I am currently enjoying the life of the unemployed (: It's only the first day and I'm already loving it! Love being able to get up at whatever time I wish and do things at a leisurely pace. The feeling is awesome. Aside from having the time to catch up with friends and sleep, I can finally start on the 4th season of Desperate Housewives! (since I've finished Big Bang Theory, Chuck and Grey's Season 4 already!) I am loving each and every second of being unemployed! The only down side is that there is no cash flowing in. But oh well, I will get by. Somehow.
There are so many things for me to do! Top on the list is to clean up the junk in my room. There's plenty of things I want to throw out. I just have to get off my lazy ass to do so! I've already cleared out some of my old books. Now it's the clothes and I know I'm gonna have a massive headache when I get back from Bangkok! One good thing is that I have space! Quite a bit of it really! I want to buy a chair and possibly a laundry basket. Actually, I want a swing but it's expensive and I have no idea how to hang it. If money could miraculously drop from the sky, I could buy it! Ah, if only. Actually, I realise I'm old enough to buy 4D and Toto! HAHA!
AH! I'm so excited! I'll be going to bangkok in like 10 hours! And I have yet to pack? Or decide which luggage to bring? Am I screwed or what? But I'm so excited!! Too bad I sprained my foot during training yesterday so I can't walk fast and sometimes, I limp. How unfortunate. Oh well, I will get by! I will and I must. I'm so excited! Our plan is looking so good and I can't wait to get started! The food there should be ace as well!
Ok, I guess I should stop admiring my new red Vaio and get my ass to pack my stuff and clear up my room. I do need to do something about my junk and my room!
Bye everyone! We're off to Bangkok :D

xoxo,
Mar

WANYUN AH MISS YUUUU

i'm bored and i miss vj badly so i decided to blog about a typical day in vj. just for old times sake.

it'll start with my roommate waking me up at 7.10,just as she was leaving for school(she doesn't wake me earlier cause she doesn't want me hogging the toilet) and ill dash into the toilet, change and msg ruiyi to check if she's awake. if she's not i'll run down with my toothbrush in my mouth and barge into her room spluttering "shwake arp!" then we'll both run to the bus stop, and two very short stops later, we'ld be running cum skipping past people to get to school to do our daily dose of pull-ups for kayak. yup we'ld do pull-ups with the kayakers till the bell rings then we'ld walk to the hall,and i'ld stand in line and talk nonsense with my class till assembly starts. all sorts of random things. after assembly classes would start and we'ld stroll slowly to our lecture hall/classrooms but not without buying ham and egg+cheese burgers and milo first. heh. then we'ld go to lectures and sleep/talk/eat/stare at people. on one very memorable occasion four guys(wilson's class i think) wore their class hoodie with the hoods on their heads and sat in front and scared the crap out of mrs teo. haha. then during breaks cuiying would sit down with her food within seconds and zhanhao would be second in line with a pink plate of chicken rice.and usually i wheedle wanyun into queueing with me at the malay stall(: nat chengwei and ben eat like monsters. and they eat like five minutes before the break ends. no idea why. on another memorable occasion, i witnessed nat eating a plate of rice,followed by western food. how does he maintain that figure. then it's lessonslessonslessons then after school i'ld change reluctantly into my running attire and go for kayak trainings. usually involves a lot of running gah. then ruiyi and i would head back to hostel together for dinner at about 7 . after dinner i would sleep till about 930, take out my homework,stare at it, go to stella's room to complain about how lazy i was being, then go back to sleep. and the cycle continues.

oh,how i miss those days!

**huayshan

Life and all things worth living for

hullo*waves*

spent the past two days shopping, met stella after veryvery long and went for a shopping trip with deborah! hmm. bought some really decent stuff and i am now the proud owner of a very pretty pair of wedges but i can't bring myself to wear them too often cause i'm afraid the straps will wear out and i don't wanna get them dirty. heee. oh i must tell you about my topshop blouse i'm very proud of it. heh debo and i were just browsing thru the topshop sale rack, not really expecting to find anything cause every sale item was in sizes 14 or 16 and i suddenly came across this gorgeous green kimono-ish satin top (With a ribbon behind which i ADORE) in SIZE 8. what happened next? BUY. it was 29 bucks, reduced from 86 dollars. GASP,i know. shiok lah buying this kinda thing.

my life's seriously awesome. and i really don't know what i did in my previous life to deserve this haha. sigh hope it lasts. the more i think about it the more excited i am about going to uk, and studying medicine. double happiness man. i really am looking forward to studying about the human body and meeting patients the good thing about birmingham is that med students have early clinical exposure, i heard that part of the first year programme is attaching students to a family and the student is supposed to "take care" of the family. cool,no? in the meantime,while i await my new life in uk, i can enjoy myself shopping, spending precious time with my darlings and watching shows online. heh.

been rushing a medical check up the past few days and i paid like 150 dollars to get myself jabbed by a darned needle four times. i am now proudly immune from hepatitis B,measles and rubella. my arm aches though ,the hep B shot was damn DAMN painful. i don't have anything to complain or emo about lah. damn sian. makes my posts very boring. nyehnyehnyeh.oh okay i have something interesting to blog about. an odac senior just told me he saw me at mos but didnt talk to me cause he thought i was drunk(something which i've never experienced in my life) oh man i didn't know i danced that badly!! hahahhahha hilarious!

** huayshan

It's common to hear that life is unfair and I couldn't agree more. However, no matter how many times you tell yourself life is unfair, it's still difficult to accept. I'm still trying to come to terms with it. Today, work made it crystal clear to me why life is unfair. I can't stand the fact that one particular new permanent employee gets to saunter in to work everyday late, while I bust my ass to make it on time. Aside from not coming every other day, when this person comes, this person just sits there and surfs the internet, while I am running all over the place trying to get work done. It didn't help, that the photocopying machine was jamming up either because of the overload of documents I had to feed it. And there this person is, surfing the internet, with absolutely nothing to do. Wow. Best part? This person gets paid more than me! To:
1. Come into work late every day (yes, even on the first day)
2. Come to work as and when this person pleases
3. Surf the internet and make small talk with whoever will listen

Yes, life is unfair. I just have to learn to suck it in and move on.

I'm sorry for sounding so bitchy, it's just that I've really had enough. I know the world is full of such people and I have to learn to work with them. Still, it's difficult to and I'm still struggling to do that. I wish I could rise above.

Anyway, on a lighter note, I've an exciting weekend coming up and our Bangkok trip is all set! I really can't wait for the trip! The plan looks superb! I absolutely cannot wait! (: A big thank you to the twins and their parents for making this trip possible (:

xoxo,
mar

THURSDAY HUR?

in case deborah and elise and everyone else realises that i usually take photos from their blogs/facebook and post them here it's because yours truly has no camera. i promise to fix that problem very soon.okay i like that top pic so i shall put it here and deceive ppl who have never seen me before into thinking i'm pretty. hopefully they'll mistake deborah for me and they'll be like wah huayshan looks ang moh! okay being retarded. anyhow, lina was there but for some reason i cannot remember she is not in that photo so there she is. LINA and her darling cat(: say hi lina!

oh yay i swam today. ok more like swam for fifteen mintues then plopped myself on the pool steps and stretched out my arms in the air,something like what lina does when she's stressed she raises her hands in the air and leaves things to God. hehe. ok what was i saying? oh yeah i raised my hands in the air to de-whiten them aka try to tan. didn't work. it's kinda like just dropping white chocolate on the floor and there are a few dirt marks.beh.

then ruiyi called me as i was hanging around clementi central trying to feed myself to tell me about her unsw interview. okay sorry ruiyi but i didn't catch much of what she said but this part got my attention and made me spit out a pearl. according to my dear girl it went sth like this:
INTERVIEWER: so how did your parents bring you up?
RUIYI: oh i was brought up well.. (thinking it's too short an answer) ..family. (i know. like ??????)
INTERVIEWER: i'm sorry i didn't get that? you were brought up well.. what?
RUIYI: (thinks oh crap, "well family" makes no sense what's the closest word to family???) oh i said i was well fed.

okay. one,two,three.. BWAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA!

the interviewer prob thought she was some fat kid with eating issues. haha funny lah that girl.

the lina you owe me game on msn is hilarious.

** huayshan

days meant to be remembered

yes so for the past few days i have been enjoying myself plenty plenty. first we had the dinner with the four sec school girls and corrine did an awesome plan of our trip to bangkok,we even have a session specifically for highlighting cum dyeing our hair cause apparently it's cheaper over there. whoo! and most of the itenary consists of shopping so yeh, SHIOK. going there with an empty bag coming back with a bursting one. shall get gifts for all my dears!

then yesterday i watched made of honour with HELD okay i'm H so it should be ELD(elise lina debo) and it was alright nothing special just another chick flick. in fact don't watch it just rent it on dvd. haha. and i must say the popcorn at cathay(dhoby) is the best i've ever tasted. haha! thennnnn we tried to spice up our boring lives and went over to clark quay to enjoy the benefits of being a lady. haha yeah and once again the bouncer stopped me from entering. no i didn't forget my ic i'm not an idiot i just had cake in my bag which lina sweetly saved for me from her birthday party. (and i'm eating it now it's soooooo good) and the bouncer stared at me with this really still face and said no food was allowed so he kept my cake for me -_- waste my time and his time please. pretty fun lah. i like the rotating platform place better than the smelly smokey cage place. the songs are damn gay but damn fun. like that thing you do you knowww that super upbeat oldish song but it's damn fun to dance to and there was uptown girl and it's my life haha not typical clubbish songs but fun nevertheless. contrary to what most think clubbing can be ridiculously nonsensically fun instead of you know, sleazy cheap fun. and todayy i cooked and went for my first run after so DARN long. i purposely uploaded a whole new playlist in my ipod as motivation. haha. yay healthy.

elise is gradually becoming my new buddy.

** huayshan

HUAY SHAN

is back.missed me?

ruiyi: stupid nuiyeeh. move your ass and make us capsize. think i forgot ah.
atikah: halloooo! study hard. for malay. cakap banyak bahasa melayu!
lien: meet???? where are you going for uni yah?
hendricks: i talked to you online alr. buffet hurry before my wallet gets too thin.
peiying: kick your backside lah. come here insult me. eh miss you leh. sorry i didn't go for sharon's thing!! another kayak outing please?
charlene: nvm don't worry most impt is your olevels alright. and fine ugly charlene.uglyugly. haha!

since she studies very hard and is pretty much a model student to me i shall talk a little about amanda sim. hmm. well let's make this short sharp and sweet to quote the corpulent mr chan. petite and bespectacled and ever so enthusiastic about chem my good amanda is the girl that every student should strive to be like! one fault though she goes googoogaga when she's near a certain someone. harrumph. good girl my amanda. expect much from her.

so i came back from malaysia today and am feeling as usual rather blah.

my mother is kinda like that best friend, that soulmate or even that loyal pet that you've been searching for for most of your life. she's always in the background, clearing up the mess i always seem to be in, supporting me in her own discreet way and of course loving me indefinitely in a most loyal and endearing manner. she seldom complains even though she's practically sacrificing a lifetime of happiness and freedom to provide me with a happy,worry-free lifestyle.God i haven't felt unhappy ever since i got dumped in Sec 2! haha. and i guess sometimes i feel guilty. like i don't deserve all this goodness. okay strange logic but haha! it does bug me sometimes. was making a most unglamorous fool out of myself this morning in the bus back to singapore. started tearing and i had no tissue and i have the most disobedient nose it insisted on leaking even though i reminded it i had no tissue paper GOD! so i was snorting away trying to smear some mucus on my jacket sleeve discreetly until the woman beside me offered me a tissue. paiseh! i guess i just wish my mother could have the wonderful lifestyle a woman as wonderful as her deserves. i'm so determined to come back in 7 years with a big fat degree,a good boy and THEN i'm going to give her the best life i can afford to give.i have to keep reminding myself. i'm going to birmingham to become a good doctor. i am going to birmingham to become a good doctor. and oh to snag a good boyfriend. haha(:

ask me out yeah. missed alot of you. oh one more thing i'm flying from malaysia not singapore. was very irked at first but it's just a small sacrifice to make on my part my parents are paying for my education. so yeh. takecare!

*** huay shan

Love NJ Rugby

Last night was our much anticipated Swissotel stay over, which Nat won us last year.
After months of procrastination, our plans finally materialized.
It was so much fun catching up with everyone and just spending time together while having a blast. It really makes me miss the good old days where we used to see each other everyday and have so much fun in school together. It's sad that everyone is going to university soon and starting a different phase of our lives but no matter what, I hope all of us still keep in touch and have frequent meet up sessions like this one! :)
But what last night has made me realize is that I am so very fortunate to have such a great team like this. It's really the team that has gotten me through all the tough times in NJ.
I love the team long time! (:

I am getting thoroughly sick of my job. Sure, I've learned a lot from this job and I'm grateful for the many opportunities I've been given. But work just sucks life out of me and it's getting monotonous and really tiring. I'm exhausted. It really doesn't help that I've chanced upon assholes as well, one of which has just 'made my day' and has increased the urge to quit my job asap. Basically, this particular idiot has not paid his bills since 2000 and he had the cheek to crap up some bogus name who apparently is from our firm and called him to remind him about outstanding payment. Yeah, like I don't know who my colleagues are. Ok, so he says he has effected payment already. Where is it? To top it all off, he suddenly said that he's driving and thus, cannot talk to me. Well, obviously he thinks that I'm deaf and could not hear the engine starting. Clearly it's a blatant lie to get me off his case. Seriously, at least come up with a better lie? And, he slammed down the phone. So much for manners!

Perhaps they should make courtesy a compulsory subject in school. Maybe then the world would be a better place.

nineteen stops and still a long way to go

yeah pictures from debo's party. i know i look like crap in all of them but they sure can't beat the ones from mr shi's wedding. anyhoww just put the pics up cause they remind me of how nice that evening was(:

so today i had to leave the cinema early to run to far east shopping centre to get my uni stuff settled. wonder what happened at the end of iron man. but i feel a lot better now, being more clear and less muddle headed about what to do! and man does it feel weird knowing that i'll be really really gone in a few months! beh. and on my way back i popped into zara to check out winter coats(cause by nook or by crook huayshan yuen is not going to uk without a decent stylish BLACK winter coat. i don't need to look like paris hilton but i do not want to look like hitler, have u seen his ugly trench coats??)

so i'm back at my brothers and i'll be going home to malaysia either tmr or thurs, depending on whether tickets are available tmr. yuen family gathering haha. OHwell. i gotta go snooze i have to unpack, clean the house, RUN, and check out some student visa nonsense tmr by 6pm. yeah goodluck huay shan. see you all after a week!

**huayshan

wah damn hot lah

seriously. the.weather.is.crazy.

okay. so on saturday i met wanyun(finallyyyy) and she forgot to bring my stuff(ROARRR) and we headed to debo's party at night.

some random things that happened at the party.
1. marc believed me when i said i was going to do animal studies in birmingham.
2. we ate a bambazillion brownies,apple pies,pizza,and elise's beehoon.
3. elise,lina,wanyun and huay shan spent an hour hooting over the idea of elise becoming a lawyer, and they gave me some tips on how to look stylish in winter clothes. elise's tip no.1 was: watch gossip girl and wear what serena wears.yah,give me money then we'll talk.
4. zara made me laugh till i got abs.apparently she and elise have a pact to make themselves hot before uni starts and upon discovering this pact i entertained myself to no end by waggling my finger at her and slurring "not hot!" when she started doing very unhot things like picking coacoa puffs out of the doughuts and dropping them on her lap.

today was uneventful. well i want to move back from my aunts to my brothers. in a bit of a predicament now. when i go overseas and want to come home, where the heck do i go man. malaysia or singapore? malaysia's my hometown, and where my parents are at, but singapore's where i'm most comfortable,and my life, my FRIENDS are here.

**huay shan

The past week has been busy and it will only stay the same, or get worse. I am really tired. Although trainings have been fun, it's really tiring. Having to rush from one place to another and train on consecutive days is no joke. I finally felt the exhaustion today and guess what? I'm gonna have to find some energy in me to train again tomorrow. There definitely are people who have it much worse than me but I haven't had such intensive trainings for quite a long time so it's all new to me. I guess it's fun and all but sometimes, it's just draining. I hope I'll get used to it and hopefully, it'll become easier as time goes back. At least my teammates are really great so it makes things all good (: Coming back to 7s today was quite unexpected. I actually found it fun! I mean, I didn't think being taken down, tackling people down and collecting bruises were termed as fun but it really was! I guess it reminded me of the U20 competition last year and it was just great fun! I hope Saturday is gonna be alright!
Ah but despite all these, it's good to come home to a wonderful family, great books and excellent music. I realise my music taste has evolved yet again. I have officially joined the Chill Club of which Chang is the president. I'm really beginning to appreciate Jack Johnson, Daphne Loves Derby and Aqualung even more now. Music really makes my day. Listening to these bands/artistes really soothe my soul. It's just beyond description. Frankly, I can't live without my ipod now that radio is out of the picture for me. I just love love love my ipod to a million little pieces. Simply cannot do without it. I love Steve Jobs and his team for creating one of the greatest gadgets of our time. And of course, all the artistes who make it possible.
For now, I'm content listening to my Chill Club music. But I know, tomorrow's the start of the week, which means work starts tomorrow. Sigh, I'm getting a bit worried. I can't survive 3 months of work, what more 3 years next time? I guess I'll just take it as it comes. Time to gear up for tomorrow!

xoxo,
mar

a final decision

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

-frost

(love that poem)
yepp it's all done. i clicked the submit reply button, and clicked on FIRM. meaning i've accepted the offer at birmingham for real after much wishy-washiness.had a newsouthwales phone interview this morning and it was horrifying i swear i'm awful at interviews. although i may end up having no other choice, i've found it really hard making myself conform to the idea that i will be going to birmingham. whoohoo. months of emo-ness will follow for sure cause i can vividly remember my first few months in a new country(singapore). scaryyyyy. anyhow. it's done. i've taken the road less travelled and it better be good.

** huay shan

may day holiday!

yay! holidays make me happy cos it means a good sleep-in! and sleep always makes me happy.
i spent the day reading My Friend Leonard, watching sitcoms and movies and trying out the new work-out plan jen devised for me, which left me feeling pretty good! (:
cheers to the holidays! i can't wait for more to come! 30 May, please come quickly! and take me away from this dreary place.
seriously, even though today is a happy day, i still can't shake away the feeling.
the feeling of missing my favourite people in the world: the ij people, the team and the first cousins. it seems ages since we've spent some time together and that really sucks. i hate how work takes away your life.
the feeling of not being able to move on. i really try hard to do so but sometimes, that horrible sinking feeling comes back and slaps you right in the face. i'm really trying. but somehow, no matter how hard i try, the feeling just comes back. and it sucks knowing that whatever i'm doing isn't working.
ah well, i guess these feelings are just part of life. i will just take the advice of Leonard and hold on tight, no matter what shit life throws at you. hopefully, things will look up soon. hopefully...

xoxo,
mar