good ol' times

life so far has been treating me alright.

i've had the luxury of catching up this past 2 weeks! i hardly spend time at home at all! it's been great so far catching up with good ij buddies, good nj buddies and the team (: what more could i ask for? i really do miss school because i could see friends everyday. there are people whom i haven't met up with in a long time. catching up with the team today makes me realise just how much i miss them! i can't believe i no longer see them everyday! it seems just like yesterday! i really miss playing with them, training with them and just purely hanging out. things were so good back then. i'm glad that we're still able to gel so well together (: finding out that everyone is going off to various countries to study is really freaking me out. it just made me realise how time flies. we're all moving on with our lives and entering the next phase. it's just so scary. i really don't wish to grow up sometimes. i'm just afraid of losing people close to me right now.

ok, enough of the emo-ness. i'm just gonna treasure what i have right now. i will continue catching up with all my good friends (: i look forward to more catch up sessions cum chill out sessions (: yay. i'm a happy girl! (though a bit confused...)

p.s: anyone interested in taking a bubble lift to the top with me? i only wanna go once!! (: SHAN? (:(:(: you can be my retarded sister! hehh

xoxo
mar

i am convinced that the happiness and satisfaction i felt when i was a victorian can never be surpassed. two precious years have gone by but have left me memories both so retarded and nonsensical that they will probably last me a lifetime. sometimes i wonder why i love vj so much when i spent only two years in it as compared to ijtp.

had an exhausting three days, and am glad i can take a break tomorrow! feel like sleeping till prince charming kisses me. hahhaha rah well i'm tireeeed. alrights. i'm missing vjc. only thing on my mind now. vjc, the students,the teachers, the environment. seriously, i took it for granted. vj was so cosy,protected and nonsensically funny. victorians were so enthusiastic, high-flying and respectful. i think i'm in love omg the only thing or person that has ever made me feel this way was my ex boyfriend,who for everyone's information, dumped me because i was an awful girlfriend at 14.

xxxxxxxoooooooo huay shan

this is seriously hilarious. haha!

forty five cakes says:
lets play queens english!!
shoegazer says:
chey
shoegazer says:
okayyy
forty five cakes says:
yay!!!!!!
shoegazer says:
i say my dear watson, what's this i hear about the queen's english game?
forty five cakes says:
elementary, my dear sherlock,it's a new game for commoners. i'll show you if you'ld care for a pipe
forty five cakes says:
OMG IM HAVING FUNNN!!
shoegazer says:
ah, but we're not commoners. do we not dress splendidly in our tweed coats and leather loafers?
shoegazer says:
we're perfect specimens of english-bred gentlemen!
forty five cakes says:
humility,my dear sherlock is a virtue. and my my, i must remind the young lad to shine my shoes!
forty five cakes says:
i say, have you met lady watson lately?she's looking splendid with a new bonnet trimmed with lace.
shoegazer says:
now now, what's this nonsense you're spouting through the roof of your hat?
shoegazer says:
habberdashery and ladies' apparel! really, i must say the queen will not be amused
shoegazer says:
i'm rich and intelligent; i enjoy the Queen's utmost favour, is it then not logical that any decent woman would want to lift her skirt above her ankles just to get me to life an eyebrow?
shoegazer says:
elementary, my dear watson
shoegazer says:
*lift an eyebrow
forty five cakes says:
OMG YOU"RE GOOD
forty five cakes says:
im gonna paste this on my blog ah
shoegazer says:
haha, zomg! so embarrassing
shoegazer says:
and this time YOU spoilt our convo!
forty five cakes says:
well my dear man where then is this woman that you speak of?
shoegazer says:
she, is waiting for me to make my move, as any gentleman is expected to. but, i am not just any gentleman, i am sherlock holmes. i bid my time and wait for my prize, which in this case my good fellow, would be a mrs holmes of my own
forty five cakes says:
oh indeed! i am most content to wait then,my man and i eagerly await the arrival of this splendid young lady. oh! there goes the bell. lunch time,i presume?
shoegazer says:
ah yes, there go the bells of st catherine's. man's carnal pleasures in the form of pot roast and oven-roasted potatoes.
shoegazer says:
mulled wine, my good man?
forty five cakes says:
ha! ha! no, indeed i must say i am tempted but my lady has been saying that i have been getting rah-dah broad around the waist lately. help yourself, old chap!
shoegazer says:
ah, our bodies are but vessels for such pleasures. i must say thoug, your lady is right, you have been looking more prosperous of late
forty five cakes says:
halt! there goes the horse's footsteps. i believe my man, that someone is hear to seek your assistance. hurry,swallow that piece of pudding .
shoegazer says:
before that figure rings the doorbell, i can tell you that my assistance will be requested to help solve an interesting case, or so you would be led to believe initially
shoegazer says:
but my dear watson, remember that everything that happens has a reason and that reason is always provided by motive
shoegazer says:
now run along and greet our guest in the parlour
forty five cakes says:
*throws down napkin*
forty five cakes says:
oh hello young sir, here to seek the help of mr holmes i presume? oh dear me, it's lady rosemary?pray let me take your hat
forty five cakes says:
here to make a social call my lady?
shoegazer says:
why no mr watson, i'm here on very pressing business indeed
shoegazer says:
would mr holmes be free to receive a visitor?
forty five cakes says:
oh,indeed! pray take a seat and have a macaroon while i fetch the good man. he's busy removing pudding sauce from his whiskers.
shoegazer says:
before you open your mouth watson, i know that the lady rosemary is waiting in the parlour with some pressing business for me to attend to
forty five cakes says:
oh i say! sherlock,you amaze me with your skills. i say,you've got a spot over there. here,let me.
shoegazer says:
no no, save yourself the hassle. just follow me and observe the lady's reaction
forty five cakes says:
very well mylord.
shoegazer says:
*watson introduces the lady rosemary to sherlock holmes*
shoegazer says:
good day sir, i am lady rosemary of buckingham lane and i come in utmost distress
shoegazer says:
*watson asks*
forty five cakes says:
well sherlock holmes can never bear to see a beautiful lady in distress. pray what bothers you my lady?
shoegazer says:
well, you see this must be kept a secret but the queen's corgies are missing!
shoegazer says:
i say mr holmes, but you seem to have a dog shaped spot of pudding on yr moustache
forty five cakes says:
no,my good lady that's a tattoo of the hound of baskervilles, i had it done after i solved the mystery. would you like a closer look,my lady?
shoegazer says:
oh no, that'd be rude of me. but i say, look mr watson. it looks like a corgy!
forty five cakes says:
yes indeed,that's what i tell old sherlock everyday but stubborn old mule never listens
forty five cakes says:
well then my lady, has the queen any clues as to how her impeccable corgies mysteriously vanished?
shoegazer says:
my dear watson, don't be fooled by the lady's appearance! SHE is in fact responsible for the disappearance of her majesty's corgies!
shoegazer says:
the spot of pudding is no more in the shape of a corgy than it is the shape of an african greyhound shoegazer says:
she has been foolish enough to reveal her fears
forty five cakes says:
ah! i am appalled by your words,mr holmes! my word! what an accusation!
shoegazer says:
the runs in her skirt are that of claw marks, very much like the ones on my trousers after a visit to her majesty's corgy garden party
shoegazer says:
and the lady rosemary's red nose suggests that she is suffering from either a cold or allergy
forty five cakes says:
my my!
shoegazer says:
seeing that she has no handkerchief with her, we can only conclude that she is allergic to something new in her environment!
forty five cakes says:
*shrieks*
forty five cakes says:
i could not help myself mr holmes, they were so beautiful, her majesty's corgies
forty five cakes says:
such exquisite lace is a delight to my soul! pray spare me,my lord!
shoegazer says:
(erm, what lace?)
shoegazer says:
(corgies are a kind of dog by the way)
forty five cakes says:
seriously. i thought they meant undergarments?!

thanks marianne louise chang for the material (:

xxxxxxxxooooooooooo huay shan

i'm such a regular blogger.guess i just have fun telling people about the things i do everyday. hoho. anyhows went to canoe again today and i am the biggest loser in the history of canoeing. i did so many embarrassing things i am immune to embarassment already. first i capsize like uhh four times on the baby k1, and almost break my legs trying to empty the boat,which must have looked quite pitiful since this SA guy sitting near me stared at me and warbled "lift your leg higher mmmhhhmhmmhmmmhh" anyhow i got it emptied in the end and by 4pm i was master of getting water out of a capsized boat. then i had trouble lifting my boat out of the water and two SA girls had to run over and help me while i sheepishly stood in one corner muttering my thanks. then one of my capsizes had to be in front of a dragon boat,and i heard a whistle followed by throaty manly laughter,probably because my ass was wiggling in the water when i was trying to swim back. and oh, when i came out of the water sharon kindly informed me about the tear in my shorts(my fav shorts) which she initially mistook for a "leaf". oh and the girls generously sacrificed their safety and lives by allowing me to enter the k4 with them and ok seriously it was great fun,i took the third seat and it was FUNN. i guess it's cause i felt secure and safe and happy having three teammates near me and working with me. fun. ok back to the story, yes as expected we capsized after one or two rounds, which isn't my fault i think. in fact now that i think about it ah,it wasn't. serious!!

anyhows while some nice guy in a k1 towed me and ruiyi back i spotted this uncle snapping photos of ruiyi's upper body draped over the front of the boat and my head bobbing in and out of the water and the poor guy huffing and puffing,trying to tow back an extra 110kg. someone told me he may be snapping pics of the little kids who were totally sailing around like blind aimless sharks but i dont believe it cause i'm pretty sure the area of water around us was unoccupied. ohwell,he probably thought it would be fun to show his friends a picture of three people behaving like victims of the titanic.

haha ohweelllls i'm lousy in a boat. but i have fun and i guess that's all that matters. even though everyone else probably thinks i'm a pathetic psycho who either enjoys swimming or is the main cause of a coach's headaches. ahhh, huay shannnn huay shan.

xxxxxxoooooo huay shan

i woke up at one pm today and left the house at four to head to tampines mall to do some shopping. i bought my pwweetyyy pink blouse and a skirt that was on discount and i am content. i was trying on the pink blouse in my room and i think i look a tad too disco-ey and shiny but iduncare its pwwweeetyy. sorry i just feel that pwweeettyy is the only word i can use to describe the blouse. haha!

on my way to french(oh and huihui and i decided to ask our teacher to teach us how to curse in french) i got a message from a student who asked me to give her and her friends extra lessons on chemisty(mole concept) and i just felt so happy:))) that i look approachable enough. ah. so they can't fire me after all because i am NEEDED. hoho. ya actually i've been a bit concerned that i may get fired if the teacher who hired me feels that i'm not doing my job well which i confess was the case in my opinion, before i got the message.

there's sth wrong with the patch of skin below my right eye,it's all dried up and the skin is flaking off and i look petrifying. i was like talking to a teacher and i felt so self conscious about my eye i think i looked awful! looks all swollen and gross. and it's only one eye good lord tell me why. at least it'll look less obvious if it were both eyes. rah. then i rmb this sec two boy coming up to me during a lesson i was relieving and saying " 'cher why your eye so red one someone punch you arh 'cher? " rah.

au revoir, a bientot!

xxoo huay shan

my life right now revolves around trainings work family and friends. it's been good so far catching up with people i haven't met in ages and doing new stuff. new experiences are always good, especially for spicing up my otherwise dull life.
work has been hectic. work always piles up at one point of the day that you'd just wish you could put up a sign that reads 'i am busy, please come back later'. unfortunately, that's impossible so, work still comes anyhow. i've really been very tired with all this running around and work. i really look forward to chilling at home or out with friends.
despite working for about a month already, i still miss school tonns. i really miss my friends. not seeing them everyday makes me feel old and really bummed. i never expected to feel this way. funny how when we were in school we always wish we could break free and now when we're finally out, we wished we were back in school (minus the homework and tests of course!)
it's sad how time flies just like that. sometimes, i do wish i could be peter pan and stay the same forever. yet, life still hits you in the face and i know i have to move on. it's just difficult to leave such fond memories of school behind and move on.
change, is it always a bad thing?

but no matter what life brings us, there are some things that will never change. i know one thing is friends, whom i'm always so grateful for (:

p.s: juno's an awesome movie! it is really as good as the reviews say. it's funny, sweet and original. really loved it! ellen page is amazing (and pretty!). coupled with one of the best soundtracks i've heard so far, i'd reckon it's a damn good movie. what a way to start the year for movies (:

hi jonathan!! hehehe hope i made you smile at the end of a dull day. anyhow i'm really missing vj badly. veryy badly!

ok i guess pretty much everyone knows but here goes! i'm teaching now at a secondary school and my job is very odd, i'm kinda like a teaching aid, i go round to classes during their free periods and sort of give them tuition. i do eng,chem and math. and boy boy boy am i tired. today's just my second day but i really feel like giving in already.if not for the pay and the nice nice people in the staff room i'ld seriously be considering giving up my job.

okay plus points first.
1)i ADORE dressing up as a teacher!! i plan to shop tmr for more teaching clothes and i already noticed this baby pink satin blouse from joop that i'm going to zoom in on! haha. i love wearing comfy loose pants and the teacher-looking thing around my neck(it's a remote thing to open the staff room door)

2)some students actually listen to me and thank me. ahhaa yea there are a couple who really do benefit from my babbling and it makes me happy! even in the rowdier classes there are some who really are genuinely interested in learning. and yea i like the feeling of helping them.

3)the staff room people are so so fun! there's this indian man who is hilarious, a nice nice pe teacher behind me who so generously consoled me today when i came out of a class totally disheartened, there's the kind elderly lady sharing a table with me who told me today she eats only four vege sandwiches a day, and there's a new teacher who's one year older and who made friends with me today! i like her already and foresee that i'll be pouring out my woes to her. haha. and there're a few more random teachers who smile at me. there's actually a pretty goodlooking male teacher sitting somewhere near me but he always looks hungry, i cant find any other way to describe it and he's prob a lot older so okay, stay far far. oh and the math hod who almost broke my hand when he shook it! haha looked a lot like mr eric tan and sounds a lot like him too. but nice guy, i like him.

and why am i disheartened?
1)i think the teacher who hired me is a little disappointed in me. and i feel bad receiving pay when i'm not really doing what she wants me to do. sigh sigh sigh.

2)i really dread struggling,and failing to get people to listen to me and i don't like getting ignored and dissed, makes me feel really down and helpless!

but i don't think i'll give in just yet. sometimes the random cry, " 'cher! " or "miss yuen!" from one corner of the road or stairwell is enough to make me smile and pump me with energy to get through my lessons. ah wells. mwa.

xxoo huay shan

marianne, i'ld love to meet up soon. anytime, just let me know maybe a weekend since practically everyone is working heh.

today i have many stories to tell. firstly, i went canoeing today in a boat called the baby k1. hahaha yea not much details here but it was really great fun and i think i may do this regularly. yay im not so fair anymore and i miss getting butt blisters i almost screamed when i was bathing just now i had to bend over to wash my hair,i kinda looked like a walking stick, which if printed on a sign board,means slow your car down and look out for blind people crossing the road. oh ya news no.2, i passed the btt haha. yay.

no.3,this is random shit but this scene in Music and Lyrics just cracks me up.hugh grant has the best sense of dry humour i've ever heard.

alex: (to indian hotel deskman) okay so here goes. (sings) i've been living with a shadow overhead, i've been living with a clown above my bed (pauses) wait this isn't right.you have awful handwriting!

sophie: (irritated)it's CLOUD above my bed. ugh you can write the lyrics yourself next time. anyway who in the world would have a clown above their head?

alex:(shakes his head nonchalantly) believe me this wouldn't be the first time i've seen a clown above my bed

bellman: ??!!@#$@!!??

another piece of news. i went to the temple today to ask God if i should go overseas to study and basically the response revolved around sth like if i stay in a local uni i'll face difficulties pertaining to my cca(???) and i'll be ok if i head overseas. i seriously have no idea how he knows about my cca problems but it's very very possible that i may be seriously affected or ruined by my cca in university. well, so if my results go alright it's byebye to everybodeh. what an idea.

xxoo huay shan

corrine can you ask cherlyn if its okay if i come to ure place next wed to hang out? and return your tupperware.

I feel very perplexed. I think i am a born worrier. i worry about everything under the sun. i can't stop worrying. aiyo. and people are getting very exasperated with me. okay i shall express my anxiety here. metaphorically. okay. hrmmmph. here goes.

i've been searching for an apple. i love apples. lots of people love apples. but to get an apple is a privilege. it's difficult to get an apple. it's tedious, only the best of the best can get an apple. for months i've been preparing myself to get an apple. then suddenly my friend gets an apple. and she gets it in a golden bowl. then my other friend gets an apple. in a silver bowl. then after months of pain and agony i get an apple. in a wooden bowl. at first i am excited of course. i got my apple! then as i start thinking about eating my apple i get a littttle uneasy. ive been eating out of golden and silver plateware for years and i ain't used to a wooden bowl. and so begins the anxiety. i'm reminding myself not to be bratty but there's just that part of me that is wondering if ill be happy with the apple in the wooden bowl. i mean after all it's the apple that matters. right?ya cant convince myself though. ah. i wish i hadn't been brought up in such a competitive environment. i was so content in malaysia eating out of plastic,worm-infested bowls. i'm full of crap right. i know.

sometimes i should really sit down and ask myself what i really want out of life and what really matters most to me. sometimes i should shed my immaturity and look at things differently. *shakes head* nah still immature. *shakes harder* ow headache. sigh.

anyhow today was vday. my brother gave me a rose haha. sweet guy. and i spent the day at pasir ris shopping centre borrowing lib books,studying driving at the lib,and i bought a swimsuit and goggles. hhaahha but i dont feel anything.bochup. ah.ok the end.

xxoo huay shan

i love blogging. i'm bored. okay sigh debo and shilpa told me results are coming out on friday. RAH my future's gonna be decided on friday. and i just don't know if i'm brave enough to deal with what i'll see on that slip of paper. if it's bad i'll cry, if it's good i'll weep. oh well. bring hanky. shall rmb to add that to my hp reminders.

sighhh vereh worried vereh worrrieedd.i check my email three times a day and my heart never fails to thump twice as fast when i see that i have new messages but i keep seeing all the irritating friendster and facebook notifications someone should ban them from harrassing us. RAH.

anyway. this happened today.

shan: mama tell me again about the day i was born

mama yuen: oh aiyoh (puts down wet cloth in her hand) i remember, you made ma so worried
when you came out cause one of your eyes was shut and your other eye was
looking around the room.

shan: cute hor.

mama yuen: what cute!(picks up cloth and wipes sink) i screamed at the doctor ah ma thought
your eye got something wrong. then the doctor had to pry your eye open.
some more you keep turning your head and looking round the room.

shan: so cutee!

mama yuen: aiyoh!make ma worried ah what cute. nah wash this cloth.

shan: ma got any more stories not?

mama yuen: (thinks) oh ya this one you also very cute i remember once during pohpoh's
birthday you walked up to this huge elaborate birthday cake and stuck your
finger in to taste the cream. everyone went horrrrrrr and you got frightened
and hid in ma's lap. haha THAT was cute.

shan: eeyer.

xxoo huay shan

one thing that i've been doing a lot lately. reading. my brother's girlfriend dropped a boxful of books off at my brother's place and has kindly given me permission to raid the box and read whatever i want. and boy has it been great fun! lots of chick lit books, i read the latest shopaholic book, shopaholic and baby, and this book about the author's tormented childhood called UGLY, and i've read so many books in which the author writes about his abusive parent, that i've kinda grown immune to the pity i usually feel. falling leaves,chinese cinderella,a child called it,etc etc. sometimes i wish i had a tormented childhood so i could be inspired to write sth and become a book prize winner.

wedged deep into the box was a book about the sex industry in singapore. i was like what the @@##$@$@@##% but when i read it(sheepish) i actually found it very refreshing and mind-provoking! i wouldn't mind getting a copy myself. basically it explains things from their point of view. like why prostitution can actually be a rewarding career. it's intriguing.

i think that two things define a succesful life. one, a loving family. two,a stable career that allows you to earn enough money to live comfortably. and guess what. we don't need to be devastatingly beautiful or insanely smart to get the above. i guess i've kinda been seeing that the mad chase after top grades and hot dudes may look like it will bring good fortune but will it? should really be the mad chase after the course that's desired and the nice devoted guy with one ear and three eyes. i hope i get my happy ending.

i'm off to disturb my brother.

xxoo huay shan

cny

this year's new year celebrations have been the same routine.
despite it being the same as every other year, i do feel a certain sense of warmth. true, i dislike chinese new year for the music but somehow, there's something about the celebrations that warms my heart. i guess it's the family reunion. catching up with the family is always good. even though we're not close, i'm glad i'm still able to share a few nice moments with my cousins and godsiblings. i just wish that i could spend more time with them.
so the holiday's been good. a long awaited rest period always has its perks. time to sleep in, read books, watch tv and catch up with people.
so it's back to work on monday. i hope we can remain in the job for sometime more! i realise i'm really lucky to have such a great job that allows me to learn a lot about the legal industry. i feel like i've learnt so much these 3 weeks. i'm just really lucky and happy to be where i am.

a new year, a new beginning.

let's just hope this new year will be good.

hi everybohdeh im in a blogging mood.

i got REEE-JECCC-TEDDD from ucl. no need tah comfort me and send me consolatory messages, i'm fine and receiving condolences will probably make me feel worse anyway so none nope nada. still hoping for birmingham.

i've been receiving tons of negative feedback lately. something about changing my attitude if i want to lead a good life and not end up homeless in a gutter donning torn clothes and bad hair. and i have to adopt a positive attitude and be hardworking if i want to succeed in life. cause what i've gotten so far is pah-teh-tic. oh oh and to put in more effort into my life. yuppppps, i'm a lazy, unfriendly, depressed girl. sigh sometimes ah i don't know whether to laugh or cry. i was sitting down hearing more such comments just a few hours back(with a nosey relative poking in an ear to eavesdrop) and i got so tired of hearing the same thing that i walked over to the food table and stuffed myself with ba-kwa,which astonishingly made me feel ever so much better. then i headed to my mom who was talking to her sister and made myself as charming as possible so as to earn a loving rub on the forehead and praises(from my mother's sister) about how i should totally be a model cause i'm so "mei li" before heading back to my seat. ah, i felt better. "everything also don't want to learn" yea but at least i'm mei li i can use my looks to oh,model and i won't need to learn anything else. "change your attitude" ha if i can get someone to rub my forehead with my current attitude i'm very happy with what i am now, thankkkew! yea and it goes on and on and on..... sian sian siannnn.

here's a philosophical quote from lavagirl(i was watching the adventures of shark boy and lava girl during the family gathering today)

everything that is or was began with a dream

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

xxoo huayshan