ai....

it's been a strange week.

got my results, i failed one paper =(

did badly for one

and did well for two.

in panic mode now cause i need to really buck up

and make sure i do well in the paper i failed

in the summer exams

cause i aint going to have no resits no more.

today was fun, only had an anatomy session from 11-1pm and all i did throughout the session was make brainstems from plasticine. and made them have tea parties with each other and their pet dinosaurs(which we also made).

and.... when i got home what did i see? nothing but a comforting lovely package from changs,wongs and the twins. and what did it contain?

two GORGEOUS dresses, and can i say mariannes, that you know me very well. the mesh dress thing i have been eyeing for ages but just didn't want to spend money on it, it's perfect for my trash-my-wardrobe-up plan! and another gorgeous thing that is real cutesy and is very me! the necklace is gorgeous as well and the headband.. guys i've trained you well. haha and if it goes with my dress i am wearing it for medball :))) loved everything, i was squealing nonstop for 10 mins. btw, why is there a backstreet boys tour flyer in the bag with the cards?

thank you(: i don't deserve such good friends.

a bit =( abt failing one paper but will make a plan to BUCK UP.

huayshan

*edit* one more thing i have to pen down- during our unproductive anatomy session we were discussing tv shows and my table was talking about some show called bike mice in mars or something like that, that is about.. wait for it... mice that ride motorcycles and live in mars.

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Random Musings

It's been ages since I've visited this space.

School's started and already, I hate it. It just doesn't seem to get better. The modules are tougher and the readings are piling up.

Thank God for after school activities. Been watching plenty of movies, eating at new places and just relaxing and catching up with old friends. Not good for school but good for my sanity! Trainings are starting up again and I simply cannot wait! I can't wait to have my Saturdays back. There will be changes though but for now, I will just keep an open mind. After all, change can be good sometimes.

I finally tried the dessert at Caramel. I've always wanted to try out that place every time I walk past it and I did it last night! The dessert there was to die for! It was rather rich though. Perhaps it was a mistake to try it after eating a heavy dinner. But, it was well worth my while! I was rather disappointed that they didn't have the recommended Chocolate Berry Lust but the Praline was delicious! So glad I finally dragged my lazy ass there. Last night was like a culinary adventure! Aside from trying out the dessert there, I also had an authentic Japanese meal at my favourite restaurant. Surprise surprise, I ate pufferfish! And it tasted awesome! I tried it as sashimi, fried and I ate pufferfish skin as well. It made me realise again why I admire the Japanese. They can take one fish and cook it so many savory ways. It was simply the best (maybe not for the wallet but definitely worth it!).

I have this sudden urge to eat breakfast at Simply Bread and explore Ann Siang Hill. I hope to do so this week. Once the competitions are out of the way, hopefully I'll have more time to do so!

MAR

Run.

Okay, to be perfectly honest, of all my new year resolutions the only one I haven't been adhering to, or at least haven't been trying to adhere to, is my resolution to exercise regularly. keep up with work- half check! (been putting in more effort for sure, i actually understand what jima talks about when she talks about work, whoo!but not completely up to date either) master the guitar - check! (been religiously practicing for about an hour a day, and am enjoying it!! am not amazing, but am better than before!)

I think my ego's kinda to blame. For the past few weeks I've been looking in the mirror and thinking meh, my face ain't that fat, nor my body- although to be frank i don't give a shit about my body cause if you wear the right clothes(aka babydoll stuff) you'll look fine- so I've been neglecting exercise.

But over the past few days I've been eating a lot more than I'm accustomed to- results are coming out on wednesday and everytime somebody mentions it, I get stressed and when I get stressed I look for cake.

Today was the last straw. pria and i went mad and stuffed ourselves with chocolate cake and icecream and as i crammed my 6th scoop of icecream into my mouth i knew it was time to me to stop being lazy and start my daily freezing cold runs in the dark.

So all bundled and ear-muffed up, I stepped out of my house for the first time in 3 weeks. and ran. and aw i loveeeed it! i can't believe i've not been doing it for so long how did i live!!?? and i feel so good now, feel all skinnier and happier.

i have A LOT of work though so back to it.i will run regularly now i will!

p/s random: i have a very strong craving for cinammon buns now!!!!

p/s 2: coming home from 20th june to 29th august if all goes well(aka i pass!though if i fail i'ld be back indefinitely but NO THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN.)

p/s 3: i know i have a lot of work and shouldn't be doing such stupid things but.... i present to you the product of sore fingers and blisters!(:

checkin' in

Heyo, just a short one saying:

1) school's been hectic but good fun!

2) really like my tutorial group =)

3) am doing good, am happy.

4) off to finish off a worksheet then go for kayak. yea i'm going just for fun but not going to do it long term, i don't think.

tmr's an early day update then!

huayshan

post examsss...

Ended the exam yesterday.

Started crazy schedule today.

But still managed to squeeze in time to watch sherlock holmes heh. I think it's quite good but they kinda messed the book up!

1) Sherlock's supposed to have met Watson's fiance cause she was a client of his.

2) Irene Adler doesn't have feelings for Sherlock leh, she got off with that Godfrey Norton guy who's supposed to be a hot lawyer if my memory serves me right.

3) Watson and Sherlock hardly ever quarrel!!

4) There should have been more of his famous quotes ya know? Esp that one about eliminating the impossible and whatever's left however improbable has to be the answer..?

I'm a bit annoyed but jude law+robert downey jr are soo-ooo cute that i'll let this slide.

Exam= =((

I have my first lit in medicine thing tmr and i want to go through my anatomy session today. No more last minute work! One of my resolutions, rmb?

But shleepeee..........

right then. GO!!!!

huayshan

I shall take a break.

Okay. I'm bored and I need some entertainment. And if you're bored and need entertainment as well, this is your luckyyy dayyyy!!!

About the amusing MSN conversation that took place on my birthday that serves as evidence of the mad,MAD people that I'm friends with(and can't help loving of course despite said madness!!)

It began with me mentioning a video that hanteng said was in the making for me:

Maziah says:

what is this video thing?

[shilpa] says:

def not porn

huay shan says:

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH

mins says:

video for who?

huay shan says:

shilpa's the best

Maziah says:

still onto porn???

golly

ht's supposed to send us a video?

[shilpa] says:

whorey potter and the soceror's balls

Which explains the random invitations elise has been giving out on facebook to watch whorey potter when we're in singapore. heheehehee

isn't shilpa the best ;)

Everyone's back in the house, and it's jima's birthday today! So had nice cake heh. and it's kinda nice having people around again. =)

oh and she gave me a pink fluffy bathrobe with a cow thing sewn on at the corner of the robe.YAY i can be warm once i get out of the shower!

I can play D and G major on the guitar whee!!!

p/s and liz's parcel came((((:

huayshan

MY FINGERS HURT!!!

SHIT playing the guitar isn't as easy as i thought!! i looked up the chords and learnt how to tune the damn thing and all so i was like, righto i'm all set! but bloody hell tuning wasn't that bad but

1) Fingers. HURT. numb. HURT.

2) I can't play the chords right! They don't sound very clear and despite everyone saying I have lovely svelte fingers, they suck at holding the strings down!! AIYYAYAIII!! easy ones like E minor and A major are okay but G and D major ARE ANNOYINGLY DIFFICULT!!! YAARRGH!!

3) spent whole day messing with guitar, no work done!!!

4) Erica is BACK!! didn't know she would be!! HAPPY!!!! =))))

okay pictures of the stufff!!!

isn't my bedsheet cute! it's fishie-printed with the words fish, sea and ocean written all over it! uh and that's the gift box from Hanteng, liesel, debo, chengwei, annsiong and lina(:

and so it says on the card!
OMG they know my deepest darkest desires!! I've always wanted a pearl bracelet. like a simple nice one, I've held out on buying cheap ones cause I wanted a nice decent one, and I actually got a nice one from my mom(it was my grandma's i think, but it has this gold clasp that i dont really fancy so this is PERFECT!!)

THE GORGEOUS NECKLACE!!! and earrings. sorry im more excited abt the necklace, it's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, I'm going to wear it super often-I would wear it everyday but erica got me a necklace to so I'll have to alternate(:

CHONGER'S STUFFF!!!! ((: the bag is PERFECT and the turtle is SHO CUTE!!

thanks so much guys I know it must have taken lotsa time to get everything together and the posting must have been inconvenient but you just made this grumpy little girl very very happy.

UGH ok have to do some work!!!!!

I WILL MASTER THE GUITAR.

huayshan

regular posts eh?

I love blogging, see. It's kinda like my personal diary.

Anyhow, today's post is a reflective one.

It's lovely when you realise that you're the person you wanted to be when you were a little girl.

When I was young, and all through secondary school, all I wanted was to make my parents happy, be genuinely loved by my friends, and to do well academically. As I grew older, things were added to the list, and some were struck off- I used to yearn to do well in sports but I've gotten over that craze now. Dear God, I accept that I'm destined to be the one that loses all the matches and provides entertainment for the rest of the team.

When I was 16, I actually made a list of three things, ONLY three things that I wanted out of life:

1) I wanted to be happy. Homelessness or obesity wouldn't bother me as long as I was happy.

2) I wanted to have people that I could genuinely count on.

3) I wanted to have a good career. This may not be for everyone, but truth is I'm an egomaniac and I can't deal with not being respected career and academic-wise.

I stand by my list and the above three things are still the ONLY things I want out of life. I'm glad, and proud to say that 1) and 2) I've had for a few years now, and 3) I'm on the way to achieve.

It wasn't easy though. It took effort to be the friend people could trust and love, and it took a lot of time for me to realise that I would never be happy if I kept yearning for approval and results-the approval of my parents, the achievement of good results and other accomplishments used to be the things that made me 'happy', but really, those were just temporary highs. The happiness you get knowing you're a good person and that you have people that love you never fades. Up till now, things still get me down but I know that I pick myself up faster and faster as time goes by. And I'm glad.

Got parcels from the class and nessie today. I was quite surprised by the class one!! but guys, everything was gorgeous and i was so, so, SO, so happy. i don't think i deserve such good treatment.

i've not forgotten about the thing about gay porn!

and my guitar is arriving on thursday(:

huayshan

twenty ten.

elise
=))
my awesome hawaiian baked rice!!!

Elise coming was probably my favourite birthday present(:

avatar is GOOD!

no point making so many new year resolutions. i've decided to make 3 and keep them:

1) I will continue exercising regularly despite cold, exhaustion, laziness etc.

2) I will make an effort to be consistent with my work.

3) Instead of focusing on what other people have that I don't, I will focus on making myself a better person and on making myself happy and proud.. to be myself!

short and sweet.

huayshan

oh... and 4) FINALLY learn to play the guitar. i've been wasting a lot of time on the internet trying to learn and i think i kiiiinda get it. im gonna buy a guitar off argos and start playing after my exam cant wait!!!! =)))

p/s hahaha i was a bit worried cause this song i like and wanted to learn to play needs something called a capo to be attached to the guitar but argos is out of capos and i cant be bothered to go out to buy it so i youtubed "how to make a capo" and HAHAHA there was this video with one made outta a pencil and two rubberbands it's hilarious!

My real birthday post.

Hello.

(oh first off HI KEN!! can i just say that i randomly thought abt u a few times when i was here cause you're lucky enough to have a name that doesn't get butchered by the silly system here? my name's huay yuen for God's sake!!)

Right, so I'm 21, can't squirm my way outta this one no more.

What did I do?

........ nth much. Borriinngg.

Last night I went over to a friend's house for an international nye gathering, not many people there, a couple I knew, a couple I didn't and some I've seen around but never got to know. It was nice having company- lotsa eating/talking shit/movie watching. I honestly didn't think they knew it was my birthday but one of them knew so i got a lovely tiramisu cake(: i actually didn't want to celebrate my birthday with ppl i wasn't close to,but these people were nice so I'm glad.

And... not proud of it and I don't mean to sound like some act-cool person but my peaceful friends went to sleep at 1 so I couldn't watch movies anymore and I had to wait for my other friends to walk back with me so I had no choice but to sit in the kitchen and play drinking games, something about picking a card and each card meaning something. needless to say, everyone had their fingers pointed at me when it came to choosing a drinking partner and despite frantically eating apples to try and soak up the alcohol(does that even work???) i got very dizzy and red and had to eventually retire to the bathroom to uh clean my system.

NEVER AGAIN but at least I did it on my 21st(:

Was alright after that and walked home, all cheery and happy.

Today was relatively uneventful but lots of well wishes from people so I can't complain. birthdays actually let me know how many people ACTUALLY love me. you can tell.. those who just post a happy birthday on my wall i dont give a shit about but those who add a little personal something into the message, i love plenty! and if someone sends you a message(phone/facebook/email) or CALLS, that person loves you. ((((:

got a few texts/calls from people from school which made me smile cause I don't have the massive network of friends here that I have back home but I have enough to make me happy.

as for my dearests back home,

it's hard to make me feel loved since most of you are abt well.. 13 hours away, but the fact that you can make me feel that way shows me what a lucky girl i am.

EBF is coming tmr. So how can I complain?

huayshan

---i'ld also like to say i woke up to see a very loving and heartwarming text from my father. it was lovely (:

p/s up next: i show you what i mean when i say i have the most retarded(but lovable!!) friends, courtesy of shilpa, maziah and the producers of gay pornography.

Nope, not a birthday post.

First off, I'm not 21 yet. it's still 4pm here, i'm still 20! NYEHHH 1st jan 89 people who are in singapore/malaysia. hahhahaha.

but since i'm here, quick shoutout to zuyim and yunsong(if they ever see this) HAPPY birthday!! the two people i know who are also born on 1st jan.

Anyway, I'm here cause I just heard something that bewildered me. Don't know if I want to laugh or cry.

See, I've never thought of myself as someone people gossiped about. I'm pretty passive, I'm not hot enough to make people jealous of me(don't you realise that hot people have a stamp on their forehead saying Hi, gossip about me, will ya?) and I'm pretty polite most of the time so aside from the occasional omg huayshan did *insert stupid deed* and the one-off thing that happened in Sec 2 in Oldham Hall, where I actually was the hottest girl in hall (long story but i know, poor deprived people!!) I don't think many people gossip about me.

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or do you?do you? hmmm...

dont think so.

so I have this mauritian friend here that i like a lot and she seemed to like me too i rmb her texting me a lot last year and always looking very pleased to see me. And all the sudden this year she became strangely isolated from me, and I was quite confused I must say heh but I just thought I must be imagining things so I stayed away for a bit and you know..gave her her space. But long story short, I just heard that she's uh staying away from me cause her sister recently got attached to someone who apparently used to fancy me(after seeing me twice!!??) and the dude must have been badmouthing me cause when i saw her again and tried to talk to her abt it she dao-ed me and sped away at an impressive speed considering how slippery the roads are now.

O.M.G.

huayshan