i like blogging!

hehe i do!

anyway a few randoms. i've developed a strange new habit- been doing that chicken little dance move- the running man isit? everytime i feel happy. when the travel agent managed to change my return date to msia after my exam w/o any charge so that i can come back 4 days earlier, I did the running man in my room. My mother was extremely amused. and today, mummy let me park her car. the security guard was watching us(with fear i think) and i did it successfully so i started doing the running man in the middle of the road. It's a newly aquired habit!

this is odd but when i'm at my mom's office i have a habit of peeking into the dustbin whenever i walk past it to choose my snack-of-the-day. her students dump the wrappers of all sorts of delicious junk in there. i saw a box of glico-rolls before i left. am so going to get myself some tmr! *beams*

i'm coming to sunny singapore to hug my darlingFRIENDS on sat! can't wait (:

well, take care then!

huay shan

p/s driving totally sucked ytd, the instructor hates me now i think nyeh. more on that some other time!

Bumming

Recently, I finally decided to give up a book I was reading and pick up a new book, which my mum so kindly bought for me and left it on my table one fine day. Ever since I picked it up, I couldn't put it down. I've finished reading The Art of Racing in the Rain and I must say, it's one of my favourite books to date! I love how it's funny, heartwarming and sad all at the same time. The book is really unique as it's written in the perspective of Enzo the dog. I thought it was brilliant. It allows us to look at life from a completely different angle and I must say it's really inspirational! It's really a brilliant read and it totally made my weekend!

That aside, I've decided to pick up reading again as well. I realise I have plenty of books that are sitting on the shelf, waiting to be read. So I have been bumming around these past few days, just relaxing. It feels great having lots of time on my hands and spending it with great company (:

Take today for example, I had such a great time relaxing at home, fixing up new things I bought for my room at Ikea (of course I couldn't have done it with some help) and just packing up the room and sleeping. It's a brilliant feeling. We also cooked and clean for lunch! It was tiring but well worth it! I had a wonderful home cooked meal of brocolli, carrot and cheese omlette. I loved it! (:

Just ended off the day with some work and watching America's Got Talent.

Ah, this is the life. All feels so surreal. I wish it'll never end. I look forward to more of these days!

Alright, back to the tv and book later!

MAR

Finally, something blog-worthy.

HAD MY FIRST DRIVING LESSON(in malaysia) TODAY!!

thought i'ld try make my post look more interesting :p

anyway it was hilarious, i had so much fun and i was damn high after.

so the driving uncle drives to my mom's office(where i am) to pick me up. cool right? haha anyway then he drives to the end of the road and starts teaching me the basics... IN MANDARIN.

i really wanted to force myself to use mandarin and not chicken out with a meek "dui bu ji wo de hwa yi bu hao ke yi jiang ing wen mah?" so i did. tried to understand and i kinda did! *beams* all the conversing in mandarin with my mom's kaypoh student mothers have paid off!

so anyway after awhile he lets me try to drive(in a housing estate mind you, and MY FIRST LESSON) and so because i had 7 lessons in sg, i'm pretty decent at moving the car so i drive around for abt 5 mins and suddenly he asked me to TURN INTO THE HIGHWAY.

huayshan: uncle, you bluff me ah? (while refusing to accelerate)
crazy uncle: bluff you for what? no car go go go!

so i drove IN A STATE OF SHOCK and eventually ended up, 20 mins later at the driving school.
so i drive drive drive, and he taught me how to drive and stop in the middle of a hill when suddenly:

uncle: (gets out of car) ok i wait here for you ah.
huayshan: ............
uncle: go go go!
huayshan: uncle.. this time you really bluffing right?
uncle: really really go! (slams door and walks away)

so i drove round and up hills and down hills on my own, OMG SO FUN!!!

then i drove back to my mom's office with the uncle occasionally adjusting my steering wheel for me. and he was like ok la, you can take test. so he started scribbling furiously on this pink sheet of paper and asked me to sign in a bazillion places and i was like.... then i saw that HAHAH ROFL, he was FAKING LESSONS so that i could book the test now! HAAHAHAAHAHA laugh until lao sai lah i tell u!

lesson tmr again. can't wait :p

huayshan

my crazy body.

sometimes i get very annoyed with myself cause i feel like i don't appreciate my body parts until they get distorted in some way and i realize how nice they were before. i have very random shit-i-hate-_______-now-why-didnt-i-appreciate-_____-before phases very often! they come one after another!

let's start with sec 1 shall we..

sec1- I HATED MY BOOBIES. wanted to be flat cause everyone else was flat and wearing sports bras(coloured ones that got you screamed at by the discipline mistress) and i was damn shy during PE. i'm not busty but i'm not flat either. anyway, this is why i was a little hunchbacked between ages 13-15 until i grew to appreciate my girls. used to wear sports bras everyday, and i would buy the smallest-sized ones so that my boobies would be squashed like mashed potatoes!

sec2-still hated my girls but i also HATED MY HAIR. woke up obsessing over its messiness, its refusal to stay in one friggin place! i used to wake up a bit earlier to wash my hair before i went to school cause my hair's slightly tamer after its washed. after i get up from bed my hair looks crAzy. this problem got solved when i grew out my hair. long hair's easy to manage! i still obsessed about my hair though, i never dared to go out with my hair down cause i thought it was too messy. in fact, i never let my hair down till.... j1? sec 4? yeah. even now u will never see me with my hair down, without a hair clip. my hair's crraaAzZy!!

sec3-went back to boobies. now i realised that flatness wasn't THAT cool, but i thought mine were strangely-shaped. i remember obsessing over the bras that i bought wondering why my girls looked strange in tight tees that i was strangely into back then too. didnt help that my bestie has the body of a goddess(yes you, vanessa, welcome back from bali!!) and i hate strangely shaped nehnehs. meh.

sec4- weight weight weight. was obsessed with having that flat stomach which i never, and i probably WILL NEVER have. so stupid back then, i didn't even think of wearing babydoll tops. stupid! but i did manage to master the art of SUCKING-TUMMY.

j1- finally got over boobies and skinniness and hair. then bloody odac camp made me polka-dotted. my arms and legs were filled with sandfly bites that i just COULDNT STOP SCRATCHING. i was quite insecure abt the damn bites. i remember thinking ARGHH why didnt i appreciate my lovely flawless legs when i had them?? this obsession led to the famous incident where i left the ointment(what was it called ah..?? the white coloured one.) -that i "borrowed" from vj's first aid box- in the cinema. cause i was busy applying ointment to my feet while watching a movie. haha.

j2- i think i was pretty happy with how i looked here... hm!

after j2- bloody patch under my eye. there was some sort of infection under one of my eyes which made me look like i had a black eye. was bloody insecure about it so kept smiling so that my equally disgusting eyebags would cover it up. everyone still noticed it though, nyeh.

now- im obsessing over something but i dont want to tell everyone what it is cause then you'll all notice it and i'll be sad! sometimes when you don't mention sth nobody notices. learnt that from deborah. hahahha but i think some people can guess what it is :( it gets me quite depressed sometimes. but ohwell! at least i've gotten over the other things (:

worried sth will happen to my complexion cause its gorgeous now(hehe) so am taking very good care of it now.

well that wraps up a random post.

byebye!

huayshan

Summertime!

It's been ages since I've updated this space.

A lot has happened this Summer. So far, things have been good, if not great, despite my fatigue. I'm really very tired from everything that I've taken up but I reckon it's all worth while (: From meet ups to trainings to camps. I guess my only wish is that I have more bumming time.

I finally got myself a new phone! It's been good to me so far, hopefully it continues to stay this way! I love the keypad and the slim design! Brilliant phone! On a more random note, I really wanna get a new camera, more specifically the Lumix with Leica lens! I saw the quality of photos last night/this morning and I really want one! Not sure if it's a worthwhile investment though. After all, I am too lazy to take photos! But the quality of photos is really unbeatable with the Leica lens! Guess I'll sleep on it. Oh, technology!

Some other random events that have happened:

Checked out Ion on the opening itself. Goodness, it's huge ass! The design's really nice though but it's so big that I got lost. I think we walked around some floors twice! It got really crowded in the evening and that was quite a turn off. But overall, I'd say it's a pretty good shopping centre. Aside from the common brands, there are new ones opening here as well. The food hall's pretty damn good though too crowded for my liking. I would like to see more independent shops opening up though, like those you find in Hong Kong, Europe etc. I guess it's difficult but it'd be nice, no? I'm getting pretty sick of the usual brands.

Finally found a nice cafe to chill till 6am in the morning! I'm pretty slow but at least I've finally discovered it! It's a Hong Kong Cafe at Zion Road. Perfect for just sitting there, drinking milk tea and talking till the wee hours of the morning. I really enjoyed the place. Easy to get to, reasonably priced and good food too! Authentic Hong Kong food! Love it! Only problem was Hannibal was playing in the background so it kinda ruined the atmosphere a bit! Haha.

Alright, need to be off now!

marrr

nyeh

gymmed today but when my mother sent me to the supermarket to buy feminine products guess what i came out of the store with. yup, 2 packets of feminine products and a packet of sour-cream-and-onion cottage chips. NYEHHHHHH i have absolutely no self control!

aiya.

anyway on a less depressing subject....

random i-want list:
1)black skinny jeans but the good kind. my 20-dollar ones from bugis street let me down. the button popped out when i was putting it on one day. should have listened to my jeans then sigh. then maybe i would have started shedding the weight earlier!! NYEH

2)i still want my chanel classsic flap.

3)i want takopachi and bubble tea now damnit!

4)this is random but i want to do a manicure and i want the colour to be baby pink, stella if you're there remember the pink i had when we did our manicures together?

zzzzzzzz sleepy time.

huay shan

i've gained lots of weight.

seriously. not bluffing, not exaggerating. i kinda have been avoiding the weighing scale, and my motto has always been- as long as i look good (also means as long as i can find clothes to fit me nicely and as long as i dont look very OBVIOUSLY fat) i dont give a shit what my weight is.

a few days ago my mom kept smacking my tummy at random intervals and she kept going on and on about how she was convinced that i am much fatter(even though my maid and some of my mom's student mothers say i have maintained my svelte figure)she even dragged me out of bed at 10am(very early!!) everyday to go to the gym. boey tahan. so i got tired of her yapping and decided to hop onto the weighing scale to PROVE. HER. WRONG.

nyeh.

gained 5 kg.

i was and still am mortified. MORTIFIED you hear. resolved to eat less gym more. cause all the while i've just been cycling in the gym while watching "breaking the magicians' code" and "csi-(csi las vegas, not csi miami or csi newyork those are rubbish)". best shows ever. anyway yeah, so i went a bit berserk but now i'm alright. can't eat less though, i've tried i have this crazy urge to stuff myself when i'm hungry, cannot work. i just snack less but eat less cannot lah. its just in me. so just now i gymmed and gymmed and watched my shows and gymmed and i feel lots better! still heavy but im sure after a week of exercising there will be some result!! :D

ha! i will be awesomely slim again by the time i go back to bham. wait and see!!

huay shan

the 4 items i cannot live without.

hello, while i was in the shower it just dawned on me that there are certain things that i cannot live without so i thought i'ld just talk about it! yes i'm weird....

1)Shampoo
Yes shampoo. conditioner or soap nevermind, i need shampoo. Cause when i dont shampoo my hair it gets greasy and i get depressed cause my hair looks awful and FEELS awful and when i'm depressed i can't do anything so i will die.

2)Shoes
Shoes are essential. remember homerun? that singaporean movie? I cannot bear to think about walking without shoes. cant bear to imagine my precious feet being stabbed and stained by rocks and grass and mud and ugh, dirt! cannot cannot. must have shoes.

3)Handphone
i was debating between handphone, handphone charger, laptop and a laptop charger. came to the conclusion that i can always borrow someone else's charger, and then i'll be invincible! some phones have internet anyway. and why i need a handphone? cause if i need to call the police or someone to rescue me then yeah,will come in useful lor. this one is no-need-to-explain one.

4)A knife
I dont really have one now and i'm still surviving but.... i'm seriously considering getting a pocket one. cause you can use it to:
a)stab bad people
b)kill your food if you're stranded somewhere
c)open cans(its so agonising when you're hungry and the tin of delicious food doesnt have that lever thing so you have to pry the bloody can open with a knife! i can't use can openers for nuts so that's not an option for me.
d)cut your toenails and fingernails and dig the dirt out. oh ya i cannot stand long nails it drives me mad. and i can't stand jagged ones either so i can't bite them. so if i'm desperate.. KNIFE it is!!

to me ah.. money's not important cause you can EARN money. to earn money you have to have nice shampoo-ed hair to smell and look nice, a knife to cut your nails and keep you well-fed, a mobile phone to look important and of course shoes to be neat! and you say why not buy these with money? then i say if you're stranded somewhere without shops how?? ah..

off to do some work.

bye!

huayshan

it's nice,

to be around my parents when they're happy and at peace

to know that my family doesn't give a shit that i'm not a perfect straight-a student all the time as long as (and i quote) "i'm fundamentally of decent character"

to have singapore to look forward to

to have brother yuen to look forward to

to have vanessa

to feel peaceful and serene

to be able to go to sleep every night with a smile on my face.

nightnight!

huayshan

i've been eating a lot.

and am kinda enjoying my time in malaysia. my dad is still in a very good mood and i just wonder why he doesn't stay this way all the time, everyone is so much happier! ah anyway nevermind that.

been doing work like a good girl, i'm real worried cause somehow i feel like i may still fail this time, this isn't something that i can breeze through so i keep forcing myself to take it seriously. :)

driving's been a good distraction, i really can't wait to drive cause then i can:
1) drive to shopping centres on my own next time, won't be so bored in malaysia anymore!
2) MEET MY FRIENDS. i just realised i got quite a few decent friends here and it'll be lovely to go rekindle some friendships.
3)DRIVE YOU GUYS AROUND IF U COME TO SG. the day i get my license is the day you are all officially welcome to come to msia, i be your chauffeur, no problemo. now a bit hard ah.... (if elizabeth sees this, i'm thinking about you as i type this.)

that day at driving an ah beng hit on me. i'm a bit worried about going tmr in case i see him again but yay my newfound driving friend(met her on the first day and we became fast friends!) will be going so i'll have company(:

right then, take care!!

p/s been listening to miley's 'the climb' and it's a real meaningful song but i dont agree with one line- "it's not about what's on the other side.." cause it does matter what's waiting for me on the other side!! ok random if u watched the movie/ heard the song you'll know what i mean.

huayshan

Loss.

sometimes you don't realise how much you love or want something until you're almost losing it. whenever i feel sleepy and lazy i remind myself that if i dont pass this time i'll lose this and that scares the shit out of me. i need it and i want it so badly, i'm beginning to see how annoying and painful it is to be dependant on other people for money and to not have a purposeful life. Urh!! I'm going to do well this time!!! I'm not going to assume I can breeze through life anymore. This is too precious to risk. Glad I realised that now. You have my word, once I've passed this, I'll never ever ever have another resit ever again. I. Will. Get. There.

SHAN!

*coughs*

uh-hum.

a lot of things to tell everyone about. let me state the facts loouuud and clear.

1) ME failed one paper. therefore i have a resit in BIRMINGHAM at the end of august, so i'm flying back there to do it which breaks my heart. i'm flying back after though so yay! anyways, if i fail this resit they claim i have to take repeat the year. so i'm quite anti-social now even though i'm back, sorry about that. have to study.

2)i'm coming to sg end july/early aug week. for sure. yay! but i'll not be spending much time out :( just a few dinners to hug my loved ones. =) more fun after i'm back from my resit.

3)my parents (yes even dad) are being so nice and supportive i am afraid. cause my dad's niceness is very unnatural to me and im just waiting for him to explode. ill tell u when he does.

4) surprisingly, am loving malaysia. signed up for driving, and can prob finish it by the time i go back to bham. have to do the whole course in malay and it cracked me up when i went for the theory lesson. my indian instructor babbled away in malay and it felt weird but i really liked it!

5) my dad's friend from sg came to msia so we all went out for dinner. and i happened to get along vvvvv well with my dad's friend's wife so we babbled away abt bags and the uk experience cause she went to school there, and today while i was studying my mom popped her head into my room and said "aunt jenny bought you your basheeya bag." and i just stared at her. it's balenciaga btw, i mentioned it and she got her daughter to get me one(pirated btw not real)! it's not the classic design but it's quite nice, i'll use it v often so u'll see it =)

that's all for now......

shan

Oh! What a Night

Spent the past 2 days home alone. Haven't done that in a while. I miss the company but oh well, spending sometime alone ain't that bad. I reckon we all need some alone time once in a while.

I spent the time watching Indie films and listening to Indie music. I am in love with the Indie spirit. The movies I watched were brilliant! Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist was so cute! And it was just so real. Garden state was such a heartwarming and realistic movie. Both were fantastic and their soundtracks are equally amazing.

Shot from last night using the camera of my new phone. Not bad I must say (:

Last night was great though! Had a nice, warm, home-cooked meal which left me bursting! I had to eat 2 slices of cake after as well! Went for a nice long drive after around Singapore. We travelled so much! From Bedok to town. It was fun though! Great company makes for a great drive (: Ate my favourite dao huey as well! I miss times like these!

I guess it's nice to have some alone time and some relaxing time admist all the hassle of everyday life. Next week's gonna be packed. Trainings are insane but well, at least it keeps me occupied and hopefully, fit.

I can't believe the holidays are ending :( Reality just slapped me in the face when I received the much dreaded e-mail about BOSS reopening. Sigh. I guess all good things must come to an end somehow. I do wish this honeymoon period would never end.

Alright, back to listening to my new found music.

xoxo,
MAR

very soon(:

the gorgeous beach. and sun.

my first pebble beach!!

could barely keep my eyes open!

lovely lovely lovely visit. i have a slight tan!

while talking to pria and her friend we all realised we had a secret desire to try lipstick on- went to superdrug, saw a 3 for 2 sign by maybelline lipsticks, nodded at each other and proceeded to paint our hands with with lipstick- pria chose bright red, her friend chose a dark pink and i got a light glossy bubblegum pink that i decided was lovely after seeing it on kate hudson in how to lose a guy in 10 days. i like doing stupid girly things like this hehe.

only bad part is i think i pissed pria's dad off when i pressed my feet against the wall while sitting on the sofa(he asked if i could put my feet down cause i was leaving dirty footprints on the wall which i sneakily tried to clean before i left)

flying back to malaysia tmr (: let's hope dad's not too much of a pain.

huayshan