CLARA and HEIDI

this will probably be one of my last few posts before i head over to uni. i know ill still be in msia but it wont be the same, ill still feel out of touch with u all.so..

i had a lovely time with my classmates yesterday night. thanks to everyone who made their way down, i want you all to know that i appreciate it. i want you all to know that i cherish you in all sorts of different ways. and it doesn't matter to me how long you stayed or how tired and stone you were. your presence meant the world to me. haha i don't know what to say. of course my elise my ELISE whom i've grown to adore made me a gorgeous cake that uh is very unlike me, thankew. when i first saw it(the cake is blue) i was preparing myself to bluff elise that the cake looked awesome(i assumed that she had accidentally screwed up the dyes or sth) turns out, it's meant to be blue. haha! (refer above) and thanks to maziah and lina for being excellent guests and bringing tons of food.

i must confess i was worried everyone was bored at first but i guess things got better when we all headed to holland village haha. shiok. talked quite a bit to everyone and ah. liesel chengwei lina elise debo annsiong fred hanteng maziah elizabeth. i think a couple of ppl may have felt bad for leaving early/not giving me a present but i want everyone who feels this way to know that i don't give a rat's shit cause if you were a good friend to me throughout jc and these past 8 months, no present can be better than the memories that you've given me.

some gave me siglap kfc cheese fries sessions, some were there the first time i bought makeup, some cheered me on when i bought dirt-expensive shoes, some warmly welcomed me into their homes, some were my running partners, some taught me mahjong and "got bomb!", some made me laugh so SO hard(read- i give up already huay shan i'm going to raise my hands in the air and leave it to God(two days before prelims) ), some put up with my vanity, some taught me to club and some were there for me when i was having kayak problems.

i'm all tired out now and i have a lot of stuff to pack and i have to clean my house cause some people played floorball and dirtied my floor(but i still heart u all) haha. well, it's not the end. december will come soon. and while we may not be the best of friends in the time to come, i thank you all for giving me the best two years of my schooling life. i really loved vj. cause of you. no matter what happens in the future, i'll always rmb my vj years as years of fun,laughter, total stupidity and warmth. that's it actually. that's what i love abt s33. why i feel so comfy. u guys are warm. and totally stupid. raise your hands, those who found the sight of elizabeth holding a pink can of foam and a curling iron in her hands funny. *raises hand wildly*

and i met my ij people a few hours back. gave me awesome gifts. i got a 2008/2009 diary and two tupperwares and lovely notes and scrapbooks. and don't mind me but marianne wong, of all the notes you've given me for the past 4 years, i can really feel the sincerity and warmth in this scrapbook the most. i laughed and teared as i was reading it and i want you to know that i love it and will be bringing it with me as a form of support and encouragement. twins and chang were equally sweet and cherlyn kept talking to me today why ah? haha random i was wondering never seen her so chatty before. but i heart u all and i will miss u. but dec is such a short time away :)

so i'm off to clean up and all now, and i guess i just wanted to say goodbye, and all the best. thanks for reading this and for caring for me. i'll definitely update more when i reach uk and ill really need to talk to u guys for moral support then. till then, i wish u the best with ure busy lives, thanks for taking time off your chaotic lives to feel sad about my departure. have fun and live life to the fullest and just remember that huay shan exists and save a few days in dec for her cause she'll be dying to see you all then. all my love.

huay shan.

Monday Blues

As I sit in front of the computer, waiting to go to school, I can't help but think how fast things are moving.
It seems like yesterday when we were still sitting in the container classroom, hoping not to get chased out and trying to cram everything into our tiny heads. Then I realise, that was last year. Tomorrow marks yet another farewell. There have been 2 already and there are many more to come. It never gets any easier. In fact, I think it gets more and more difficult.
Today is Shuj's birthday. And she's not here celebrating it with us. No more blindfolding her and smashing cake into her face while telling Bao to work faster at lighting the candles. Those were the days. I really wish time would just freeze and we could go back to those familiar days. I'd give anything to go back. Don't get me wrong, my life now isn't bad. It's just that I wish I had those people next to me, going through this with me. I know it's a childish wish cos all of us have different 'callings' in life. Those were the days.
I think it's the weather that makes you think back and realise how much you miss those good ol' days, which seem so far away now. Life never gets any easier. I know it's only gonna get worse when 21 September draws near. I don't know how I'm gonna deal with it. For now, I just thank God I still have some of the girls left with me. I will treasure and make the most of it. It took last night to make me realise how fortunate I am to have a very sweet friend, who stayed up till 3am with me, listening to me and offering to pay me a visit in the wee hours of the night just to keep me company. Thank you much. You're much appreciated (:
Alright, school.

xoxo,
MAR

I walked for 2 kilometres,

and ran for 19km! okay fine more like walked 4 and ran 17km but IDUNCARE i'm cool. i completed the army 21km marathon!!!! wanted to kill chinghui for making me take part in it but now i have no regrets. definitely an experience worth having. damn a lot of army guys took part but i heard they were forced into it so.. haha. ALOT of them were walking. i swear i finished before at least a hundred army guys. *pinky promise* anyway i felt like giving up plenty of times but as i got closer to the mark i got more encouraged(: and peiying sacrificed her run for me she ran with me the whole time. thank you peiying... anyhow, i felt awesome when i crossed the finish line. LEGS HURT LIKE CRAP and my head was spinning a little. but awesome!

then went to adam's road food centre to meet mariannes, and twins. ate nasi lemak haha and drank my BANDUNG! my favourite drink of all times. then twins and chang came to my house and HELPED ME PACK... thanks leh. i'm very touched. corrine just sat there and gave random comments(which served as entertainment) but cherlyn and chang were damn on! aw. then we watched the channel 8 drama. aii i'm very emo and sad now, all alone at home. aiiii.

so this friday, maybe start coming at 5? then we'll eat and talk and watch shows. haha do come(:

huay shan.

SAD

i am indeed. getting sadder by day and more anxious too. ah. anyhow more on that another time. i miss you all so much already!!!

okay,

29th august(edit) STAYOVER(next friday) at my place in buona vista

i know its far away but if you love me you better come. come anytime, anyone who loves me can come=) don't feel obliged to though, i just want a small cosy gathering. let me know if you can come yeah.. i was thinking some rented movies, pizza, random food(pot luck please!! i cheapo) and maybe mahjong? or lots of talking or u can help me pack. hehehehe. okay that's all for now. love love love love love.lots lots lots of love!!

huay shan
(less emo but still pretty sad)

Another One Bites The Dust

So yet another goodbye has to be said.
I'm gonna miss you Shari and all your glamness!
Skype us and good luck with Shuj! HAHA.

School has started. I'm still trying to get used to it because everything seems to be moving at lightning speed and I'm struggling to keep up. I really hope I can have a balance of everything, which seems impossible right now. I'm really thankful for my new found friends who are guiding me every step of the way. What would I do without them? Let's hope our weekly meet ups will keep up because I cannot imagine school without these nuts as well (: I feel really lucky to have them!

On a side note, Saturday's coming! Stressful day! I really hope things will go okay. I'm terrified but on the other hand, I wanna get it over and done with. I want to do the best I can. I want to be the best I can. I feel inspired by terribly scared that I will not perform. I have to take my fear and throw it out the window. I have to be aggressive and run as fast as my legs can take me. I have to do it. I have to. Wish me luck. I hope I survive!

Busy week, and it's only the beginning. I have to get used to this. It isn't gonna be easy.

xoxo,
MAR

so what do you think about

me having a mini farewell sometime soon?

tickets have been booked and i'm flying from malaysia. sad isn't it? and i'm going back on 1st september for sure, so that leaves two weeks in singapore. how am i going to see all of you enough??i was thinking a small gathering at my bro's place on a fri. we could stayover till sat? i don't know. gotta do it soon. lots of movies+food involved. haha. should iiii???? who can come ah?? i very sad now :(

huay shan.
(being emo)

A New Beginning

So today's gonna be my first day of school. I'm not really excited. In fact, I'm terrified. I feel as though I'm totally unprepared. I have so many things left undone (though I can't really think of them now) and my brain's rotten to the core.





Spending time at the zoo with the study buddies was amazing. Despite my severe lack of sleep, I managed to summon enough energy to have a blast! We walked around the whole place like 3 times? We didn't take any tram rides at all and we managed to see every single exhibit! One of the best parts was playing in the ball pit! It was really fun and colourful! The company was really the best I could ask for. I'd do it again anytime. But this also reminds me that I'm really gonna miss them. We're all going on our different paths and it's uncertain when we'll see each other again. I really miss studying with them because it was that much more fun with them and they are the ones that helped me so much. It's scary knowing that I'm moving on to the next phase of my life without them by my side and the girls, too. Sure, I have new friends but it's so different. I will try to make the best of everything though. Let's just hope we keep in touch. I will miss having a blast with these nuts though! <3

Alright, time for my much needed sleep.

XOXO, MAR

It's Hard To Say Goodbye

Goodbyes are never easy.
Today was the first out of many I will have to say.
It's not gonna get any easier.
It feels as though reality has just slapped me in the face.
It's here.
The next phase of our lives starts now.
You will be dearly missed, Shuj.
I still cannot imagine life without you near me.

about my greatest passion

FOOD.

i swear. i'm not one of those skinny girls that keep talking about how much they eat and how much they love to eat(but secretly starve themselves) to show that they can "eat" plenty and still stay slim. i'm a genuine food lover.

i honestly have food on the mind all day. i look forward to my meals although i eat at extremely unregular hours.sometimes i feel guilty for all the food i eat and go for a run to drop off some of those calories but most of the time i just dont care, BURP. i've also been on diets(usually lasts a day) when i binge too much the day before. but it never works. FOOD! makes me high, rocks my world. i just ordered macs. i'm always perplexed when it comes to ordering macs at night-

PROS:
1)i'll be happy and full
2)i won't be miserable the whole night

CONS:
1)expensive leh..
2)fats pile on
3)i'll feel guilty the next day

But ohwell. haven't ordered macs for about a month now so it's about time! (:

i especially love eating with good friends who eat as much as i do. my favourite eater is definitely miss PANG RUIYI. she's the only person i know who's capable of eating as much as i can. and we have the same post-macs-syndrome. wake up the next morning moaning about being fat and unhealthy and flabby. haha! and i loveee well-stocked refrigerators. ah. i think i'm this way cause my parents were SUPPER-supporters. we ate a lot at night when i was young. my mom always came back late at night(around 11+) and she would bring back tons of food(there was always a pasar malam near her office and her students' parents always brought her food as a form of gratitude,my mom's the best eng teacher you'll ever find) so i would eat with her when she came back at night. eventually got used to it (:

okay just a random desire to blog about this. ask me out for makan soon!

CLARA
(my new favourite name cause of lina's uh-hum hall "enemy")

smashing!

marianne's birthday pictures! i would upload the ones i took but i don't know where the cable is heh. okay been a very hectic few days indeed!! running all over the place doing all sorts of nonsense. i feel very dumb about yesterday night i'm turning red as i'm thinking about it. heh. anyhow i'm feeling very bleah now. my brain's a bit dead now. no energy. i need to start school roar. can't imagine what it would be like if i were gg to australia. start next feb leh!!

okay i don't really have much to sayyyyyy. been watching the nanny nonstop hehehe. okay i'm off to watch moremoremore. (: i want a purpose in life!!!! gah.

heidi

These few days have been good! Spent time with some really awesome pals (: What in the world would I do without these people? I dread the start of school because it means less time spent with them. I also wouldn't know how to get through school without some of my new found friends. If it weren't for them, I'd still be sitting at home wondering what on earth BOSS is and probably ending up wasting one year of my life. So yes, I've learned the importance of friendship this week.

I caught the opening ceremony of the Olympics just now with Bao and Jen. I must say it was a spectacular performance and it got us all so hyped up for the Olympics! The performances were swell as well! Wow, I wish I were there! It was really a sight to behold. Too bad the whole thing took really long though! So I couldn't risk missing the last bus back. It was so much fun watching the whole thing at Jen's place. Great company, awesome show and amazing food totally made my day. I reckon it's the ideal way to spend time with friends (: I wish we had more of such chill out sessions! If only time permits. Time is running short and I don't wish for this period to end. True, I've made some good new friends but yet, I am not ready to start a new phase of my life just as yet. It seems too soon, no? Maybe it's just me.

Then there's some things which just has to piss you off. Perhaps I'm getting less tolerant. But can you really blame me? I've tried time and again to forget and move on, and yet, things keep happening and they get worse and worse each time. I can no longer be completely honest because I fear for the reaction I'd get. I've begun to hide things. Not intentionally, really. I just want things to remain the way they are because maybe I'm stupid. I have no idea. This issue has been fucking me up so badly. It's like I'm torn into two. It's frustrating and yet, I have no guts to face it head on. Conflicting emotions and yet, no balls. What a perfect combination. I just hope things can be sorted out quickly. Thanks to those who've spared their ears with the long story (: It has really helped lots!

MAR

TENNIS COURT

is going to be my new homee! (:

i got my accomodation offer yesterday through email and i got blardee excited started squealing and waking my brother up. i had to pay the deposit within 7 days or my place would not be secure so i got really hysterical and msged my mother i can't remember what i said but i scared her so bad the phone rang like 5 seconds later(i swear) she got damn -_- when i told her what i was panicking about.

so anyway, i'm glad i got tennis court! and i got the meal plan too. my first choice! this other rj girl i like is staying there too yayy. hehe. but she applied for self-catered leh. sad. later i emo eat in the dining hall alone. haha and i have to check in on 20th sep so THANK GOODNESS i haven't booked my air ticket! that means i'll fly off on fri the 19th.

i'm really grateful, my parents were really supportive. i was shrieking at my mom and she got so tired of me she passed the phone to my dad so i would shut up. haha and my lovely daddy, one of the most responsible people i know, settled the whole payment thing for me THIS MORNING. awesome. some more he paid the full fee instead of just the deposit! and DINGDING pleasant surprise, there's a 50 pound discount cause he paid the full fee all in one shot! yay saved RM300. alot okay. now that i'm slowly filling up one gap after another i'm getting more excited. it's REAL. my offer is unconditional. i got a room. next-visa and airticket. phew.

went out with my cui lian todayyyyyyy =) debooooooo tomorroooowwww =)

BAIBAI

HEIDI YUEN

one of the things you may not know about me

i can't stand people who like me very much when i don't like them as much. and it pisses the hell out of me when they don't see that i'm trying to get away from them though in real life huay shan is very nice and will keep smiling. okay don't be scared friends, i'm genuine most of the time haha just some people in school exasperate me and annoy the heck out of me. like GOD get a life already! i say i'm running late still want to talk. i mean. if you want something bad enough can't you do your own research. kena sai... GRRR leave me alone lah. brrrrrrr. ok one of my flaws. i know. sorry. TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY THERE THANK GOODNESS. i kinda got a better farewell than i expected, i was expecting to slip away quietly but yeh some teachers were very sweet. mrs mah,mdm liew. aww. anyhow glad my stint there is over.

Thennsss ytd lina and elise sleptover!!! they're both so cute. i like (: these kind of people are allowed to love me all they want. oh ya they both think i'm some cruel person cause my rabbit stinks. oh, didn't know i had a rabbit? okay now you know.

IM FREE. elizaBIRTH here i comee!! elise here i come toooo =) man. shiokness ahead. I don't have to wake up at 6 NO MOREEEEE. maybe i go call chengwei then we all hang out together. later he emo again. GOT BOMB!!(inside joke)

debo where are you?how's that song go- where do you go(go go go) my lovelyy.. where do you go. i wanna know(know know know) my lovelyy.. etcetc. elise probably loves this gay song. anyway elise loves mandy moore! awesomeeee

i heart vanessa chong cui lian (x1000000) i pangseh-ed her to rush home today to pay a maintanence bill but on my way back i passed by the briyani stall and couldn't stop myself from fishing out 4 bucks in exchange for a slab of mutton on yellow rice and i was so excited i spent the next half hour munching away and COMPLETELY FORGOT to pay the bill. pay tomorrow pay tomorrow.

need tah shower but me lazy. okay la me shower.then pootpoot. then watch material girls on star movies. then sleep(it's going to rain shiok la) okay that's all the crap i got. oh oh oh. a new "i want" list. random hor.
I WANT:
1)a curling + straightening iron (2 in 1!)
2)a luggage(still)
3) a gorgeous diary
4)lots of hairpins and clips(which i shall get in msia. i'll like spend 50 bucks on hair clips, hair pins, rubberbands etc. i keep losing them!put in my bag,leave in the toilet, lend to people..always disappear!! and god knows how much a hairpin will cost in england.)
5)a prata session after 12am. ok lots of prata sessions.
6)a pink satin spag strap top. preferably got a bit of lace. cannot find i tell you. been hunting for it since the day i was born!
7)my eyes to even out again(right eye smaller than left)
8)to bake cookies then eat them immediately afterrr. i rmb baking at debo's for vday. in j1. i ate plenty of the cookies when she turned her back. heeeeeeeee.

baibai. siao bai tu. sorry hahahaaha byee

HEIDI

Happy & Tired

So I'm finally back from my insane back to back camps. It's been exhausting for sure but nonetheless, I had a ton of fun. I made some really good friends along the way too (: I really think that the group makes the whole difference to my experiences. I'm really lucky to have awesome groups for both camps. I like the fact that I can clique with all of them and to have found good friends in the process. Now I won't have to go to school nor sit alone in class (if our bidding is successful). I just hope that we can keep in touch throughout the 4 years. It's scary knowing how everything is moving so fast. I feel very overwhelmed by the huge changes that are coming my way. I know many are experiencing the exact same sentiments. Yet, no matter what, it's never easy and it's sad. Still, life goes on and we just have to deal with whatever comes our way I guess. So for now, I'm just glad I've made some awesome new friends! Here's one of them. More pictures up when some idiot decides to send them to me!

Man, I'm gonna miss the 4am heart to heart talks, the chill out sessions in the cooling tent, hanging out with those nuts, eating supper with the group of them etc. These memories will always stay with me and it's been such a blast. In many ways, I am thankful that the camps have come to an end because it is exhausting (especially when you have to leave and go for trainings or have consecutive trainings immediately after you break camp) yet it's sad because you hope you will keep in touch but you're not sure if it'll happen. I have faith that we will keep in touch somehow. I just hope this belief gets proven.

Happy things aside, it's been a tiring start to the week. Trainings have recently increased thanks to the upcoming touch season. (I love our new team name by the way). And, things haven't been easy due to some unfortunate events. In some ways, the camps have made me realise how important friendships are and they have opened my eyes. I just wish that things could be less complicated and that sometimes, things will work out. I've told myself to forgive and move on, but it keeps getting harder each time. Although things seem better now, are they really? I need to sort things out. If only I had more balls.

xoxo,
MAR

i heart bacon

so let me start off by telling you how amused i was today when i was marking the students' journals. the topic-smoking. there were two interesting entries. one guy wrote that plenty of students in his class smoke in the toilet during lessons and the other wrote that he used to smoke but stopped when his teeth started turning yellow. *bug-eyed* haha.

and i'm looking forward to tmr because i'm having high-tea with two teachers after school. two teachers that i like very very much!

and awesome news-- my offer has officially turned unconditional! so it's happening for real, i'm going over! i'll also be getting my accomodation offer within 14 days. now i shall worry bout my visa. OOmph.

as i was watching a rerun of the night from the museum(which is totally awesome- dumdum i want gumgum HAHAHA) my brother reached over and flicked my knee and said "you're going off soon." i think he's going to miss mee.... (: aw.

this wed i will hang out with my elise! and once i stop working i'll hang out with elizabirth too. ooh and maybe i'll try to run for two hours straight. seriously guys if i make it through the marathon i'm going to be a totally new breed of awesomeeee. haha well it's an experience that i'ld like to go through before i die anyhow. heh.

off for now.

BARNEE