letters about how he meets frankenstein and listens to frankenstein's life story? *wahhhh....*

and one of the poems in the list is old wilfred's dulce et decorum est! wilfred's my old buddy, we got well acquainted during my alevels. =) but its a nice break from sciency stuff i can tell you that. =) alrightsy then! off to do some reading then some work. PLEASE STOP BEEIINNNGG LAZZZYY HUUAAYYSHANNN....

p/s OHHH............ just read the email again......... i'm supposed to EITHER read a novel or read 20 poems OR 10 short stories..... that makes more sense. oh well no harm doing extra work!! =)
h-u-a-y-s-h-a-n

Pleasantly Surprised

Today didn't turn out as bad as I expected. Even though both trainings got canceled, I managed to catch up with Shuj and XP. I haven't done that in a long while and I really enjoyed it! It felt like the old times where we would hang out after or before trainings. Man, I miss those days, it seems so long ago. I'm glad we got the chance, though. I feel happy now (: Can't wait to catch up with everyone. I also got a text from a good friend whom I haven't seen for a while. So nice to finally get to catch up with everyone (:

This is why I love the holidays: time for friends and for myself. Walking back alone today for the first time in ages felt somewhat peaceful. I know it sounds strange but it's been quite a while since I've had proper time to myself and it felt good. Perhaps we all need some alone time from time to time.

The holidays are just getting better (: I can't believe it's Christmas already! Merry Christmas everyone!

Mar

RAH!!

a week's gone.

and i'm still a lazy bum.

barely done any work, and am freaking out cause i am being lazy when i know i shouldn't be! yuen huay shan!

peiying just left today after spending three nights with me bless her =)

kinda miss seeing her bounce around half naked.

i bought a tiny portable heater fan thingaling!! OMG i can feel my fingers again!!

okay i really should try to get some work done eh??

p/s i bought this really nice dress from h&m for 7 pounds it kiiinda looks like my jc prom dress, just in blue.

p/p/s with peiying's support i purchased one of those skin-tight skirts from topshop. *mission to trash up wadrobe, check!*

p/p/p/s can i just say that anything tight and black looks freaking good??

i am still pissed off cause the snow is making it impossible for me to run.

huayshan

Slowdown

Hi, I am finally back after God knows how long. My life was a total whirlwind with exams, holidays and meetups that I simply didn't have the time to blog much.

Post exams have been great. I managed to catch up with many good friends whom I haven't had the chance to properly catch up with and it's been great! I can't wait for more meet ups to come (: I hate how school robs you of many chances to go out and meet people, especially good friends. Now that it's over, I need to make more use of the time!

Budapest and Vienna were good! Really enjoyed time with the folks and with Zee when she came for the weekend. I shopped till I dropped, finally tried the hot springs and did lots of sight seeing! Europe never fails to amaze me. Vienna was too crowded though but the art museums were ace!

I can't wait for Christmas, my favourite time of the year. It's the in between that is killing me. You can't go anywhere without facing an hour long jam or human jam. It's insane! The number of people occupying the island is completely insane. You can hardly breathe while walking down Orchard Road, let alone shop in peace. I cannot stand the crowd! Perhaps this is the time where I should lock myself at home with my books that I have yet to touch!

Alright, time to go. The jetlag is killing me.

Mar

greetings from a very peaceful me:-

helloo! quite a bit has been going on. okay here goes--

ended my series of tests+school on fri, whoopee!
went for dinner after with pria and natasha which was amazingly fun we just gossiped NONstop over thai food and it felt real nice, felt just like one of the gossip sessions i'ld have back home (:

sat went to london! to see FRISKA (omg i love friska), chi and hsiwen. all ex-scholar friends. friska and i still get on well which pleases me. okay background info abt friska, she was from ijtp too and we used to stick to each other like glue in hostel and she's uber hot stuff esp when she dances, she's in smu dance now and im guessing she's all hotness there but my point was...?? uh anyway we spent abt a month in a room together once because we were under quarantine during the sars period. we have been thru tough times, tough times..

oh and i saw elise for 20 mins in london. and i missed my bus and had to flirt with the cab driver again. but that's a long tragic story that's best left untold.

sun went to holland to see RIZKA another ex ijtp scholar friend who's studying there. good fun, not many pictures though. wanted to try hash brownies(recommended by ebf) but couldn't find any coffeeshops but i shall, I SHALL return one day to experience the bliss and well.. craziness that is achieved by consuming said brownies!

came back yesterday, clara came over and we watched the passengers which is rubbish, and cooked and she brought me some frozen homecooked food =) and we pigged out on the snacks i brought back from holland. oh and my housemates left me all their food so basically anything in the fridge is mine. heh.

today i woke up, decided i was fat-- oh speaking of fat, i've decided that i have gained an unflattering amount of weight(shut up) rizka and friska have expressed it in the kindest manner(ok fine more like me yelling my face is fatter right right right?? the minute i saw them, ugh not proud of that) and i want to do some damage control, i.e more exercise and .......... less food. -- and decided to go for a 40 minute run. BUT 15 mins into the run it started snowing and i started freezing and icicles were forming in my hair so i had no choice but to cut my run short YAAARRGHH its so hard to exercise in this place, so i have to sacrifice food *sniffs*. not sure how long this will last though. ha ha.

but i went to the lib today to reserve frankenstein and middlemarch, my reading assignments for my lit module!!! can i say here how pleased i am im getting to do lit again?? its actually graded so i have to take it seriously, i'm pleased! though.. i'm afraid i've lost my touch which i probably have so im planning to work real hard, read the books and read criticism on them during these hols (: i love literature!!!!!!!!

tomorrow PEIYING is coming whoohoo!! and if its not too cold and i can figure a way to bundle myself up to prevent myself from becoming a snowwoman i may go for a run, then plod my way to the public library which is 10 mins away from my house and study there. =)

ok! updated. bye!!

p/s when i have time ill upload two pics of shops in holland with the names elise and deborah in them. HAHAH was searching for a lina but sorry lina couldn't find any.

huayshan

dettol-ed my bambi(:

i love dettol. i use it to clean EVERYTHING. just swabbed my keyboard with a dettol-soaked cotton bud =D

anyway, i have a test tmr and sheesh ive been thru everything but i cant rmb anything, i need to go through it again but my engine!!! .. is slowing down....... chooooo choooooooo.....

cant wait for tmr to be over though then it's just renal! and i like kidneys.

BIMBO TALK ALERT!!

went for a band gig yesterday cause i knew one of the trumpet players so i went to support her and it was a nice night out but I UGGGHHHH had to wear my black dress again cause i dont have anything else formal enough!!! i need to buy a nice new skirt. notice i didn't say a nice new dress. that's cause ladiesss and gentlemen, DRESSES are bad ideas. you can't wear them often MEH. skirts on the other hand can be worn all the time with different tops *lightbulb goes PING!!!*

and everyone here looks damn trashy when they go out. lots of tightness going on(said in a very cherlyn/corrine manner). lots of tightness and heels i may add. i usually traipse around in flats and sth loose. not cool, mm-mm. i think i fancy getting me something trashy too. just in case.

so skirt shopping coming up after exams!! and i'm going for the medicine ball so DRESS shopping too!

sorry for sounding like an idiot. i was about to announce though, that i may be back at the end of jan for a bit for my brother's *dingdingding* wedding, but i think that may not happen but i'll keep you posted (:

byebye!!!

huayshan

aww(:

look how tanned and toned i used to be.

those were the daysss.

found this picture and aw it made me smile.

was randomly reading old odac and kayak blogs. the odac one reminded me of the time i kissed dennis. hilarious, if i ever see him when i'm old ill totter towards him croaking "eh rmb those old days...."

though.. as chongers very wisely advised, stop focusing on the past and focus on creating more happy times =) time for me to bundle up and go for a run. in the dark. at 6.30pm.

life.

huayshan

boreed.

im quite tired of playing with myself.

nothing gross. just that i kinda stopped doing stuff this year, badminton is now on sunday mornings so although i go to bed every saturday night with intentions of waking up early for some exercise... i usually end up rolling around the bed until it's 2 hours to sunset.(sunset is at 4 here.)

i want to do something but i can't figure out what i want to do. so infuriating.

im worried ill have a TERRIBLE cv at the end of this. do ccas in uni matter??

anyway.

WISHLISTWISHLISTWISHLISTWISHLISTWISHLIST
1) metal pencilbox with my favourite pink pen in it--- Liz
2) towel bathrobe---Jima
3) tiny tiny silver chain with tiny tiny pendant
4) turtle soft toy
5) the 5 dollars black satin phone pouch you find in all the neighbourhood phone shops.
6) earmuffs---Pria
7) a simple reasonably sized leather bag i can bring to school.
8) a medium sized hair kiap thing to kiap half my hair if you know what i mean. not the big kiap. not the small kiap. the medium sized kiap. hahahaha
9) new earphones for my ipod.

that's about it for now... heh aw i love making wishlists =) whether i get the stuff or not it's nice listing the things i want. in a twisted sort of way it makes me happy. heh.

huayshan

a bit of a downer.

this is the first time i actually feel like med may not have been the right choice.my gp totally picked on me today and its not his fault, he did it in a nice aw-poor-blur-girl sort of way but i couldn't help noticing that my other 3 gpmates always seem to know and catch on things so much more quickly.

and it got me thinking, like elise and liz(if anyone doesnt know, they're the other 2 in my jc class that are also doing med) are WAY smarter than me, shaddup dont deny it. they're the kinds u just know will do well but im the blur one bumbling around and eventually doing well cause of well.. crazy hard work.

somehow i feel like im not cut out for this cause i dont catch on things quickly. it takes me ages. and i have a short attention span i do. i forget things and daydream very easily. no matter how hard i try. and i'm especially bad at dealing with patients. i care too much abt making them happy so i end up talking to them about their grandkids instead of their health problems.

part of me worries and worries that no matter how hard i try, im not smart or disciplined enough to make it. smartness can be dealt with easily,i can just work hard. but discipline.. im not that great in that and it's hard to force myself to change. i thought i was doing fine cause my tutorials have been fine but sigh.. sometimes things bring me down.

not giving up of course. just needed to pen this down so i can (hopefully) look back on this one day and realise how silly i had been.

wishlist coming up next =)))

huayshan

i really am swamped.

this is the first time since i've been here that i feel like i'm as swamped with work as i always was back home.

to give you an idea of what i'm being put through:

i have a cardiovascular test on all that i've learnt so far on wednesday morning.

i have to go to the gp practice at 9am tmr and i'll only get back at 6pm.

next wednesday i have an immunology test.

next friday i have a renal test.

all tests are counted.

i know practically nothing abt renal and immunology.

and all the while i have lessons running from 9 to 5 everyday.

but i'm not complaining. term ends after the renal test next fri and i can then take a well deserved break. and.... i have a good feeling abt the cvs test, i did study hard and omg for once i finished going through all the lecture notes! may rmb only 40% but still.. im proud of myself.

not that i've been a good girl though, i've built up a 9pound library fine (AGAIN!!! im the librarian's worst nightmare!!!) and missed 3 tutorials so far this term, and i was only sick during one. overslept the other 2. my personal tutor so hates me -_-

i dont mind being pressurised. just feel quite tired zzz. hahhaha ok break over. back to one more lecture and then i have to iron my trousers for tmr. =)

huayshan

p/s thick skin ah. but anyone planning to buy me a birthday present? ill put up a list of things i want heh and if you are buying me sth choose from there can? but you dont have to ah. pai sei.