Food In My Tummy

4 slices of cake shared among two very hungry and greedy people tasted sweet as well! I realise how much I'm gonna miss Zee when she leaves for the Swiss Alps in April. There will be no one to hang out with after school to share my day with and do random things. :(
On a happier note, supper tastes especially good when in good company and in the absence of politics. Coming home to a familiar voice after that is an even nicer way to end the day (:

Work aside, I had a good day (:

xoxo
MAR

other girboes and myself.

hello!it's been long i know, but i haven't had much stuff to tell you about so.. but anyway i have stuff now! haha but before i begin let me introduce a theory to you:

there are 2 kinds of bimboes, GIRBOES and well.. BIMBOES.

1)GIRBOES
- girls who embrace their feminine side and enjoy playing with girly stuff. girly bimbo, hence GIRBOES! note that girboes pay equal attention to their studies, sports, food, friends etc.

2)BIMBOES
- girls who spend all their time and cash on beautifying themselves and who cannot step outta the house without foundation(which i have never touched in my life though i am sorely tempted to try it) eyeliner and mascara. and who make people feel weird around them cause they dress up a lot and have too much makeup on.

THAT SAID.... i went shopping today:) tho i'm poor. i needed black shoes for my GP placement(really needed) and to collect my contact lenses so off i went!! before i continue, let me tell you about the things that i've recently decided that i wanted:

1)blue eyeliner. or green. (after seeing some people wear it. it's really cool! blue mascara is a NONONONO but blue eyeliner is fun and girlish!)

2)liquid foundation. it just makes everyone look better. i dont need it but i'ld like to know i own some so i can look pretty if i really want to.

3)light pink lipstick! saw kate hudson wearing some in how to lose a guy in 10 days and i think it's delightful.

4)a fake balenciaga bag(blue) yaya obsession with blue i know. fake cause there's really no point hoping for a real one, even if i rob my parents and dig out the emergency funds they left me i'ld only be able to afford a very good imitation.

5)a fake classic black chanel bag. i wanted the jumbo one but it kinda looks a bit informal i think so i don't mind settling for the smaller one too. i got into the chanel bag after seeing stella and my senior carrying the real one(rich NEHNEHS). and i have been seeing millions of ppl using it in clubs. fake ones that is. i know elise is hunting one down too.

so.... before you read any further... remember I AM A GIRBO OKAY! i went to run just now! bimboes don't run! nor study! nor get 77 for their test!! i know i'm becoming slightly more girbotic with all the funny obsessions with eyeliners and bags and scarves but i'm no different please continue loving me!! *sad look*

so here's what i bought!! damn happy cause i didnt expect to find some of these, and they were lots cheaper than i expected.


1) first up... BLUE EYELINER!!-2.40 pounds. before you think i'm weird and that i have an awful fashion sense scroll down.....


nice right nice right!!!?????? it's like a fun colour to use and it's different! try it seriously. i didn't dare to put too much on today but even a little can be seen from afar. i saw this baby pink eyeliner and tried it but i looked like i had sore eyes so.. nope. haha blue or green is the best option in my humble girbotic opinion.

2) my black GP shoes-10 pounds. ah boring la. but i think these are nice and formal and cute. eh you know how i test shoes now to see whether they are good? i hold them by the toe end and give them a good whack against a wall. if it makes the "PAK" sound, buy them. cause i bought shoes from far east- can't remember which shop one of thoe shops with tons of ballet flats that are pretty but are damn smelly on the inside( it's not mondo though, that one the shoes are GORGEOUS i agree my dear mondo-fans, but the shoes are really too smelly for my liking.)-anyway those shoes have huge holes in them now. these shoes make a solid "PAK" sound. my far east shoes make a feeble "ah" sound.

3) finally.... my fake (very fake) chanel bag-6 pounds. this one fake until boey tahan. instead of squares, it has hearts printed all over it. but u cant see from far la so nvm. u wouldnt have known if i hadnt told u right? rightttttttt.... but seriously finally i've got one cause i think it's kinda the in thing now for girls to show off the woven gold-black chain on their shoulders, no matter what is hanging at the end of the chain. in my case it's some weird ass heart shaped thing but..! till i get enough money to go to Chanel, thump my chest and holler IT'S ABOUT TIME IMA GET ME ONE OF THOSE SEXY THINGS! this'ld have to do.

end of my tale! i bet you're all shaking your heads but haha rmb.. GIRBO!!! *beams* love you all!

huayshan

Rant

It's almost 2am in the morning, I have a meeting in school at 9am later and I have an impulsive urge to blog.

It's more a rant, really. There's so many things happening at once that I cannot seem to breathe. I have no clue how to get started on my research paper. Although I have a rough idea of what I'd like to cover, I have no idea how to get started on finding information. I still have a project to worry about, which seems to be progressing alright. I just hope we can finish everything on time. To top it all of, there are upcoming tests to prepare for, events to organise and matches to take care of. When or where does it all end? To think this is only the first year, what more 3 years?!

Handball today was really good. It helped me keep my mind off things for that 2 hours or so. Although I still can't shoot to save my life, I hope I'll get there somehow. Sigh, if only I had just a week of pure relaxation. I'd kill for that week right now.

Alright, back to work. I really don't like how stress is morphing me into a crazy person. Ugh.

MAR

What Break?

It's finally recess week. The week I thought I could use to relax and take a breather. Of course, like almost anything else, I am proven wrong. There is no time to rest and relax, work just keeps coming in. I'm going mad thinking about work 24/7. On top of that, there are other things to think about! I hate it. Sometimes, I really wonder if I'd be happier if I chose another path. But it's way too late for regrets now so I just gotta suck it up and move on.

At least I had a great weekend. Spent it catching up with people and just lazing in bed on Sunday. I'm not kidding about the lazing in bed part. I really spent the whole day in bed. Woke up only in the evening to drive my parents and myself to dinner. But it was a really good weekend in all, how I wish every weekend could be like that. It's so nice to see everyone again and catch up proper, instead of having to raise our voices. I really look forward to more of such sessions. I'm really glad we took the initiative to keep in touch even though we are no longer in the same school. It's times like these that I'm really thankful for friends. (:
Alright, it's time once again to do work.
xoxo
MAR

i'm a lazy bugger. and a lucky one too.

eh friends ah. remember the test i had in january? the one i was raving on and on about when i was back in dec? like halfway during class outings/outings i would moan "i have to bloody study when i go back! *whines*" remember????? the one i told ppl who asked me about it that i would fail?

i really thought i would fail, i swear. i'm totally not the kind to brag that i'll fail, to make people mad when i end up doing really well. u know right???

so when results were released on monday i bochup didnt bother waking up early to check my results like everyone else. crazy. it's like running towards a burning car. anyway so after hearing about a lot of people failing and well doing well too, i decided ah, huayshan it's time to face the music! checked my email(our results get sent to our uni emai) and i SCREAMED. i hollered JIMAAAAAAAAAAAA down the hallway but damnit she wasnt in and i needed to scream to someone so i called clara who had also done well so we screamed at each other. i got 77,51 and 66. for 3 modules.i know the 51 not very good but i passed! crazy eh i swear i dont know how i got those marks i keep checking my email, expecting an email saying oh there's been a mistake i actually got 50,44 and 33.

happy for me?? haha but things arent perfect la. i've been a bit sad about my ability to communicate with patients. i'm not very good at it i keep stoning and smiling like a dumbass. somehow i think its cause of the diff culture in a way but it still depresses me. may it get better in time!! okay off to poop. loveyaall.

HUG

shan

Yay Weekends!

This weekend was great albeit the bruises and pain that came along with it.
7s was fantastic. Felt really good playing in the carnival. We really stepped up during the tournament and I'm so proud of everyone. It was exhausting but it was really fun nonetheless! I couldn't have asked for a better team to play for and a better outcome (: It really made my Saturday even though I am now aching terribly with scratches and a bad knee. But what the hell, it's all for the fun of the game! And I must say, I really love playing contact, especially with the team. Good stuff! And, I'm really thankful for all the encouragement and guidance given by my teammates both on and off the field. It really lifted my spirits and kept me going while fatigue was starting to take over. So yes, thank you all (:

Valentine's was well spent as well! Managed to catch up with what's left of us. It's been a while since we've all hung out like that (okay, not a while but you get the drift). I really enjoyed myself and couldn't ask for better company. How I wish I could spend everyday with all of you just like how we did last time. It seems so long ago. I really miss the good ol' days and having all of them around. Oh well, at least we're still meeting up pretty often so that's a good thing. (: <3>
That aside, I'm afraid all the fun and joy ends here. This week is gonna be killer. 2 midterms which I feel completely unprepared for, plenty of quizzes here and there as well. Sigh, I don't understand the point of having a study break when all your exams are before the study break. Brilliant. I hope I can get through this.

Have a good week all!

xoxo
MAR

hot chocolate warms my insides

i have time so i thought i'ld blog! :D

let me vent my woes first. i have exactly 3 months to spend in spore/msia and obviously if i had the choice i would stay in sg for the entire 3 months but i'ld feel bad. i have to spend with my parents even though i'ld be bored to death-can't drive, no friends, no public transport. i'ld just spend my days praying for night time to come quicker and going to my mom's office-which would be great except that i'll prob be taking driving lessons which mean i cant follow her to her office which means i'll be stuck at home which is even more boring. but i still want to spend at least a month in msia nonetheless. ah.. but a month in sg is a definite must. just not sure when :( it's like i'm so used to being free and well.. FREEEE that malaysia is stifling and depressing sometimes.

so i'm a tad depressed when i think abt that sometimes, ai...

next up, today was GP day and i totally rocked it! started out bad cause i messed up an essay i handed in the week before and ah it was just bad. but when we did our patient interviews which are now one-to-one interviews i was complimented by the patient!! it was an elderly lady and she was complaining about another doctor to me before that. something about the doctor being insensitive and she told me she liked the doctor that was in charge of us first years better. he does rock btw, i really admire the guy. then she told me i asked the right questions and had a delightful smiley face and that i had an excellent bedside manner!!! i was blushing like crap and stuttering "no la..." and "aiya.." prob didn't understand me but i was very flattered. i seriously am very conscious sometimes of my different accent and looks and i am genuinely afraid that patients will feel less comfy with me or trust me less. it's nice to hear some reassurance every now and then :)

.... another unromantic vday for huayshan ........

btw liesel, no i'm not going for the guy and my name is huay yuen on all the registers! so when i say my name is shan the tutors give me this weird look. sigh.

huay-shan(it's going to become a thing.)

Hello Goodbye

It's past midnight now but I'm still awake, so I decided to post something just for the fun of it.

This week has been tough. Aside from the pile of work that just keeps coming, 2 close friends have left :( I miss them so much already. Sure, I have had plenty of close friends leaving but that doesn't make it any easier. It's hard to hold back tears. It just feels as though a part of you has left with them as well. Life goes on but it will never be the same. All the more I look forward to summer! Thank God for Skype, e-mail, Facebook and msn.

That aside, I had a good week of catching up with people and spending time with great company (: Had plenty of meet ups this week despite the crazy amount of work that still awaits (God help me) but I think it's definitely worth while. What would I do without all of you by my side? It's these things that keep me going, really. I've come to realise how much I enjoy constant companionship all day, kinda reminds me of when Jen was back home. At least we still talk every night (: Still, am glad for the company!

I'm kinda bummed that I can't play touch this Saturday due to contact but oh well, there's still plenty of weeks to come! I really am looking forward to the league because last Saturday felt so so good and refreshing. I want more. Finally something else to look forward to on the weekends (:

Okay, it's late and I have work to do and I'm just being random by updating.

I have more reason to update now since Cher is overseas :( So be prepared for more of me! (Of course there are some things that I just can't mention here but you'll definitely be updated!)

Alright, time to do some work now.

Have a good weekend!

xoxo
MAR

NYEHHHH

but let's come to that later. this blog post is very long overdue!!

first things first. chua yi jin. the lovely soul picked me up from the train station at 11.30 + with sok(if u don't know who he is then too bad for you) and we went to eat kebabs.. well i ate one. and we headed back to elise's dorm and talked to sleep. next morn, elise cooked breakfast for me and we went shopping after with jade and had dinner at night with more of elise's friends. i went back on sunday morning. hoookay. now the nitty-gritty:

1) elise's good friend jade is a delight. easy to get along with, hilarious, supportive and clearly adores our elise.
2)elise's room velly messy. ah that's to be expected x) but seriously, her dorm is gorgeous,it's huge and her roommates are nice. omg elise chua i'm telling ppl about ure life for you. how sad is this. HAHA!!!! i have nothing better to do.
3).... elise is a lucky girl. friends, i have had the honour of being the first sporean friend to see elise's better half(EBF) and i have come to the conclusion that she is lucky, and has snagged herself a really decent, caring, capable and stable fella. EBF wasn't what i expected. but after talking to EBF i just get the feeling that our girlie has got it right :)

so here're some pictures-we only took 5 and these are the least distorted ones.

i know we both look crap- i hadnt bathed for 2 days and elise ah she bathed but she was just sleepy i think. hahhahha. elise if u see this, i hope u don't mind my writing about you, i'm doing it out of love. *hugs* had myself a great weekend though i felt quite out of place when she was with her friends(p/s lizzie it made me realise i was quite insensitive when u came made u make friends with my friends sorry!!!) but i still enjoyed myself cause she has darn nice friends!

so back to me. i'm good. bored. sigh. work's piling as usual. ah, same old same old. oh ya i think this angmoh across the hall fancies me. cool right... he keeps ringing the bell and asking for me and asking if i'm alright. sometimes asks if i'm going out. mind you i have never spoken to the fella in my life and didn't know his name until quite recently. no idea how he knows my name. anyway ytd he rang and swaggered around a bit and shouted "you alright?" i said yeah, he yelled "you comin out tonight? come on out it'll be a good laugh!" to which i said no, i got loads of work and he then screamed "well you know we're always here for you" to which i nodded, yes i know you're always here for me and then he hollers "aw, how about a hug?" to which i blink and say uh ok. my flatmates(who were eavesdropping) gave me this look when i went back into the flat. don't quite know what to make of it.

i'm tireddd....... btw!!! bought my airticket home. coming back 2nd july, going back 25th sep!!! :)

huay-shan(i wish my name was huay-shan with the hyphen. would make life so much easier )

Good Day

I had a really good day yesterday save for the pile of work that still awaits me.

Finally, I had such a great feeling while playing touch yesterday. I felt that sense of drive, passion and joy once again. I really enjoyed myself so much even though we only had 8 and had to play a 30 minute game. It felt awesome. I can't even describe it. I finally attained my zen and was in my learning zone. I hope this season, I will get to push myself even more and grow as a player. I really hope that we'll grow as a team too! I have a good feeling about this. Please prove me right! I'm so glad to be playing touch again with Pollypockets. Could not ask for a better team this season! I do miss playing with some who have left already but oh well, I still enjoy it all the same (:

I managed to catch up with the ruggers as well! It's been quite a while. It was really fun getting together and just having a ball of a time. Glad to know that everyone's well. I felt really warm and fuzzy inside. It was just a perfect ending to a good day. I hope we get to meet up more often!

I realise I haven't had such good days in a long time. I'm always rushing from place to place or struggling to meet a deadline. Sure I do hang out quite a bit with friends but it's never enough. I think I wanna do so many things yet, there's so little time. I really cannot believe how time flies. This week is really gonna be tough. Work plus farewells plus a very important tournament. Not to mention I have to start planning events and setting up the team. I really hope I can pull through. Sometimes I wonder if I took on too much. Then again, I've always believed that you're never given more than you can handle.

So, I will get through this.

Hope everyone has a good week (:

xoxo
MAR

a long one(:

a long one's coming up. long and juicy. ARE YA READDYYYY??(p/s am taking time off even though i am dangerously close to dropping out due to stupidity to blog! i feel like i have to i don't know why :) )

i went to paris for the weekend.

duh. haha ok we took a 5hr coach ride to the ferry terminal then took a 2 hr ferry ride and then went by coach again to the hostel in paris. it was really tiring and i was a bit restless at one point cause nobody wanted to play with me everybody was sleeping!! haha.
pria and dilani were sitting behind me, i sat with jima. pria and dilani are funny pieces of crap i esp got closer to dilani during the trip she's just this bubble of joy and energy haha more on that later :)

so we get onto the ferry after hours on the bus and some ppl just collapse and sleep but i was quite high. was really very amusing i saw people sleeping in the most absurd positions all over the place. so we went up to the deck and it was FREEZING but very titanic like :) we were up there for a short while and the time there was spent screaming hugging and running around. haha.

it was freezing. and the wind was crazy. my hair went bonkers.

then we went back and i woke erica up to take a photo with me. :)

eventually reach paris after another long bus ride (i slept like a log then) and we check into our rooms. i roomed with sangeeth dilani and pria. great fun. we're all bimboes. haha we reached the hostel(its not a hotel its some dingy youth hostel) at abt 7 am? and left at 10am to sightsee. but everyone was bustling around the room with gusto trying to pretty-up. dilani was struggling to get her foundation outta the bottle, pria was trying on different belts, i was trying to rid eye-rings with concealer, and sangeeth.. ah she was just staring at us in silent amusement.

that's the bustling around and me taking a break from bustling around.

jima knock-knocked and i made her sit down to take a picture :) she was like. oh my god you guys are dressing up??? (ooh i even bathed before that awesome right.. i hardly bathe. seriously i was full of energy no idea why.)

then we headed to the eiffel tower. by the metro. interesting train system. haha. i was completely blur, jima and anna were the ones navigating. oh ya let's take a break here to introduce you to my paris group of friends- me, jima, shi-mei, sangeeth, erica you know.. add on dilani and pria and anna. so eight of us roaming paris together :D

love this picture. we split up later on because some of them didnt want to go up the eiffel tower. i went up and zomg it was FREEZING. i really felt damn miserable and i couldn't enjoy myself as much cause i was busy finding ways to hide myself from the wind. it was seriously freezing. and i just HAD TO WEAR SHORTS THAT DAY. splendid, huayshan. oh and today i fell down on my ass on my way back from school cause i was stupid enough to be wearing improper shoes. back to that later. point is eiffel tower=gorgeous, huayshan=freezing.

the thing about me is that i can't for nuts pronounce the places i went to in paris. this is the louvre..? the da vinci code thing. cool right? i didnt even know it was in paris(like i said.. anna and jima did the navigating) it was gorgeous. i didn't go in.... :( queue too long and we had lots more places to see.

not normally a solo-shot kinda girl but this i just had to :)

then we walked to goodness knows where else(i seriously can't pronounce those names!!) and shi-mei and i stopped for crepes. AWESOME STUFF!!! oh ya for a few weeks before the trip,jima was trying to stuff some french in me but all i could rmb was "ze ne say pa"(i don't understand or is it i don't know..) and "zay farm" (i'm hungry). while waiting for the crepes the guy said konnichiwa to me-side track here- what's with that ah!! two people came up to me in paris and said konnichiwa do i look jap??? .. anyway back to it. and he asked if i could speak french and so i paused to think and said "ze ne say pa, zay farm!" he was highly amused. i think he spread more nutella on my crepe cause of that.

that's us and our yummy food :)

headed back soon after to get ready for the night out- fancy dress theme was "anything but clothes goes" and it was my first time dressing up so was quite excited. my room was damn happening. full of half naked people running in and out wearing bin liners(i called it garbage bags and they all stared at me like i was crazy so finee.... bin liners.) i had made my dress before hand so everyone ran to me and asked me to help them with theirs. *beams* i can proudly say that i made all of their dresses except jimas. i dont have the full picture here, its with someone else's camera but take a look on facebook, it's really cool. i lined the neck and bottom of my dress with aluminium foil it's cool stuff :) i loved this part of the trip the best- the preparing to go out- and the sacra coure i think i spelt that wrongly haha, more on that later. i would be putting eyeliner on on my right eye and suddenly pria would squeal shit, it's falling apart! and i would run to her to staple her dress then suddenly anna would run in and scream i need the adapter to straighten my hair!! and then erica ran in holding a garbage bag looking most miserable, and went, SHANN help me!!! hahahha hilarious. so here're the pictures:

i took advantage of the hair straightener and straightened my fringe :D

oh ya this is helen and gurps. my GP placement people!! both great awesome people :)

natasha, she lived in malaysia before so we're pretty good buddies.

sad thing is, the night turned out to be a mess. something screwed up and we ended up in a BAR instead of a club. there were two rumours circulating:

1) the organisers got cheated- the company told them it was a popular club instead of a bar

2)someone got an injury and had to be rushed to the hospital so our bus journey to the club was delayed- and because of the delay we couldn't reach the club in time for free entry and hence had to make do with the bar.

no idea which is right still. the bar sucked, music sucked and everyone left by 2. i left at 12. super shagged by then. it was quite fun though running along the road in a bin liner and aluminium foil screaming whenever the wind blew. oh and with a whole trail of people dressed in even weirder stuff than me cursing behind me. hilarious!!!

at least we had each other.. :) so we were still happy.

DAY TWO: went to the SACRA CAURE - see i wasnt joking about the not knowing how to pronounce this places thing. it was gorgeous.

i really loved that place- the church was alright( oh btw it's this white church on top of a hill) but what i loved most was the atmosphere- we sat on the steps and watched this guy sing and everyone sang along and the guy was really friendly and funny and the view was gorgeous and the weather perfect.. uploaded a video on facebook, check it out(: i loved it there. was seriously gorgeous and i felt so so so happy.

then we set off to complete a mission we had been talking about for ages: EAT SNAILS!!!!

they just taste like mussels. exactly the same, in my opinion. :D

then went to the moulin rouge.. (once again i was like, huh it's in paris?)

and along the way passed TOND OF SEX SHOPS. TONS, i say. i couldn't stop myself from taking pictures i have loads more than the ones uploaded here hahahahha. it was hilarious.

the names are seriously cheesy. we even saw this one called supermarche erotique. HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA i have the pic but forgot to upload it and i'm lazy but haha dilani and i were super excited couldn't stop laughing.

then we went to walk to the arch and walked along this shopping stretch which was gorgeous. but cold. but gorgeous :)

saw and went into a massive LV on the way- it was crowded and huge. went in for fun only haha.

final stop- the arch. dont know what that is but they made a fuss out of it so... THE ARCH.

got back this morning at 3am and i had lessons at 9am. needless to say i skipped that and only woke up at 12. went for the last few lessons and omg am i feeling stressed. the angmohs who also went to paris came in at 9am and had their work done and ANSWERED ALL THE QNS. i was literally stoning there just staring into space and i had slept till 12!! im stressed. damn stressed seriously.

so anyway when i was walking back ytd at 3am it was snowing but i thought, aiya no big deal but when i woke up this morning i saw THIS:

and this. gorgeous right??????

but... i was stupid and wore my golden pumps(i think u may know what i'm talking abt if u go out with me enough) cause i was late for school and i was freezing and slipping and yea on the way back my shoes decided, enough of the wishy-washy let's just make huayshan fall! and boom i slipped and fell on my ass. my friend went WHOAA!! and everyone behind probably thought, silly idiot, you're asking for it wearing those shoes. hahahaha. and it was snowing like crazy too so my coat, BOOBS and bag were filled with snow. and i kept eating snow when i tried to talk! it's seriously pretty but annoying when it falls all over your face. i need a hat. (: ooh btw i bought a scarf in paris for 1.50 euro it's pretty and i decided i would buy a scarf from every country i go to in future :)))

in all the trip was good. a few minor glitches, but great. not everything's always great though, i'm a teeeeeeensy heartbroken over a tiny weensy crush- dont ask me about it, wo xin dong. :(

but you know me, have crushes here and there but i get over them quick. no worries darlingsssss. anyways, additional things abt me:

1)learnt how to take blood!!! would try it on people but i'm not allowed to cause i haven't been fully immunised from hep B yet. my flatmate poked someone alr cause she's immunised, i can't wait! i was practising on a dummy but i practiced putting the torniquet on my gp groupmate and her vein just popped out all bouncy and delicious and i was so tempted to jab a needle in right

then hahahhahah.

2)i'm really stressed- have i mentioned that?

3)visiting elise this fri!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so that's me. long enough? HUG!!!!!!!!

huayshan